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TTC after recurrent miscarriage thread 2 - we're not giving up

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UnicornsandRainbows1 · 21/01/2018 09:17

Shiny new thread! :)

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Paranormalbouquet · 20/03/2018 17:19

@LimpLettice I really hope all goes well for you on Friday.

I really am so pleased to have a normal-ish period. As everything is really pointing to lining issues. Hopefully it continues now.

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UnicornsandRainbows1 · 20/03/2018 20:01

@LimpLettice I'm so glad they listened and will keep an eye on you.

I will have to read back and get updated on everyone. Didn't realise how low down this thread was on my watch list! 🙈

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Paranormalbouquet · 21/03/2018 07:24

@UnicornsandRainbows1 I hope things are going well for you?

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UnicornsandRainbows1 · 21/03/2018 09:16

@Paranormalbouquet We're very slowly getting there, thank you. Had a positive 8 week scan last week but sadly anything can happen. Just trying to take it as it comes. Have a scan on Monday at 10 weeks which I'm a bit apprehensive about.

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Paranormalbouquet · 21/03/2018 10:55

That’s great news. I’m sure you know that a good 8 week scan is a good predictor of a good outcome. I’ll keep everything crossed. It’s great to see good stories here, gives me hope for the future!

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UnicornsandRainbows1 · 21/03/2018 12:50

@Paranormalbouquet I'm trying to remember that it's a good sign. Sadly I've had two mmcs so I'm not very good at believing anything right now, especially the no spotting rule. But a week ago it looked good and we'll go from there!

I hope so. It's a very tricky situation to be in. You want positive stories (and there will be) so you can think 'that can be me too', but at the same time it's tough because you're still in your position if that makes sense? Basically what I'm trying to say badly is that if anyone needs to rant and be pissed off with anything I get that!

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Paranormalbouquet · 21/03/2018 12:58

I know, but I think given that we all know how stressful pregnancy after miscarriage is we do understand here.

I get you re not being reassured- my most recent pregnancy I had terrible nausea non stop, which I kept telling myself was a good sign. Not necessarily it turns out. MMCs are so cruel, I found it very tough.

But the stats are on your side now. Not reassuring I know when you’ve beaten the stats in a bad way but they are on your side!

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UnicornsandRainbows1 · 21/03/2018 15:36

@Paranormalbouquet Sorry if my last post sounded douchey. I guess I need to keep telling myself to try and enjoy it whilst it lasts anyway. This one has somehow come at a time when I still had HCG from my other pregnancy (albeit a small amount), I shouldn't have really ovulated then, somehow it stuck, and is/was the furthest we've gotten to heartbeat-wise. Even if this isn't successful, maybe those odds are amazing in itself anyway. What a midfield

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Paranormalbouquet · 21/03/2018 15:52

It didn't sound douchey- I was saying not to feel guilty about coming on here if things are going well!

I don't think you need to push yourself to enjoy it if you are worried- feel what you feel. I don't think I'll ever be excited at a BFP again. It's great that things are going well for now at least. I ovulated before having a negative test also this time around, was still bleeding. You can ovulate at

LimpLettice · 21/03/2018 16:53

Unicorn I so get you. I've no idea how the heck another pregnancy has occurred, I don't feel pregnant, and I keep thinking well, it's all a new pregnancy. But literally a month ago I was in bits. I'm so scared of Friday's scan, they'll likely not see anything at 5 weeks anyway, and I made it to 7 last time although I knew by then it was just a matter of time. It really is a minefield. I have everything crossed for you for Monday.

And ffs I need to stop testing. I've done 2 digitals, 2 Asda tests and about a zillion dip cheapies. They all say the same, they are all darkening, but it means nothing, they did that in January.

Haffertee4 · 27/03/2018 07:54

Been lurking in the background guys, just wanted to post an update. Had our 12 week scan yesterday, and everything was fine. Wriggly healthy looking baby who kept rolling the wrong way to make it tricky for the sonographer.
Just wanted to say thank you all for the fantastic support, you were fabulous and real and understood in a way no one else does/did. Still hard to believe we got here... will drop in quietly from time to time and keep thinking of you. You are all great, keep on keeping on...

HidCat · 27/03/2018 08:48

@Haffertee4 that's great to hear. Thank you for popping in, it's always reassuring to know someone is doing well. Hope you continue to have a good pregnancy.

LimpLettice · 27/03/2018 13:09

Good news Haffertee!

I updated on the other thread and forgot this one. Lss, scan on Friday saw nothing, but beta hcg over the weekend shows doubling time of around 40 hours and good high hcg. Another scan tomorrow afternoon to rule out ectopic. And my rmc consultant is out of the country until June, so no help or plan. Terrifying times.

Paranormalbouquet · 27/03/2018 13:18

@Haffertee4 I'm delighted to hear all is well. It's so nice to see light at the end of the tunnel (which is feeling very dark in my case at the moment).

@LimpLettice there should be someone covering the RMC clinic- I would insist they discuss your case with someone. Although the plan will probably not change it's nice to know you are being thought of.

I've got colposcopy today- step one in getting my surgery sorted- as my cervix is so scarred smears are completely inaccurate. Gynae want to remove it just in case we miss something. Obstetrics are keen I keep it. I've agreed to biopsies every 6 months as a halfway house!

