Am I going to die :(

[Iwannabelikeyouohh]

My husband has just had a positive LFT.

I’m absolutely petrified. I’m extremely obese with a BMI of 40.

I am fully vaccinated but I have had two different vaccines. 1 AZ and 1 Pfizer.

I feel physically sick with worry. 😓

[quote Iwannabelikeyouohh]@JesusIsAnyNameFree

Will you comment on the rest of what I posted?

I just don’t know what to say :(

I’m so afraid. I’m trying my hardest, I really am.

I played in the garden with DS today, we did some baking in the afternoon.
My mind wasn’t there, I was a million miles away worrying.

I want to believe I will be okay, but then the doubt sets in and I start thinking “what if”….
What if I’m not okay. What if I get severely ill or die.[/quote]
Yes but OP, please.. it's just so, so unlikely now with the jab.

I'm scared too. I have an asthmatic husband. One I've been with since I was a teenager and one I can't live without as I don't even know who I am without him. That scares me so much more than my own death. I know he could cope on his own with the kids but I don't feel like I could. I also have a risk factor that's too outing for me to say on here which is less risky than his due to slight age difference and genders.
But, I know that with both of us vaccinated, if it does come into the house, there's no reason to panic because the risk is so small and also because at that point I will fully accept that it's out of my hands.
I won't even stay away from my husband if he has it as I'll want to spend as much time with him as possible, just in case that teeny, tiny percentage ends up happening to us.

Hi OP, just read all your posts. My friend who just turned 50 is obese and got covid last year when unvaccinated. He was poorly but not hospitalised. It took him a few weeks to recover but was ok after a month. Sis in law is early 30’s and also obese. She got covid earlier this year when unvaccinated and was poorly for a few days but not hospitalised. Just anecdotal but obesity doesn’t necessarily mean you’ll really suffer. Age is still a big factor and yours is in your favour. I also have other friends who have low immunity who have been poorly but not hospitalised.

It sounds all consuming for you but the thing is, as things stand, you’re ok aren’t you so take it one day at a time. You may not even get it. DH, DD aged 10 and I got it recently but DD who is 13 and in the vulnerable category didn’t even though she lives with us, was a close contact of someone on her school transport and a close contact of someone in her class! Good luck and I hope all the family are on the mend.

@LIZS

That's good. Tomorrow will he watch ds while you take a short walk?

@LIZS

Yes DS naps 12-2 so I plan on going for a walk tomorrow whilst he’s at home napping.

@Budapestdreams

Your DH sounds lovely too

He really is. He doesn’t deserve to be living this life with me. It’s so not fair on him.

I recognise that but I’m so wrapped up in my own beliefs I can’t undo them.

I can’t tell you guys how much I appreciate your input. If may not seem as if it helps me or that I’m taking note, but I promise it is, and I am.

It’s keeping me going and making me feel less alone knowing I can post here about how I’m feeling.

[quote Iwannabelikeyouohh]@NeverDropYourMooncup

And still get in touch with Rheumatology

Already done this. I left a massage with the rheumatology nurses. It’s the only way to contact them.
They usually return messages within 48hrs.[/quote]
Well done! (not meant sarcastically).

It's important to address a flare as soon as possible, and like I said, a steroid shot can give almost instantaneous relief whilst the other meds take a while to get to full effect. If I had been in work at the time of my last shot, they said I was potentially at slightly higher risk for a fortnight - but that was purely because a) no vaccinations last December and b) my job literally involved looking after every sick Covid ridden child on site.

Four weeks after my second vaccination, I shared an office with somebody who had Covid and my last self isolation period as a contact was in July, due to an incredibly upset child, shouting and sobbing and spluttering/spraying saliva all over me for a good half hour (and was mask exempt according to Mum) that tested positive two days later. We were in one of the initial Delta hotspots, too. Not even a sniffle - just 14 days of utter boredom as it was just before they changed the rules.

Vaccines work. You're lower risk than me, I've been in contact with multiple cases (so therefore a much higher viral load) both before, when I got the original variety, and after vaccination, when Delta was taking hold. And I have been fine.

