November 2007- going through, been through or ttc after mc, still positive and still eating cakes

[grinningbee]

Here we are then, if it worked!

A nice new shiney thread to fill up with gorgeous cakes.

I'll start with a gooey sticky pecan pie at got at the W.I market yesterday morning

ALBS, I had BFP at CD25 last time. So it is possible that you are in the club. I am trying not to use the right words. However I did do a littl chair dance whilst reading the post from last to days!

Lissie, if it helps at all. My MC last month was exactly the same as yours. BFP Sunday, Thursday started light bleeding which soon became fairly heavy for 24hours then stopped. I also had BFN on the Monday when I saw GP. Bloods had level of 0. I have told my self it was a chemical pregnancy, so it feels slightly easier. No actual bean to lose. IYSWIM.

Hope your scan has gone ok today Tjuice.

see that's why i wish i didn't know. if i bleed next week i'd think it was just af had i not tested this week.
argh.
and so mnay people have said "i had bfp at cd 24, 25 etc" and have then m/c.... argh.

why did i test? I really thought it would be negative cos i was testing for LAST month, and i could then wait for NEXT week. Now i just haven't a clue.

irrational, terrified, argh

ALBS - I know exactly what you mean except I tested early got a BFP then you spend the next few days wondering if you will get AF anyway, it's a horrible time. Just got to tkae one day at a time old cliche I know.

lissie - again don't know what to say, what is the next move for you?

Miserable rainy day here today just abck from nusery not going back out far too wet going to make soup and comfort eat if I can face it.

Or you could look at it the other way ALBS. Showing a BFP so early could mean a huge amount of hormones which means and good pregnancy.
It is only going to make you really stressed if you worry about testing early. Maybe you should go to Gp sooner and just explain that you never show BFP until at least 7weeks and you are sure that your last period wasnt normal for you. Only the most hard hearted, incompetant GP wouldnt do something for you. Even if it is just a blood test. Surely that is better than not knowing??

lissie - I meant when do you get the blood test results or another scan?

had blood takenb today and if it shows anything then another later in the week. im just so sad.

dh wants to give up but i cant. i feel like if we do then ive betrayed them all iykwim.

Oh lissie, I'm so sorry. Sometimes it really does feel like there's a higher power against us, while letting others sail through life.

I know just what you mean about keeping trying, otherwise it feels like betraying the others. I feel a bit like that with adoption - what would my babies be thinking? Totally irrationial, but that's the whole TTC shit isn't it - totally irrational.

Lissielou {{{hugs}}} so sorry.

Oh lissie, am so sorry. Hugs to you x

Yes lissie I see what you mean, you will always be thinking, what if the next pregnancy was the one? In your case I do think there is something going on with the GBS, there is an actual cause for your mcs, no one can have 6 and just be unlucky. I think if you sort that out then you will have a baby at the end of it.

Keep on fighting and don't let the bastards fob you off

So sorry to hear your news, sending you lots of good wishes. Not sure if you want/can see someone privately but I've heared good reports about a specialist called Mr. Michael Dooley in my area though he practices in london aswell. He specialises in fertility/miscarrages.

Lissie So sorry to hear your news. Hugs.
I agree with SK, when you feel up to it you may need to push the doctors for further investigation for your own peace of mind.
I hope you've got lots of people in RL to support you at the moment. We're here too of course!

Hugs to you Lissie. Thinking of you xx

lissie

i am so so sorry. i wish i could do something for you . . .

take some time now but don't give up. there is an answer somewhere - progesterone, aspirin, acupuncture, antibiotics, genetic counselling . . . I really don't know but someone bloody does and they need to help you find out.

anyway, if you can, soak up some of the good vibes and support from all of us here who are thinking of you now.

xxx

Hey, Twilight Surfer, you may remember me from the Octottc thread - I was the first to get pregnant. Well sadly lost the pregnancy around week 9, on 2 November. Just taken preg test today (17 days on) and still showing faint positive. I guess it takes a while for hcg to totally disappear....

I though I was OK about it all as I already have two gorgeous dcs, but am actually quite upset by the whole thing.

So sorry to hear you have been through this too TS. How are you doing?
x

Sorry to hear that Lissie x

Sorry to hear about your mc lovevereona - it took a while for my hcg to completely go - look after yourself

How was your scan TJuice?

(tiny tiny tiny congrats to alittlebitshy - my fingers are crossed for you)

Oh Lissie, you must feel so down. Let us know how the blood tests go. xx

Starlight - that's good news!

I'm back

I had a scan at the EPU today (7+3) but no heartbeat and fetal sac was collapsing They were able to give me an ERPC straight away so at least I don't have to sit around waiting to m/c.

I feel completely numb after m/cing at the end of August and again now

I've just ordered the Lesley Regan book from amazon in the hope that it will at least give me more information - has anyone else read it and found it useful?

{{{Lissie}}} I'm so sorry.

So sorry for you too loverona

lissie - Just typed and deleted 3 different sentences to tell you how sorry I am. Can't find the right words so

Kasha - Sorry you are here - iykwim

kasha - so so sorry to hear about your day, it sucks doesn't it? Take some time to heal and I've heard that book is good x

jules - how you doing? One day at a time honey I know old cliche but it's true, when are you having a scan?

lissie - hope you are doing OK tonight x

starlight - good news about AF returning

loveverona - I remember you from the October thread, sorry about the mc I think even when you have DCs it still hurts as you know exactly what you have lost and I felt like you don't get much sympathy already having two (especially from the everyone should only have 2 brigade). Made me more dtermined to have number 3 though.

Thinking of you Lissie xxx

Kasha- I'm really really sorry to hear about today. That is the worst feeling when your hope is gone like that, but am impressed that they could take you in for EPRC right away.

I'm still hoping that what I have in me is still viable, but I guess I'll find out on Wednesday. Now I'm terrified.

Lissie - I can only say how awful I feel for you.

Loveverona - so sorry..give yourself time.

I'm going in the bath to have a good sob.