Am I going to die :(

[Iwannabelikeyouohh]

My husband has just had a positive LFT.

I’m absolutely petrified. I’m extremely obese with a BMI of 40.

I am fully vaccinated but I have had two different vaccines. 1 AZ and 1 Pfizer.

I feel physically sick with worry. 😓

“I’ve never thought to check antibodies.
I wonder how long they last for.”

I had them checked privately because I have health anxiety too.
Nobody really knows how long they last. After 6 months you’ll get a booster, studies have shown they last at least 6 months, but that was 2x Pfizer or AZ. The vaccine mix produces higher antibody levels on average.

I’m pleased to hear you are contacting your mental health team.

@Mellifera

Nobody really knows how long they last. After 6 months you’ll get a booster

I wonder if we will still be eligible for a booster after mixed vaccines.

Yea we are!

I had a blood test 6 months after 2x astra zeneca and I had antibodies.

I think OP, you need to do whatever is right for you. If you want a PCR them Wednesday would be sensible because you wouldn't be able to catch it after that.

Remember, only you know if testing makes you less anxious or feeds into your anxiety and makes it worse. Do whatever helps you get through this.

@Budapestdreams

I really think my DS was positive at the same time
as DH and if that’s the case he will be at day 10
today (DH is day 10 today)

He has to isolate until Wednesday and I’m off work with him.

I hope I’m past the point of catching it from them both now, but who knows.

DH was originally told (via the app) that he would have to isolate from the day of his PcR + 10 days. But Test and trace told him he can go from the day of his positive lateral flow as thats the day he started with this tickle and prompted him to take a LFT.

I remember your posts about getting the vaccine. You did really well to get that second dose. It's thought that mixing doses gives greater protection and you seem to have proved that because you have avoided it.
You will be able to have a pfizer booster six months after the 2nd jab.
I hope you manage to get some better treatment for your anxiety. Do your best to lose some more weight. If you can manage that life might look brighter.

@CatAlice

There’s still time for me to test positive from them both.
I have been for a PCR this afternoon.

This week I have lost 7.5lb (since last Thursday when I last weighed myself)

I have tried so hard and it’s paid off.

I hope I can keep it up.

How are you feeling OP?

@Spottyphonecase24

Honestly, horrible.

My PCR came back negative.

DH is out of isolation now, two days to go for DS.

I just feel so mentally drained.

This week has really got to me. I feel down and deflated.

When do you speak to your mh team next? Keep focussing on the f t that you are negative.

@LIZS

I will speak to them on Wednesday.

It’s just so hard. I feel so down in such a deep pit and I don’t see how I can ever get past this fear.

I really don’t want to catch Covid from DH or DS but at least if I did; I’d know the outcome in a few weeks and I could then try and move on from this fear.

I just don’t know how to “live with Covid”.
It’s ruining my life. No one is taking me seriously and I feel like I’m never going to get better.

This week has been so hard and mentally I’m so drained.

Covid is always going to be here and I just don’t know how I’m supposed to accept that.

[quote Iwannabelikeyouohh]@LIZS

I will speak to them on Wednesday.

It’s just so hard. I feel so down in such a deep pit and I don’t see how I can ever get past this fear.

I really don’t want to catch Covid from DH or DS but at least if I did; I’d know the outcome in a few weeks and I could then try and move on from this fear.

I just don’t know how to “live with Covid”.
It’s ruining my life. No one is taking me seriously and I feel like I’m never going to get better.

This week has been so hard and mentally I’m so drained.

Covid is always going to be here and I just don’t know how I’m supposed to accept that.[/quote]
I hope you get somewhere speaking to your MH team tomorrow.

OP, I've been in the place where I, and my family, thought I could never get better, from some extremely serious mental health issues. Not anxiety but other things which were life threatening to me in the way they were playing out.

If you'd asked my DH is there anyway I could have got better, at the start and in the thick of it all he would have said no. I wasn't able to give an opinion but I would have said no.

Mental health issues CAN improve. You've tried one medication and CBT with one therapist who really doesn't seem to be working for you with this modality of treatment.

Use your fear which is making you say that you don't know how you will live like this to keep pushing for the correct help. it isn't easy but somewhere there is the correct help. Keep pushing for different drugs that you can try. Medication does help. It takes a while, it takes finding the right one but there will be something.

Use the panic that you feel to make yourself keep on pushing because as I've said a whole load to you, you absolutely deserve to feel better than this. But it isn't going to come without you and your DH really fighting for it. Which is shit. But please fight for it.

