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May this thread bring us luck and lots of support through the journey of life after the death of our little ones.

Havnt seen my friend in work today, I'm hoping his grand daughter is ok.

We have come up with a name for the bump, its called Bungle. It may sound weird but I have been having little chats with Bungle today.

Hope every one is having a good day.

My friends grand daughter is still with us, she's a little fighter. Her names Tia. Its still 50 50 but its positive at the moment.

Fan news about little Tia!

Bungle is a great name, if there are two in there the other can be called Zippy!

Bungle is so cute Tia is a lovely name. I hope and pray she makes it - tell your friend random internet strangers are rooting for her!

fan another internet stranger sending strength and love to little Tia and her family.

On the way home from holidays, feeling many conflicting emotions. Regular bouts of mild nausea and very vivid dreams, often with Mia in them, which rarely happens. I haven't made any appointments yet, but hoping to be placed under a consultant because of my age and my previous vasa previa with Mia, but no idea if that will happen.

Mia was Little Squeak because she was so noisy and loved to squeal and laugh, and this one is Little Squirt at the moment...

Hi all
fan really pleased that work are being so kind to you. Make sure you put up a fight for extra/early scans on bungle, you deserve to be reassured.
too that is a fantastic weight gain, you must be feeding her roast dinners!! Samuel was last weighed just over a week ago and he was 6lb3 so past his birth weight. He is feeding really well now.
angel well done you on your weight loss and Im glad you and Pheb's got through your first day back at work.
split fingers crossed that you get some good news on the house front. I now have the keys to my new house.....no mad rush to get in (keep wagging finger at self) as the sale on old house has not yet completed (i clearly enjoy taking risks) so taking it slowly. Decorator has started painting today and all of the childrens rooms are already done!!
Hi cheese I am doing much better now thank you, much more highs than lows. No wonder you are feeling a bit wobbly you have had a shock.
wtw I was much more sick with my three boys than I was my daughter. I am a bit that you have managed to conceal the pregnancy from people, I was the size of a house by 20 weeks and didnt stop until I reached the proportions of a very large hotel!!!
Hope that Alfie is behaving blizy
Take care all xx

I'm having a freaked out day! Think its finally sunk in I'm pregnant, all I can see is bad omens, and its friday 13th! If I was religious in any way I would be praying right now, but all I can do is wait and say the mantra'today I am pregnant'.

Oh fan- I don't really know what to say, but I would defo stick to the mantra. Hope the day passes easily for you. X

Well Dh is home this evening, i should be ov over the weekend please hope and pray we catch it this month. This will
Be our our only shot at it until August, because Dh stupid work!

This might sound very strange but having Alfie has helped me a lot so far, I finally have a little baby (albeit a furry one) to care for. His needs are just like a human baby's at the minute! He is fast asleep on my chest just now.

blizy I understand totally it was the same with my rats, its so nice to fill that void even if its just a little way full.
I'm sending you so many good, positive vibes for this weekend.

Hi ladies,
I just wanted to introduce myself.

I am 14 weeks pregnant with my 3rd child. My five year old middle child died very suddenly at the age of five, two days before Christmas. I am so confused about how I feel right now after becoming pregnant so quickly after he died and I hope to hear your stories about how you all cope with this journey.

Welcome orion3 so sorry to hear of your child, it is very tough. My daughter Ophelia was stillborn last April, and I then had a chemical pregancy in july. I am just pregnant again.

I hope you find the support you need on this threadm can I ask what you child was called?

My son was called Jude. He was such a mummy's boy and he was the light of my life. i miss him so much and I am still early on in my grief. I haven't told anyone in rl that I'm pregnant and I hope to hang for as long as possible before telling. I don't want people to think I'm over Jude or get the wrong idea about why I'm doing this. it's all a bit much to think about but I'm so pleased to be pregnant and I know that Jude would want his mummy to be happy.

orion jude is a lovely name. I'm so sorry he is no longer here. I understand keeping the pg quiet for the time being, I'm doing the same. Had a panic attack this morning about telling my mum. She is so highly emotional and I feel sometimes that she wears Ophelias death a a badge, I'm fed up with her saying to me I told so and so about our heartache. I don't need to hear it, Ophelia was mine, fair enough I understand she was your grand daughter but I feel that she takes over and doesn't listen to me about how I want everyone to act around me. Sorry for the rant.
Its so hard for others to understand our grief.

