November 2007- going through, been through or ttc after mc, still positive and still eating cakes

[grinningbee]

Here we are then, if it worked!

A nice new shiney thread to fill up with gorgeous cakes.

I'll start with a gooey sticky pecan pie at got at the W.I market yesterday morning

Lissie how soon do you think you will get a referral? Eveything crossed it is soon.

calling mc association now and LWH will definately take us, just need to convince gp

Hey Ladies..

Just back from EPU and everything is fine. We could even see the wee bean and a tiny heartbeat...NOT just an egg! I've never seen that before so am in total shock..so is DH.
Feeling much better now and she told me that my consultant was really nice and that I could relax until the 18th when my booking appointment was. So bean is measuring about 6+5 today and that's just fine. Thanks for all the good vibes. I'm just so relieved, I could cry!

best of luck Lissie!

wow mcchesers that is great news, I cannot wait to see mine next week, will make me a little less anxious. You must be so made up

grinningbee - will be thinking of your DH x

lissie - I'm OK today thanks still a bit pukey but not too bad about the same as the DDs really, how are you doing? Getting ready for the fight? Have you got an actual appt at LWH yet?

jules - every day is another one crossed off, I have the magic 12 weeks up on the calendar (I know tempting fate) but trying to stay positive, magic day is day after Boxing Day.

much, much, better cheers SK. DH put the scan on the fridge so that I won't forget to eat. Feeling still a bit seasick..nothing I cannot overcome with V8.

GBee - thinking about you and your DH.

Jules - How are you doing?

so pleased for you mcchesers x

Thanks Lissie..you are a sweetheart! I'm down with the MC avengers too, and I really hope they give you the support that you need. We'll all be here backing you up 100%!!

Things sound positive on the thread today. McChesers nice news, brings tears.

Ladies I have to admit today I have this REALLY DEEP DESIRE to be pregnant RIGHT NOW. It's not a regretful/loss type feeling either. It's more like let's get the ttc action ON! Must be my clock....tick tick tick tick tick .

jules, have been waiting for you. what was the big man like? sooooo glad it went well sweetheart!

mcchesers that's great news!

jules how did it go?

I'm feeling a bit sorry for myself, just want to go and hide in a corner and wake up pregnant I'm not very good at talking about my feelings and I know I'm just bottling everything up in an unhealthy way. I feel kind of OK on the surface but I'm just not really dealing with it right now I was trying to not get my hopes up with this pg and was trying to not believe I was pg until I saw a heartbeat, but I'm not sure that really helped.

The Lesley Regan book arrived and I've been reading it all day - she says there's a 5% chance of two consecutive m/c but only 1% of 3 or more. Once I've read it all I think I'll go to my GP and see if my history of PCOS + m/c justifies any testing at this stage. I really don't want to have to go through all this again if there's something I can do to prevent it...

sorry rambling now.

Trying to think of the positive things, like how much wine I'll be able to drink over Christmas and New Year

wishing everyone a good weekend

x-posted Jules - glad to hear it went well!

Kasha sorry you are having a bad day. I think you're right to go talk to your doctor, I would in your position too. I may get that book too.

Twilight funnily enough but I was feeling that way too, I want a baby, lets get on with it, must because I'm mid cycle and hormones are after sex.

Jules glad it went well and you are now in the capable and loving care of Dr DP and everything crossed for scan next week.

Lissie, it sounds like a good idea to wait til you're getting all the support you deserve before ttc again - tell your GP about the MC Avengers and their big pants - that'll scare him into referring you in no time

Jules - glad to hear things are going well, and fingers, toes, freckles, knees crossed etc for the scan next week

McChesers, great news that scan showing all ok after the worry

GB - good luck for Monday - when does your dh get the results of the blood tests?

I've had 1 af since mc, and that was 29 days after the heaviest bleeding. I'm usually about a 28/29 day cycle anyway, but 28 days was up on Tuesday, and still no sign other than a few mild pre af pains. i did a test on Wednesday lunchtime, in a mad moment of recklessness, I felt a sudden irresistible urge to put those spare tests to use, even though I only had a dribble of wee. Anyway, was bfn. Suppose mc still messing with things. Anyway, would have been almost an immaculate conception, so would have been a minor miracle if anything but bfn

Hope everyone's ok this evening. I've had a slab of choc cake, with a toffee nut hot choc from Starbucks (with whipped cream of course) earlier... any spare B&Js Jules? Cos that would just finish my evening off perfectly

Kasha - Sorry you have had a bad day. I thought how incredibly brave and strong you sounded when you posted on Weds and you'll get there again. Try not to put pressure on yourself to feel better quickly - it will happen so just feel what you feel - iykwim. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

Also to all the pregnant ladies - don't leave us !!

Great news Mcheesers- you sounded so down this week. I'm so pleased for you. Now go eat something.

Lissie - so sorry the m/c was confirmed. Glad you didn't need intervention though. You and your dh are really going through it Glad you haven't given up though. Interested in your decision to go to LWH. I am going to research other options too.

Jules - glad all going well so far. The percentage they gave you is still good imo so try to stay positive hun Were you diagnosed with APA? Just wondered why you are taking heparin.

TJuice - glad all going well with baby. Sounds like an active one

Kasha and LoveVerona - so sorry to hear of your m/cs

Kasha - I am really sorry you are going through this again. Teehee said it right..you have so much strength and bravery. I've been following all your posts and my heart just broke to hear your sad news.

