Miasmum, that is fantastic, congratulations!
Have fun in France - sounds great even without the wine and cheese.
Rue, sorry AF got you. Hope you have better luck this month.
Razz, honey, I'm so sorry to hear you're so sad at the moment. I went through exactly the same thing. Couldn't stop crying, was miserable all the time, felt like I was letting Maia down because I kept crying over her and feeling totally unable to make any decisions, even simple ones like should I change her nappy now, or feed her a bit first and then change it. You and I had very similar timescales with the rainbow baby being born just before the first anniversary of our angel babies. I felt like I just couldn't cope - I started researching post natal depression because I felt so hopeless. However, it became clear that it wasn't PND but grief for Thea - I didn't feel indifferent to Maia or resent her in any way or think about abandoning her. It did pass. I posted on here about it and in some ways just acknowledging it helped. I have stopped crying randomly for no reason, although my grief does feel fresher than it has for some time. I'm sure hormones and lack of sleep didn't help! Maia is a delight and a wonder, even when she wakes me up only 15 minutes after I finally managed to put her down at 5am
. She does help. I remember Spilt and Angel posting about their experiences of this fresh grief after their rainbows were born. I think I was so absorbed with worry about Maia when I was pregnant that all this pain for Thea was stored up and then came out in a flood. I'm rambling now so I'll shut up, but this too shall pass and you will start to feel more normal soon.
Angel and Fan, well done with the weight loss! You are both stars. Nearly at a stone already - that's brilliant. Slimmer of the Week, Angel! Kudos!
Miasmum, you're spot on by saying we have no emotional resilience any more. I was thinking something very similar yesterday when just reading a story about a prem baby in the paper made me want to cry. I don't feel like I could cope with any emotional trauma any more - I've used up all my strength.
Elly, hope you feel better soon. TTC is such a headf*ck in our situation, and I say that despite only having 5/6 weeks of it. What you ladies who have been trying for a year feel like I shudder to think. Going back to work is really hard too, because it feels like life is moving on.
Wtw, hope tomorrow's appt goes well!
Cheese, yay for Ella's weight gain!
Maia and I are doing pretty well. She's now passed her birth weight (as of last Wed, anyway - she was 6lb 10 then) and feeding seems to be going ok. She does lots of cluster feeding in the middle of the night, though - the longest sleep I've had in a fortnight is about 2 hours in one go! Gaaah. But she is so beautiful and sweet that it's all worth it. DH goes back to work next Tues - I hope I can cope on my own!