You're going to be OK.

Hope you have had your break today.

@LIZS

I’ve walked to our local park. Brought a coffee with me. I’m just sat enjoying some fresh air.

I find it hard to sit and do nothing though. My mind literally cannot switch off. I have so much nervous energy.

I feel very down today. It’s not even anxiety, I just feel very emotional and tearful.

Can you get a relaxation app or music on your phone?

@LIZS

I have several, I’m just struggling to switch off.

I’ve had so many scary intrusive thoughts today, mainly about death and covid. Instead of distracting myself, I’m giving in to them.
I end up googling / reading articles about Covid and people going to hospital / how ill I might be from it.

I know not to do this, but it’s like I have “feed” my thoughts and reassure myself somehow.

I can’t tolerate the uncertainty. It’s something I’m working though in CBT but I’m not doing very well with it.

I have got a book with me so I will try and read a little.

[quote Iwannabelikeyouohh]@LIZS

I have several, I’m just struggling to switch off.

I’ve had so many scary intrusive thoughts today, mainly about death and covid. Instead of distracting myself, I’m giving in to them.
I end up googling / reading articles about Covid and people going to hospital / how ill I might be from it.

I know not to do this, but it’s like I have “feed” my thoughts and reassure myself somehow.

I can’t tolerate the uncertainty. It’s something I’m working though in CBT but I’m not doing very well with it.

I have got a book with me so I will try and read a little.[/quote]
This is my point though, CBT is one of many many many different forms of therapy. The reason I keep urging you to speak up and ask for extra help, no matter how many times you ignore me, is because there are people that CBT won't help. But there's so many more different options. It's not easy as getting mental health help is notoriously difficult, but I'm urging you to speak up because like Ive said a lot of times, you deserve not to feel like this.

OP, I'm sorry you're having a bad day today. I'm sorry if you've already said, but are you on anti-depressants or any anti-anxiety medication?

Your description of PND and now feeling emotional and down sounds like you could benefit from medication, or a different medication to any you are taking.

You are trying so hard and you already have a therapist. I don't know if you could try any harder so the other thing is medicine and I wondered if you are taking the right things to help you?

@makelovenotpetrol

Sorry you think I’m ignoring your advice, I’m not.

Believe me when I tell you I have asked for SO much help.

In the first instance I contacted my HV.
My son is nearly 20 months now and I have never
seen a HV in person.
HV told me to speak to a GP.

I spoke to a GP and the advice was to self refer to a local talking therapies service.
I did this and had weeks of CBT which focused on PND & OCD.

At the end of this I knew I still wasn’t right.
I asked for more help and was told I would need to refer back to talking therapies.

I was put on a waiting list. In the mean time
I was offered online group counselling with other mothers diagnosed with PND.
I took part in this.

I then got a space for CBT and was prescribed Sertraline.

I still wasn’t feeling right and was really struggling.
I told the therapist I didn’t think it was working and they told me I wasn’t eligible for secondary mental health care and we kept on doing the CBT.

After advice on here I called the crisis team, they weren’t interested because I wasn’t suicidal!

I called them again, but still didn’t get any further support.

People on here had told me to ask to be sectioned.

One night I felt so so bad and really didn’t think I wanted to be here anymore. I was so scared I took myself to A&E

I begged to be sectioned. The Dr told me I wouldn’t be sectioned. He told me people who ask to br sectioned don’t need to be sectioned…
I cried so much and begged him to section me… he wouldn’t.

He spoke to the crisis team who came to see me, and arranged secondary mental health support.

I had an assessment and was assigned a psychologist.

So, what else do you suggest I do?

Other than going private (which I cannot afford to to) I have asked and asked for help.
I think the services available via the NHS are limited.

is there any support available via work (hr may outsource occupational health and wellbeing services) or your dh work if he has private healthcare as an option. Our ccg and council has a joint venture to provide wellbeing advisers who take a holistic approach with advice on a variety of issues including weight management, mh, diet etc and signpost accordingly. Your hv is still a good point of contact, until your ds is five.

