So I posted this on the pregnancy thread, so copying below....(i dont know if you already have a FB group, but if you do can I be added to it please) i feel im rambling now so please see the below post, I'm sorry, my head is a mess right now...
Well hello everyone...
Today I found out I am 5 weeks pregnant, I had my little girl in March this year. Its safe to say i feel a bit lose for words. This pregnancy was not planned and we were so careful. In my previous pregnancy, we werent actively trying but if it happened it happened and we were delighted.
To be honest, I am terrified. I'm so scared, will I cope, how will i deal with it? If I return to work and then tell them I'm pregnant what happens will I still I recieve my companies maternity pay? In my contract it states I have to be previously employed for 26 weeks by the company to be entitled to the mat pay! I've been their since Nov 2014. Does anyone know if I qualify for this or do I not as I've been employed but on maternity pay? I've emailed HR but I'm going to call tomorrow as I'm a worrier and I can't sit around waiting for an email. I'd rather go back sooner to save more money. My manager isnt nice and I'm just so scared to tell her. I know I shouldn't be, I'm 26 ffs but she has this power over our team and I'm so scared...
I know women have trouble getting pregnant so I do feel guilty. It's not a question in my mind to keep the baby but I'm just terrified. I have an amazing partner and family. I know we will be ok but i am just so scared - financial, copying with 2 under 2 and my work...
I wanted some reassurance or any guidance from any of you lovely ladies. I am currently in a group on Facebook who I met through here for the babies who were born in March 2019, so if any of you are due then I'd be happy to set a group up. All the ladies are very supportive and lovely, so it would be great to have that network again.
Thanks in advance, all my love....