I've been here almost everyday since August and I am so grateful for all the support and experience of all you amazing ladies..and I'm glad I can stay. I've got one foot over here and another in the antenatal threads.

Thanks to everyone for holding my hand. I'm still rooting for all you TTC and keeping cakes and chocolate for everyone who has to go through this mc nightmare. Big hugs to all.

Splish - I've got a lemon torte in the fridge if you want it

Mmm, lemon torte, sounds delicious, and surely there must be a B&J flavour to go perfectly???

Think af is on its way, it realised how much I missed it once I mentioned it on here!

I am . Despite much enthusiasm from dh and myself the evil flo is on her way. Gonna take a break from the ttc boards for a while. Might lurk though Good luck everyone and hope there are more bfps

OH LL - As you know that was me a couple of weeks ago. It really hits hard when you know you've done everything possible doesn't it ? Huge hugs. Don't be a stranger (although understand need to lie low for a bit).

Jules - glad all went well at the consultant. Mccheeser and TJuice - glad all is looking good too.

More hugs to Lissie too.

ladylush -
Do pop back from time to time cos we will miss you.

My dd is happy cos my mumu just bought her some boots for the winter. last year she had some bright pink kickers which were lovely but impossible to look nice after a while cos there was no polish to match. This year she has pale green with flowers on, so hopefully they will look less bad with a bit of scuffing.

We've got a party a bit later - a school friend. I'm feeling chilled about it cos I've driven there before so I'm fine about the journey (I only passed my test Aug 2006 and am so not a confident driver, and hate parking!!).

Trying not to think about my tenatitive bfps last week. Convinced that my boobs are less sore, that my back is twingey and that af will come on tues/weds/thurs as expected.
I just don't know why i'd have got a bfp at day 24....... Still 10 days til I see the dr, but I do not want to embarrass myself by going sooner. Have convinced myself that it was a bizarrely early bfp, and wishing i hadn't tested (though as i said i was only testing cos i had odd feelings about last months af so i was trying to prove to my irrational thoughts that I was not pg despite having af last month. that sure backfired didn;t it??)

Repeating myself massively . sorry
, but apart from dh, who is in his own crisis re work and is about to go away for a few days to get things in perspective (not the kind of job he can stay at home to do so cos work is at home and on his doorstep) i'm not telling a soul. Trying to hold out so that if by some miracle i stay pg i can surprise people.

Hope everyone is having a nice (but bitterly cold, brrr) Saturday.

hi ladies

ladylush - sorry you have to go for a while. but i also think it can be a healthy to get some headspace and not think too much about it too. welcome back soonest xx

albs - hope you get everything confirmed soon. as i heard it, its not likely that you can get a false positive from a test but i understand that you just want to know for sure. it would not be a miracle if you stayed pg, it would be the most likely outcome(and of course a blessing too). just trying to turn that sceptical thinking into some positivity . . . hope your dp gets his headspace too.

i haven't told many people yet - but my closest friends guessed (i have felt so bad and missed a few nights out with them, which is very unlike me). and its okay with me, because i guess i kind of need them. i haven't told my parents yet though and have been worrying about that already. it didn't go down that well last time. i was shocked at how unenthusiastic they were (were worried because me and dp aren't married, he is still a student, i am crap with money etc etc. they thought i kind of manipulated the situation or something.) for some reason, they think i am 22 and not 32. anyway, although it is different this time, i can't deal with the situation right now and will wait until just before i come back to the uk for xmas and email them after my 12week nuchal scan. is that a cop out?

also, now worried about money a bit as found out that dp has not been keeping up with things very well . . . which means that i should ask for a raise (been meaning to for a while but have to gather myself and my facts before i approach my male bosses. is it me or are women not as good as men at doing this? i found out that a guy who is 4 years younger than me gets almost £10,000 more than me - ok - he has a different role but i am a key part in the creative department - am outraged). it also means that i should look for some lucrative freelance work next year after i have submitted my thesis - to try and build up some cash.
boring to relate but this whole sensible money thing is somewhat shocking to me (and i just had a topshop splurge the other day) but i guess it had to happen.

anyway, i think i will bake some chocolate chunk banana bread to take to my friends house for dinner tonight. she is making thai which i ate last night and the thought of eating it again is making me feel sick. still it will be nice to be out for once.

hi to splishsplosh, wheely, mcchesers, teehee, claire, kasha, lissie and jules. and anyone else i forgot.
xx

ladylush - so sorry to hear you are leaving us but understand, are you certain AF is on he way? I was certain she was last month didn't think we had BDed enough and felt thoroughly miserable, only peed on a test as it was an ebay cheapie and thought no chance but hey I was proven wrong.

ALBS - what a horrible time for you the not knoeing is terrible, I would be rushing out and getting CBDs every day I am that impatient. Keeping everything crossed for you x

mcchesers - we all hold each others hands, we WILl all get through this

jules - how are you doing this weekend?

Tjuice - parents eh? Last time I was pregnant my Mum said "well it's obviously a mistake!" and my Dad said "are you happy?" I haven't old my family yet just a few close friends, I like you cannot deal with it right now.

Hi gang,

Hope everyone is ok.

Can I ask a question? How long would you leave not having a period after an mc before going to the doctor?

I'm getting really fed up now and my two "AF missing in action" buddies now have TEW visiting.

(Grinningbee stamps her feet!)