[quote Iwannabelikeyouohh]@makelovenotpetrol

Sorry you think I’m ignoring your advice, I’m not.

Believe me when I tell you I have asked for SO much help.

In the first instance I contacted my HV.
My son is nearly 20 months now and I have never
seen a HV in person.
HV told me to speak to a GP.

I spoke to a GP and the advice was to self refer to a local talking therapies service.
I did this and had weeks of CBT which focused on PND & OCD.

At the end of this I knew I still wasn’t right.
I asked for more help and was told I would need to refer back to talking therapies.

I was put on a waiting list. In the mean time
I was offered online group counselling with other mothers diagnosed with PND.
I took part in this.

I then got a space for CBT and was prescribed Sertraline.

I still wasn’t feeling right and was really struggling.
I told the therapist I didn’t think it was working and they told me I wasn’t eligible for secondary mental health care and we kept on doing the CBT.

After advice on here I called the crisis team, they weren’t interested because I wasn’t suicidal!

I called them again, but still didn’t get any further support.

People on here had told me to ask to be sectioned.

One night I felt so so bad and really didn’t think I wanted to be here anymore. I was so scared I took myself to A&E

I begged to be sectioned. The Dr told me I wouldn’t be sectioned. He told me people who ask to br sectioned don’t need to be sectioned…
I cried so much and begged him to section me… he wouldn’t.

He spoke to the crisis team who came to see me, and arranged secondary mental health support.

I had an assessment and was assigned a psychologist.

So, what else do you suggest I do?

Other than going private (which I cannot afford to to) I have asked and asked for help.
I think the services available via the NHS are limited.[/quote]
I'm going to do something I very rarely do on here as I don't like giving any personal info about myself but I am happy to private message you some things you could do to help you get more help, if you'd like that.

@LIZS

is there any support available via work (hr may outsource occupational health and wellbeing services) or your dh work if he has private healthcare as an option. Our ccg and council has a joint venture to provide wellbeing advisers who take a holistic approach with advice on a variety of issues including weight management, mh, diet etc and signpost accordingly. Your hv is still a good point of contact, until your ds is five.

@LIZS

Maybe I can ask the CCG then. I did write to them about my mental health when I was asking for Pfizer instead of AZ as my second. They didn’t do anything.

Work isn’t really much of an option. I only work for a small company. HR are aware of my mental health conditions but haven’t offered any external support options.

@makelovenotpetrol

Thank you.

[quote Iwannabelikeyouohh]@makelovenotpetrol

Thank you.[/quote]
I will DM you later on this evening

Today is day 8 of my husbands isolation.
When is he not contagious? Obviously he isn’t going anywhere. But when am I less at risk from him?

DS has to isolate until next Wednesday but I honestly think he was positive at the same time as DS.

People are most contagious in the first 5 days. He's legally out of isolation at day 10 isn't he, so not contagious by day 10 but really quite unlikely at day 8 I would suspect

Day 11 ie. Monday. When did t and t say he could stop isolating?

@talkalarm

He has to isolate until midnight on day 10.

He did a LFT this morning and he’s still showing positive. Does this indicate he’s contagious?

@LIZS

Isolation ends midnight on the 17th. Sunday night.

What I don’t understand… if I wasn’t fully vaccinated, I would also be allowed out on Monday with DH (if DS wasn’t positive)
But what If I’ve caught Covid today and it takes until next week to show?

[quote Iwannabelikeyouohh]@talkalarm

He has to isolate until midnight on day 10.

He did a LFT this morning and he’s still showing positive. Does this indicate he’s contagious?[/quote]
No.

You can't take an LFT for 90 days after testing positive as it will continue to show a positive long long after you're no longer infectious that the tests are pointless.

You're very unlikely to now get it

@Iwannabelikeyouohh

Today is day 8 of my husbands isolation. When is he not contagious? Obviously he isn’t going anywhere. But when am I less at risk from him?

DS has to isolate until next Wednesday but I honestly think he was positive at the same time as DS.

When were you less at risk?

About 14 days after you had your second vaccination.