It think you need to address what your biggest fear part is and that's your weight. It's hard because if you're like me you'll reach for the treats when stressed. But if you can chip away at that then it might lift your anxiety at bit?

Start small 1lb a week and a short walk every day.

Great news that you’ve lost an amazing 7.5 lbs in a week, well done.

@hopeishere

It think you need to address what your biggest fear part is and that's your weight

I don’t even think it’s just my weight.

I think it’s just Covid. Covid scares me.

I just wish it would go away. 😔

You cannot control covid, but you can take control of your weight. Focus on what you can do, not what you can't.

But covid scares you because you're overweight and you think that makes you extra vulnerable - no? So address the weight and then you're less vulnerable?

@hopeishere

I think my weight makes me worry more, but if I was magically a size 10, I don’t think my fear of Covid would go.

My BIL is a healthy weight, young, no health problems. He’s been the one who’s been most unwell with Covid.

Covid is unpredictable and everyone reacts differently.

Just because I lose weight doesn’t mean my risk will magically disappear, and just because I’m fat
Doesn’t mean I’m automatically going to be severely ill.
This week has made me really think about this.

Covid is just a life long fear for me now

But it is about getting that fear into perspective. Lose weight, have the vaccines, keep on with hygiene measures - those you can controland mitigate risk of catching it or being ill. Iirc bil was not vaccinated.

In the kindest possible way OP you really need to find better coping strategies. You have been posting constantly for the last 18 months. I've noticed a pattern with your posting, in that as soon as people offer pragmatic and helpful suggestions you simply dismiss them and are intent on the narrative that covid will ruin your life.
You will go quiet for a few days then start a new thread... rinse and repeat.It really is time to take some control and losing weight would be such a positive step for you. Of course you don't want to hear that.

[quote Iwannabelikeyouohh]@hopeishere

I think my weight makes me worry more, but if I was magically a size 10, I don’t think my fear of Covid would go.

My BIL is a healthy weight, young, no health problems. He’s been the one who’s been most unwell with Covid.

Covid is unpredictable and everyone reacts differently.

Just because I lose weight doesn’t mean my risk will magically disappear, and just because I’m fat
Doesn’t mean I’m automatically going to be severely ill.
This week has made me really think about this.

Covid is just a life long fear for me now[/quote]
I honestly felt like this about the condition I was afraid of a couple of decades ago - like I'd never be able to live a normal life, that the fear would always be hanging over me, and I didn't understand how everyone else could be so blase about it when it could strike them down at any moment.

After treatment (I had therapy and antidepressants) and time, I now go months or even years without even thinking about it, and I don't live in fear anymore. Obviously that's much harder with covid as everyone's talking about it, but hopefully that will fade as time goes by, and it just won't be as much a part of your life as it is now. I just wanted to let you know that there can be hope even if it feels like you will NEVER be able to stop thinking about it - I honestly felt exactly the same, and it seemed completely rational.

I just honestly don’t understand why others aren’t as scared as I am am. Pretty sure everyone was last year!

Also BiL is vaccines, he’s had one vaccine.

I have lost weight this week. I’m also going to a weight loss group on Thursday night.

@Iwannabelikeyouohh

I just honestly don’t understand why others aren’t as scared as I am am. Pretty sure everyone was last year!

Also BiL is vaccines, he’s had one vaccine.

I have lost weight this week. I’m also going to a weight loss group on Thursday night.

Did you read what Babybellblue posted ? She's spot on.

Why would people be scared ? Its a virus that the majority have been vaccinated against, that lowers the chance of death and serious illness.

Good luck with your weightloss but I have a feeling it wont make a jot of difference to managing your anxiety which is beyond irrational.

I just honestly don’t understand why others aren’t as scared as I am am. Pretty sure everyone was last year!

I wasn't.

I looked at the data and it was clear that my chance of dying of covid was very small. Now that I'm vaccinated it's minute. I am at so much more risk from other things (RTA, cancer, heart issues, etc).

[quote Iwannabelikeyouohh]@hopeishere

It think you need to address what your biggest fear part is and that's your weight

I don’t even think it’s just my weight.

I think it’s just Covid. Covid scares me.

I just wish it would go away. 😔[/quote]
It's never going away. You need to take some steps to overcome your irrational anxiety, it's destroying your life. If not for you, for your partner and child who are affected by this.