Assuming I haven't developed cervical cancer we can plan my surgery for the summer. Have RMC clinic on Thursday where they'll do the basics and hopefully come up with a plan.

Miami81 · 28/03/2018 07:02

@Haffertee4 that's great news.
@Paranormalbouquet I hope yesterday went well.
I had my MRI yesterday. No idea if it was useful or not. Wanted to ask questions but they weren't the right people to ask.
It's six months today since we lost DD. I just can't believe that much time is gone and we are still here in the in-between. Not getting pregnant. I feel wiped out from grief this week.
Baby announcement from a close friend as well. They had IVF so I am actually delighted for them that after so many years it is finally them. But also - I haven't asked yet but I am assuming either late sept or early Oct due date - which is dd's birthday. Please don't let their beautiful baby come on her day. Is that mean of me?

HidCat · 28/03/2018 07:36

@Miami81 I don't think that's mean of you, I'd be hoping the same thing. Having said that my brother was born a year to the day after a relative died and my family seemed to find peace in that, like a part of him was reborn with my brother was what they used to say. I hope that baby is born on a different day but that it doesn't affect you too much if it's your DD's Anniversary. Take some time to rest up and work through your grief, don't push yourself to hard. Thanks

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UnicornsandRainbows1 · 28/03/2018 07:40

@Miami81 It's not mean at all. I think sometimes it's so hard to separate sadness for yourself and happiness for others, it just gets up being a clusterfuck of feelings and there's a very thin line in between everything. Is it there for a reason so it's okay to stand on it or on your super unfair section sometimes. That's how I've tried to cope anyway. All feelings here are valid and make perfect sense.

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Paranormalbouquet · 28/03/2018 09:05

@Miami81 I think that’s a very reasonable wish. I think any of us would find that hard.

I’m sorry you are finding this time hard, do whatever you need to get through it now.

Colposcopy was unpleasant (my short scarred cervix is very hard to find so they pulled it down to take a better look, that hurts like hell). It still looks short and still looks scarred but they got a better view and think that scarring is the only abnormality. They’ve taken loads more biopsies but have given go ahead to get my cerclage so that’s one box ticked at least.

Recurrent miscarriage clinic tomorrow followed by mad dash to airport to get home for easter.

Hopefulforourrainbow · 28/03/2018 10:41

Hi everyone
I have been lurking in the background for a few days and have read through all of your previous thread and this one clinging on to any positive story in the hope we get our rainbow baby.
A little about us - I'm 32, dh is 33. We have had 3 mc in 8 months. Took 9 months to conceive no1, had mmc at 13 weeks when baby stopped growing at 5+6 in aug. Had natural mc at 6 + 5 in Jan and currently what I have been told was a chemical. Went for scan 12 days ago to be told nothing there and BFN. Haven't felt right since, thought could have been ovulating yesterday as had sore boobs. Strong positive opk, did pregnancy test too and strong bfp. Called epu so have to go this afternoon. Have been bleeding over a week so don't understand why I could have gone from BFN to bfp.
Sorry for rambling on. Not sure where else to turn to and you lot seem a friendly bunch!
Congrats on the recent bfps 🌈

HidCat · 28/03/2018 13:17

@Hopefulforourrainbow welcome and I hope it's positive news for you at EPAU. I'm so sorry for all you've been through.

LimpLettice · 28/03/2018 18:44

Hi Hopeful. Hope epu tell you what you want. I tested faintly positive about 4 weeks after m/c started so it's defo possible.

Scanned again today. Yolk sac found and the right size. Epu were really positive and will have me back 2 weeks today to check the heartbeat. I wish I could feel a little more positive. We might sod the money have have a private one at 7 weeks, which is only a few days before but I'm not sure I'll manage a fortnight more. I know heartbeat isn't everything but I'll feel so much easier once I've seen it.

Hopefulforourrainbow · 28/03/2018 19:40

Thank you. Bfp again at hospital today. They took bloods and were going to scan me but decided to wait until bloods came back first. Hcg was 47 and progesterone 1.6. I ended up leaving without seeing a doctor as i had been waiting 5 hours and there was no sign of anyone. Pregnancy test they did almost 2 weeks ago was negative when I had bfp at home a week prior. Who knows what's going on! I've been referred to rmc and have appointment for bloods on 30th April.
That's good news for you! It's such a stressful and worrying time.

beanhunter · 28/03/2018 21:55

Have started my ivf drugs tonight. Not sure why we are bothering. It will either fail or even if it works I’ll probably miscarry.

Paranormalbouquet · 29/03/2018 07:03

@beanhunter good luck with IVF. I feel the same about getting pregnant again. Wonder why bother when I keep miscarrying but I suppose we never know when there’ll be a sticky one.

Hopefulforourrainbow · 29/03/2018 09:49

I had been desperate to try again after my last mc and was delighted to have conceived so quickly. Now I'm wondering if I'm putting my body through too much and take a little break. It hurts so much that everyone around me is having babies. I feel like such a failure too. My husband thinks we should wait for testing before trying again but said if I feel I'm ready before then he's happy to go with what I want.
Good luck with your ivf x