Mums of angels! wishing, carrying and holding rainbows.

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May this thread bring us luck and lots of support through the journey of life after the death of our little ones.

Evening all. Not around much, having a tough week, can't explain why. But I'm still lurking and keeping my mind busy with random posts in random places.

count what a shock for you, hope you're recovering well.

fan I hope you get better care next time round - I have to say my consultants and midwives (in the high risk PG unit) have been fab whenever I've seen them - it's the ones on the ward I have trouble with!

miasmum glad you got to hear the heartbeat :) what a lovely sound

orion hope you're feeling OK and not too shocked after the crash?

~waves~ to everyone else xx

count so sorry for you! :( take care of yourself and we're here for you when you need us! x

so scared this morning, didn't sleep very well... appointment at 9am... will be back later x

Glad it's first thing Blue look forward to hearing that you've sen your wriggly one xx

Wishing lots of wriggles for you, blue. xx

count do sorry for your Loss. I too had an ectopic pg with my 2nd pg and lost a tube. Since then have had 4 pg, 1 angel and 3 beautiful babies.

blue good luck at you're scan x

blue feel like I'm there with you, I havnt stopped clock watching. Can't wait to hear the news.

just the one... little healthy baby, wriggling around lots! :) I'm 11+4 days, EDD 18th November, I was only 1 day off!
Consultant has offered me a reassurance scan at 16 weeks, which I'm very happy about. If everything is ok at 20 week scan she is happy to release me back to MW-led care.
Had a nice picture and then when we arrived home and had a proper good look, I realised it was actually 3 pictures! Bonus! Good value for money that is!

blue excellant news!

Sorry Count xxx
Congrats Blue xxxx brill news xxx

Ive just done something stupid, I looked up miscarriage and glyphosate (which is the chemical I was using when I was ttc with Bungle and used in the tww) and there is a link. What have I done Ive killed my baby didnt I!

fan, it MIGHT be possible, but I suspect that the chances are very, very slim. I have also just looked through some articles, and it doesn't say anything about concentrations, levels of exposure or anything specific, only saying that there is a link. Please don't torture yourself with these thoughts. Doctors still don't know all the reasons why miscarriages occur.

miasmum thank you, I know Im over reacting, but it really hit me when I saw it. It will make me think twice about using it now at work, thankfully the spraying season is now over.

fan please don't be hard on yourself. it was NOT your fault you MC'd

blue fantastic news for you're scan yay for a Wrigley baby

Fan my lovely. I've just seen your post from yesterday. Please don't blame yourself. There are so many tenuous links to different reasons for miscarriages/stillbirths the sad truth is mostly we don't know why it happens just that it does and that the first trimester is the riskiest time. Big hugs lovely I hope you're feeling better today xx

Blue fantastic news Yay for a wriggler xx

We've been to Legoland today as K had an inset day - had a great day but knackered now! I was uber cautious about going on many of the rides just in case but loved watching K and dp enjoying it so much.

Hope everyone is well - any bank holiday plans? x

wtw I was just stupid yesterday I know it wasn't my fault. I just couldn't help looking I felt like such a failure for having three babies die, it was just a bad day.
I'm better today just back from the cinema, saw the Avengers, I'm in love with Thor! Its alright DH knows, he said its fine. Lol.
Glad u had fun at legoland.

Tell a lie I saw avengers yesterday, saw a weird little french movie tonight with my good old school friend. I just love going to the flix and thor

Ah dp wanted to take K to see The Avengers until we realised it was a PG-13! Was it good?

Me too Fan love the flicks been to see The reunion tonight American pie very funny... Had a fab night out for a meal, flicks & a drink curtesy of some fabbo babysitters (2 of my mates) xxx
Great way to start the BH weekend xxxx

wtw the avengers was very good. Lots of fighting and killing though so maybe not for little ones.

I've fallen off the thread so jumping back on. Not posted for a while but been lurking.
Wtw congrats on your pink one :o)
All fine here, well uber-anxious following a scan that shows baby boy is just on 10th centile and left uterine artery blood flow was a bit low - but nothing to worry about at this stage they tell me! 26 weeks today, getting harder every day.
Love to all xxx

august good to hear from you. Wow 26 weeks.

I think af is just around the corner, good thing really coz now I can count and get ov right. I'm ok about it I just want my body back to normal so I can get on and get pg.

Hope everyone is doing well.

fan fingers crossed for you!

August 26 weeks waw! hopefully your little boy gets a growth spurt soon

Been busy last few days, parents have visited and now gone home, glad they've gone now I can only stand them for a certain amount of time
Luckily I've got 2 days to recover

26 weeks August Hope your little one does lots of good growing in the next 10 weeks or so. My little bean also came up at the lower end of the centile charts at last scan which is unusual for me as K and E were always higher end. I wonder if it's because we are both pregnant again so soon after our previous ones?

Fan hope AF does come and you can start swi again. I do admire your attitude so much xx

Blue hope you are managing to get enough rest.

All fine here - still obsessing about kicks and movements!

wtw I had a very restful bank holiday today! think we all slept for a few hours this afternoon, guess we needed it :)

Had a bit of a breakdown yesterday when both my parents and PILs forgot about Sterre when counting how many greatgrandchildren there are on both sides of the family :(
Had a good cry in bed and was able to talk it over with DH, but it still hurts though.
I think it was also triggered by starting to feel movements now in this pregnancy and realising that I have been the only one to have actually feel Sterre alive inside me :(

To top it all off as well, my uncle congratulated me on FB last night, so then I clocked that my mum told my grandparents about me being pregnant without asking me, grmbl!
I didn't want to cause a scene, so I didn't say anything about it. Did tell my little bro and he said she felt guilty already and he'll make sure she realises what she's done.
I hadn't put anything on FB as I wanted to tell them myself on the phone, instead of finding out on FB via my uncle.
I just feel like they've all forgotten about Sterre just because I'm pregnant again and that it all makes everything ok.

Sorry for the rant, needed to get it out, cause I know you all understand x

blue I'm not surprised that you were upset that they didn't count Sterre.

It seems that there are lots of these occasions waiting to upset us and bring all the grief to the fore again. I hope you're okay.
I haven't told many people that I'm pregnant but my aunt has gone and blabbed it to almost everyone (despite being asked not to) I walked past a mother who I don't even know the other day and she congratulated me. I could scream!! I wonder if people really do think it will make us all better again?