WARNING: SELF PITYING RANT FOLLOWS
gah. i'm feeling miserable.
i don't remember feeling this uncomfortable and tired last time. i also already have heart burn, what's that all about then? i had it much later last time. i feel like i need a night out on the tiles and the fact that i can't do that is making me feel really rubbish. i went to a wedding on saturday and it was hard. everyone was drinking and smoking (i gave up years ago but for some reason was craving one). i just couldn't enjoy myself. the fact that i spent a few hours not enjoying myself made me feel like a complete loser as well, i mean it's not like i need alcohol to have fun. i think just knowing i couldn't made it seem worse. however, in the end i had a great time and danced all night.
today, it feels like, has gone on forever. i can't think of anything i want to eat but am starving all the time. then when i make a meal, i can barely eat it without feeling massively bloated.
i'm annoyed at myself mostly because i know that this part of pg is the easiest by far and i should enjoy it. i can't help feeling so impatient already and my usual sunny disposition is failing me. snapped at dh yesterday and ended up spending the evening by myself again even though i just wanted to snuggle on the sofa with him. seem to get tired at 8pm and can't help but want to go to bed.
i'm working tomorrow and friday and have a course all day saturday and I CAN'T BE BOTHERED.
on the flipside, ds has been a little treasure today and i just can't believe that in 23 weeks i'll have another.
i think my hormones are really all over the place today. keep almost crying at stupid things.
congrats on all the cool scan news everyone, who is next then? mine is a week friday.