Fuck you TTC

[painintheholeSIL]

Today should be day one of my period. No sign. We've been ttc dc2 since summer 2018. I don't have any tests in the house. I'm trying not to symptom spot, I haven't told anyone in real life that we're trying.
Our son is almost 4. I'm desperate to give him a sibling. I adore him. He's amazing.

But I am aching to have another baby. People keep asking when we're going to and we just laugh off the questions. They hurt. Every one of them hurts. I suppose I'm just looking for people who understand.

Every single thread I look at in relation to this ends up full of BFPs and I'm just not in the space where I can read those and not feel devastated.

So Fuck you to TTC.
Fuck you to months off slightly delayed periods
Fuck you to every fucker that asks me every time they see me if I have any news
Fuck you to the whole fucking lot of it.

Anyone care to add theirs?

Fuck you to my body confusing the shit out of me! Sore boobs is it pregnancy or my period on its way . 7 more days to wait ! Who knows just got to wait inpatiently.
Fuck you for all the people that say oh I just had to look at my husband and I fell pregnant !

Fuck you to being pleased my temp went up but ff only giving me 20 stupid pregnancy points. Fuck you ttc, just give me my BFP will you, I’m sick of this now

If only a BFP was merely as simple as JUST HAVE SEX

Fuck you AF for turning up.
Fuck you cramps and spotty skin making it bloody clear this month failed AGAIN.
Fuck you DR who just sent me away for 4 months because he is sure I will just fall pregnant naturally.
Fuck you everyone for telling me to just relax. Like its that easy!
Fuck you brother for posting daily pictures of your baby when you know I'm struggling.
Fuck you body for not cooperating.

Fuck you stupid Femometer app sending me a notification this morning ‘your period is on its way’! Gee thanks for the bloody reminder ☹️

@robinrose
I am also using this are you using the LH strips ? I've been using them but ordered a new box and the strips are quite faint even at peak compared to the old box . Don't know if you have found this ?

@LM250 no I am not using the strips, I have been using the clearblue advanced ovulation sticks, I haven’t had any issues with them!

Fuck you temperature dip this morning & fuck you OHs work which looks like he’s going to be away for entire next fertile window & fuck you “fertile” window, that’s clearly a lie, fertile- what a joke 🖕

I’m gonna throw in a big fuck you to getting AF today, the 3rd since my MC in December.

Also fuck you body for making me bloated constantly since the MC, so I look every bit the 18 weeks pregnant that I should be, but in fact my uterus is empty. Thanks for that 🖕🏻

Fuck you, second miscarriage and all the pain of it.

Fuck you, insensitive GPs with no bedside manner. In fact, a huge fuck you to you - you make shit loads of money and you're useless at your job. Shameful. Have a good hard look at yourselves and be kind.

Fuck you, TTC and pregnancy. Fuck you, undeserving mothers popping out kids left, right and centre with no issues.

This world is fucked up. I miscarried again today after TTC since August 19, following a bad MMC. It's 12 months of TTC with no living baby or even a prospect of having one anytime soon and I have a huge weltschmerz, as you can probably tell.

Fuck you to "it will happen when you stop wanting it".
Fuck you to everyone who falls pregnant by accident (I'm happy for you and everything, but why does your path have to be so much simpler?).
Fuck you to my mom, who got pregnant twice on the pill, and is responsible for the comment above.
Fuck you to my best friend, who was told she would have fertility issues and got pregnant in the first cycle.
Fuck you to everyone with advice.
Fuck you to my husband, who I love to death, who wanted us to wait to TTC because he thought it would happen immediately and he didn't want me to be pregnant for a music festival we had tickets for.
Fuck you to everyone who has an opinion to give, but has never been in this situation.
Fuck you to my mom friends who complain about how hard it is to be a mom.
I would give anything to be in their position.

Also, Fuck you to AF, who arrived minutes after posting this.
Finally, fuck you to the empty room in our house. I can't even use the bloody thing for storage because "what if we need it?"

