ok- have set aside a bit of time to let you know what I have been up to
Firstly, I have been very busy with my baby cats They are a right handful BUT I am happy to report that they now absolutely LOVE eachother what a releif!!! They sleep together, clean eachother, its lovely. Completely turned around in days- MBM, how is Dusty getting on with the dogs? By the way, cobby does mean 'solid' or 'chunky'- Meg has got that shape, Evie is more oriental looking and long limbed. They are so lovely, I just adore them. Have been handmaking cat food for them too which is taking ages and they will be back on pouches soon if they keep turning their noses up at it Do I sound nuts???!!!!! We are a right cat family now!!!
Well, on the baby front there has been a lot going on. If you remember, I had a consultation back in March which was very positive and he basically said that I needed to recover from my first laparoscopy and then he would do further investigation. WELL, fast forward to June when we went back for a follow up and saw a different consultant. She had none of my notes so wanted all my info again (took ages) and then proceeded to tell us we needed IUI. We sat there really shocked and said 'but what about the endo? We thought that would be treated?' and she said no- IUI first, then she would treat the endo I told her how much pain I was/had been in and she just ignored me. Then Simon asked her if the endo would stop the IUI working and she said 'I dont know'. Its only a 10% success rate at best as well....
We were truly shocked and to be honest we have been very sad and upset about the news of fertility treatment being our only option, plus me having to stay in pain. Its been a big blow Simon has been very low, even shedding tears and completely shutting off. Its been hard.
Anyway, fast forward to this week. I started to feel quite pissed off and wanted answers. So spoke to my acupuncturist who deals with CRM a lot and she suggested that i write everything down in a letter and send it to the lead consultant there. I laughed thinking she was joking but she seriously thought that that is what I should do. So on Wednesday night, we sat and wrote a 3 page letter about everything we had been through and the pain I was in recently and the appt we had with the other consultant and I dropped it in yesterday afternoon. (CRM is at the hospital I work at). Well, piss me, Within 15 minutes the lead consultants secetary was on the phone- he had read my letter and wanted me to come in today at 11.30 to talk to him It was a mega rush, getting time away from work but we made it to the appointment that as far as we were concerened, was going to sort everything out for us....
are you following this????
We went and after a long wait we were called in to see the lead consultant. We went in and he shook our hands, sat down and apologised that we had been recommended to have fertility treatment. He wanted to know all about all the symptoms I was having and he wrote everything down. And he told me that he wanted to operate, another laparoscopy but this time he will laser all the endo away and he will searate my ovary and bowel and it should leave me pain free and it will give us a really good chance at conceiving naturally. I could cry I am so happy AND he gave Simon his most recent sperm analysis results and he said they were marvellous (all the vits and exercise must be working!!) and he said there was every chance we could conceive naturally and he will give us that chance before sending us for fertility treatment. He did say though that if he did the laparoscopy and things didnt look good he would tell us there and then and refer us straight to IVF (better success rates) rather than messing about. We were very happy with that. Went for the pre-op assessment today ready for a date to come through.
I feel like a massive weight has been lifted off our shoulders. This whole thing has been so up and down- but the last few weeks have been awful. Hopefully this surgery will be the end of this awful awful nightmare. Am sat here in pain now, dizzy with painkillers and I just hope that in the next few weeks it will be sorted.
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Anyway, hope you are all good and love to all xxx