Hey guys, can i come back in. had a BFP a few months ago and then Mced for the 4th time, we went for a private scan on the 7th may and found that the baby had died at 8 weeks. had an ERPC on the 12th may. Pretty sure i ov last week as had ewcm, i havent done any tests since mc to check if hormones have gone or not but i had all the symptoms of Ov. AF normally arrives 17 days after ov so will be expecting it in about 11 days.
We havent been actively trying but we also havent not been trying, we did bd when i ov but dont expect to be pg as it took us 3 yrs to fall with the 3rd mc and then i fell on clomid and this mc i fell on clomid too. we have agreed we will give it 3 months and then perhaps try the clomid again but in the meantime we are just going to go with the flow.
My friend called me yesterday she is 40 weeks and she proceeded to moan for about 30mins about how uncomfortable and pissed of she was, when i told her it would all be worth it when the baby arrives she told me she didnt think it would be. it made me very upset as i fell 6 weeks after she did so should be 34 weeks now or at least 15 weeks if i had not had this mc too why is life so unfair. well after all the moaning she did she had her baby girl at 4.15 this morning and i am so of her so much so it hurts. Does that make sense ?
I feel very alone at the moment, i have no one in RL who i can talk to as everyone thinks i am doing so well and yet all i want to do all the time is cry. we had a holiday last week we went to egypt and it was lovely but am now very depressed that i am back and dont want to be here at all. I then made the mistake on commenting on another thread yesterday and although i wasnt being mean in anyway i got a lot of backlash from it and thats made me very emotional too.
Oh god sorry for the waffle guys it would be lovely to have some moral support.
Yellow enjoy your hols, i think perhaps you have had a very early mc i dont know if you are aware but if there is pg hormones in your system then OPKs will show up positive.I know people that have used OPKs as HPTs although i never have. perhaps worth an experimental try at some point.
Cindy am with you on the AF front i am hoping to god that it returns soon so i feel like i am back to normal athough am dreading it too as it will just be another reminder that i am not pg and that i am never one of the lucky ones who fall straight after a mc.
Ok will stop going on now. Thanks for listening guys.