Hi everyone,
mummychicken step away from the laptop! I know what you mean about googling everything, I'm trying not to do it this time as I always find a) the answer I'm looking for and b) straight after it the answer I'm hoping to avoid. Just leads to mass confusion.
Hi katetta, so sorry to hear about your mc . Don't you be feeling guilty about anything, I reckon pregnancy is the one time we can feel guilt-free about ignoring other responsibilities.
And hi kitty30 - I think pretty much everyone else is feeling nervous and overwhelmed! So don't worry - hopefully after 12 weeks we'll all start feeling a bit calmer about things.
So, I went for my first scan yesterday. I was absolutely terrified beforehand, and I had an hour to hang about waiting, which did not help the nerves one little bit. By the time we got in there I had convinced myself that something was wrong or that I wasn't even pg at all. It was also really weird as it was the first time I'd been back to the hospital where we lost our son in March, and I kept getting flashbacks of those terrible 6 days lying in the hospital bed, hoping he'd recover his amniotic fluid and then finding out he hadn't and having to accept losing him.
Anyway, there I was yesterday in the legs akimbo position, my DH trying desperately to calm me down, when who should walk in but the doctor who did the amnio last time and who then had to induce the birth when our son didn't recover his fluid. She said that she'd asked especially to come and do our scan, and I was so damn pleased to see her. That may sound weird, as she's intimately connected to the most tragic moment in our lives, but what happened to our son really affected her as well. I remember her crying on the morning we did the last scan of Eric (our son) and she saw he hadn't recovered and we'd have to terminate the pregnancy. She delivered him as well. Anyway, yesterday there were more tears as well, but of the good sort, because the scan looked great, strong heartbeat, and all as it should be. Talk about relief. Big hugs all around and I think both me and the DH now have a slight crush on the doc.
Anyway, this is long and rambling, but I haven't really allowed myself to feel fully happy or positive about this pregnancy yet, but now I've seen that it's real I'm feeling so much better. So am sending you all good vibes for your first scans, and may the countdown go quickly.
Happy bank holiday weekend to those in the UK.