How do you think your mum will react?
I know what you mean about others understanding our grief. I don't think it's possible to know how it feels unless you've been there.

That's so true orion.

When I told my mum I was pregnant last time she screamed and screamed and then ran into another a cried. I was totally embarrassed in front of my dad and DH. Now she keeps looking at me all the time with hungary face expecting me to say I'm pg, or she askes me things about how long I'm going to wait till I go for fertility help.
I think I might have to have a chat with her but I don't know how to bring it up.
So no one in your life knows? Does that include your family?

No, my mum knows because I really wanted to give her some hope after Jude. She's been heartbroken but really trying to keep it together for me. My DH obviously knows too but nobody else. I'm 14 weeks though and starting to show so I'm not sure how long I'll be able to keep it secret.
I always wanted another baby so I know that nobody will be surprised, they just might be shocked that it's so soon after he died.
Maybe if you explain how you feel about the preg. she'll get it and she might feel the same way but it might help her to feel a bit better about Ophelia. What do you think?

Maybe, I will just see how it goes. We are not going to tell anyone till 12 weeks. My work knows as I do a very physical job so they had to know so I could be put on light duties. whatevertheweather on this thread is 17 weeks and still hasn't told people. Its tough to know when to do it.

Hi Orion glad you found us over here The telling people is very hard, somehow the words 'I'm pregnant' don't seem to come very easily. I'm now nearly 20 weeks and haven't made any big announcements still. People tend to have found out on a 'need to know' basis so some work colleagues, friends etc. I'm going to bite the bullet once I've had the anomaly scan on 25th and just put the scan pic on Facebook (assuming all goes well). Bit like ripping of a plaster it's done then!!

Have you told your older dd? We still haven't told K - again holding out for the all clear at the anomaly scan. I really can't wait to tell her now.

Any sickness yet Fan? I do hope your mum doesn't smother you/over-react. Mine has a tendency to as well. I've been keeping a bit at arms length though, she keeps offering to come to appts with me (when dp isn't) but I just can't cope with her anxiousness as well as my own!

Hopefully wtw she is starting to guess what I'm on about, but its the intitial telling her I'm worried about. We had been trying for 18 months last time and she has experience of ttc as she tried 5 years to get me, but it was just too over the top. She is baby obssessed, used to be a childminder, she dotes on my nephew and spoils him, good job he's in australia. I hope she doesn't spoil ours, I can see some conflict in the future.

I feel alittle sick but no sickness as of yet. Last time it didn't kick in till about 7 weeks.
I hope you didn't mind me suggesting names on your name thread wtw I kept thinking Lucy would go so well with katie and erin and then realised! Doh. I love names. Thinking about the name Rex today, I'm really obssessing about it. I really like it.

Just talked to my mate Tia is ok, she has an infection but if she pulls through they may operate in a couple of weeks, I guess they will try and form a diaphargm. Sending you lots of good vibes Tia!

Thanks whatever it's good to know that I'm not the only one hurrying to hide my bump.

I plan on telling my dd this weekend as we think we should tell my in-laws who will be visiting next week and I don't want her to be the last to know.

I can't see myself coming out on fb at all as ive been a bit quiet on there since Jude. I just don't know what to say!
fan I hope it goes okay telling your mum.

AAArrrrghhhh!!! We have got the house!!! Shitting ourselves at the prospect now!

Will catch up in sensible form later on, far too jittery now! xx

spilt congratulations thats great news! yayyyyy!

thanks orion3 I have a few weeks to build up to it. I wont be coming out on facebook either for a good long while, maybe once the baby is here and safe. Facebook can be great for keeping in contact but also it can be evil.

Spilt- yay, fantastic news! Happy new house