As with many of you, I cried my eyes out today when I read WoolyJo's bereavement post. I'm so very very sorry and words cannot convey sincerely enough the graveness I feel today, thinking about it so often. So many questions came up for me...why? why some and not others? fear rose up like nausea in me too but above all just overwhelming sense of regret that WoolyJo and her family have had to go through this.
I made the silly silly mistake, in this incredible heat, of eating a seriously spicey meal, which probably had MSG in it coz it's midnight and I'm buzzing and baby is jumping around in there, no chance of falling asleep anytime soon, either of us. So I'm chomping on ice cubes (my pregnancy craving both DC's so far) whilst DH and DS sleep soundly upstairs.
So, I'm 36+5 tomorrow and it's all feeling very close now. today when i thought about the possible reality that in a couple of weeks give or take, I'll be giving birth again and our three will become four, I think S**t, shouldn't I be more prepared? Another big transition on the way. DS is only 17 months and DH and I only met 10 months before he was born (!!!) so it's been a rather busy coupla years. Anyone else shocked to suddenly arrive at impending motherhood again? I'm wondering if it's normal or if others feel more prepared, in themselves I mean, not the house or stuff.
So, better take my silly MSG brain away from the computer now and go and read something calming...