@MrsMGE I am so sorry about your miscarriage

Thank you @GoogleQueen93 💐

Sorry this is such a shitfest for you as well, I truly sympathise.

My good friend and colleague went on maternity leave today. I'm so happy for her but going shopping for newborn outfits as a present from our team sucked.

Fuck you TTC.

Can I join with a controversial one please? Fuck you to all the threads on here that end up peppered with pictures of BFPs.
Not that I'm not happy for them, of course, but it can still all fuck off.

And also fuck you to my friend who told me her period was late - but it was definitely not a pregnancy because her and her DH hadn't had sex for ages.
And then, guess what, it was a pregnancy and they had "done it once and she completely forgot"

Fuck off to this unfairness (I am happy for her obv, just letting it out on here)

FUCK YOU to AF turning up (on time) yesterday, fuck you OHs work for making him be away for all of next fertile week, back on CD18 which is way too late even though stupid app is saying it’s predicted ov day but I know it won’t be. Although I’m thinking maybe a month off might be good for me tbh, not like it makes any difference anyway, I can’t get pregnant when we DTD maybe not DTD will do the trick.
@Em4815 that’s harsh, fuck that.
@Icouldstillbejoseph I know what you mean about the BFP posts, I look & im like yes that’s a fucking line at 8dpo now fuck off & fuck you to your lucky friend who did it once.

& fuck you ttc for making me so bitter, I used to be such a happy, positive, go with the flow person, now I’m just a bitter old witch & I hate it, fuck you ttc for taking me away

@Icouldstillbejoseph that is a brilliant fuck you! And the exact reason I started this thread.

I now have more. Fuck you to yet another friend who has just had twins - had a CS and had the standard advice of not to get pg within a year.
The twins are 5 months and oopsie. What do you know. A lovely BFP. Fuck this.
Fuck off TTC

Omg this thread.
This is what I needed.

Fuck you to all the money spent on ovulation sticks and pregnant tests... more expensive than raising a child! DH thinks I just like peeing on sticks and is now at the point where he doesn’t want to buy me any more. But I’m impatient and want to know ASAP.

So Fuck you TTC

Thank you for this thread. You've all summed up exactly how I feel.

Been TTC DC2 since November 2018 & I'm so fed up. I really thought I would've happened by now.

I don't do OPK's or track temperatures because I don't want to become 'obsessed'- ha! As if I'm not anyway!

Here are my Fuck You's

Fuck you to cycles that last anywhere from 25-42 days

Fuck you to having loads of perfunctory sex every other day, which is way more than I'd ever want if I wasn't TTC and 9/10 isn't especially enjoyable for either of us.

Fuck you to everyone that asks if we'll have another. It's mainly colleagues. I'm fed up of smiling and saying 'we'll see' or making a joke about it depending on how well DC1 slept the night before.

Fuck you to the colleague who asked me within 4 fucking minutes of me starting my shift if I was going to have another. Some one I've barely ever spoken to as well.

Fuck you to my colleague who told me it's good for them to have a sibling so they can confide in each other & then it'll be less on a burden on my DS1 when me and DH are old.

I just want to absolutely flip my lid every time they ask.

Fuck you to crying randomly this morning for no real reason which is a sure sign AF is coming

Finally, Fuck you to longer having any hope it'll ever happen.

Sorry that was so long, it's obviously all getting to me more than I thought.

to everyone TTC, be it 1st, 2nd, 3rd DC etc.

*no longer having any hope it'll happen

This is just the post I need right now.

We have been trying since last October, which I know isn’t really that long but feels like forever. We have been doing everything right, but still nothing.
Everyone keeps asking me about babies (no one knows we are trying)
Everyone seems to be getting pregnant straight away. Including my sister in law who got pregnant 2 weeks after having her implant out (how is that even possible???)
As AF arrived again this morning I definitely needed to join this rant