TTC after miscarriage - lucky thread number 3

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Still hopeing for 3x3 BFPs for this month. Hopefully thread 3 will do that.

Congrats JPEG, did you have a negative test after MC? If so how many weeks?

Thanks FlourishingMrs yes I had a negative test three weeks ago, but that did cross my mind that it could be left over. I'm not getting my hopes up until I see a darker line! I'm away on this hen do this weekend and just going to try and relax!

HopefulKate I read somewhere that cm increases when you conceive and that it is similar to cm when you're af is due, which apparently is creamy. Sorry tmi!

Really fed up today. Dh is being an arse because I've told him he needs to start doing more around the house and I just feel too fragile to cope with it. I should be 6 months today. It's been three months since I lost my baby and it isn't getting any easier.

Loki, hugs to you. I think we miscarried at similar times. It's tough going.

Wow congrat jpeg!

Loki my DH get moody too when I say he needs to help me more.

My opk is still positive today. Again I'm having weird prolonged ovulation. My temp went up yesterday indicating ovulation but my opk is so strong the control line is a lot fainter than the test line I just don't understand.
Every month my charts are the same, triphasic and my temp goes up as I'm ovulating and my lp isn't actually 15 days it's more like 12-13. I think I ovulate on the second temp shift not the first which will be tonight/tomorrow. Does this happen to anyone else who temps?

Also I've been using my mooncup to keep sperm in. We've dtd so much over the last 5 days my womb is actually aching!

Ladies I am going to be deactivating my account from today. In real life, someone who should know better has been stalking my posts on here and has just used their knowledge of my posts against me in an argument. I'm completely gutted because this place had become my sanctuary and you have all been so brilliant with helping me through everything. This forum has been the only thing that has kept me sane and im not sure how ill cope without it but I cant post here again. I feel like my diary has been read and all of my innermost thoughts have been ripped out and laid bare. This was my one place where I could just vent without having to be brave or filter myself. More often than not it helped me to make better choices in real life and reflect on my own thoughts. It was private and just between me and you - our anonymity providing a barrier that meant I didn't have to worry about your reactions - I could just 'be'. It was the only real source of information about what might happen to me during my miscarriage. It was the only place I could talk daily about my lost baby and my struggle to conceive because, actually in real life no one wants to hear. No one else could say 'I understand'. I just can't post on here anymore knowing that my privacy has been so utterly pillaged. Even if I changed my name I couldn't tell you it was me. I'm so fricking angry I can't even begin to put it into words. Good luck to you all. I really hope you get your well deserved bfp soon. Thank you for all of your support and for sharing your stories.

Oh Loki that's awful! How could anyone do that?! I'm utterly shocked and devastated for you, who ever did that must have absolutely no respect for you what so ever! Wishing you all the luck for the future love and I hope you can come back to share good news with us. Also sending you massive hugs, will miss your posts and advice. You're such a lovely and genuine person xxxxxxx

Loki I am absolutely gutted and even more gutted that you will have to deal with things by yourself now. I miscarried shortly after you and you were so kind to me, you PM'd me during your own miscarriage when i was panicking which showed so much strength. I can't believe someone would do that to you but please don't let them win.. Take that which ever way you want.. Your a lovely person and it's been an absolute pleasure. Will miss you xx

Loki i'm sorry this has happened to you

Loki (it's me paco) I'm absolutely gutted that someone has done this to you. You were so lovely to me after my mc and have been such a support to us all.
How dare someone stalk someone who has miscarried and use their words against them, do they not realise we've suffered enough. What goes around comes back around.
Anyway wishing you all the best of luck in the world honestly you deserve it x

Loki I'm so so sorry that this has happened to you. I can't believe someone would do such a thing. Sending you lots of love and good luck.

Loki I can't believe this. I am actually flabbergasted that someone could do that. I mean, why the fck bother?! It is very pathetic. I am so sorry Loki*. We'll miss you and the support you have offered all of us. Could you not use another name and we would all figure out? Or even, just carry on, ignore the person that has done this, and rise above their idiotic behaviour?? I am very sorry. I can see why you are hurt. Sending you lots of love and luck xx

Loki that is awful! You'll be missed. I wish you all the luck in the world with your TTC.

Loki's stalker if you're still lurking here, I hope you aren't gloating over what you've done, there is no victory when it's achieved by dirty, underhand tactics. You've done a really shitty thing and robbed a lovely person of essential support during a difficult time.

I totally agree IC - Utter cowardice. You should be ashamed.

Brown usually indicates old blood. Could it be as a result of blood released when you ovulated that is making its way out? I'd ask your consultant, you at least deserve reassurance if it's nothing to worry about.

There seems to be quite a few using Clomid on MN so perhaps start a thread asking the question with Clomid in the title might get you some answers

MrsUnsure I wish I could help but have no experience of Clomid. Definitely ask your consultant. You don't have any pain do you? I feel your frustration. I hope you get answers soon.

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No that doesn't make any sense. It is so bloody confusing. When can you see your consultant?

I'm ok - tired of the waiting, physically tired too. AF due on Wednesday. I think I am out as did another test yesterday afternoon and it was BFN. Thought my swollen boobs, bloating and creamy CM might be a sign but surely I'd had another faint line by now? Confusing really.

I am going to talk to my consultant on Wednesday about doing a follicle tracking scan for our next month to help us catch the egg more effectively. He suggested it last time as well as Clomid. So will ask him about both of those things. Need to feel like I am making progress with all this and really don't feel like we have made much in these past few months tbh.

Loki, I'm so sorry. What an awful and invasive thing to happen. This is meant to be a private and safe place.

Loki stalker, fuck off! I hope you are ashamed of yourself!!!!

The anonymity of this thread is what is meant to help us (probably why a secret fb group wouldn't work) and it's horrible that someone has abused that.

I don't know when I ovulated - could be anywhere between 12 - 14 dpo... with both of my other pregnancies, it took me over 2 weeks after ovulation to get a positive so I may still be lucky but something tells me it should have happened by now if it was going to.

Yeah I have found a good consultant - I have only seen him once but he did loads of blood tests and they all came back negative, so going back on Wednesday to see what he suggests or what that means. He told me to come and see him when I was pregnant again, but that doesn't seem to be happening as quickly as he thought!!

Do you have follicle tracking scans then? How do they work?