bloody nora, are you all pregnant or summat? mood swings from slough of despond to blinding cheeriness in two days I'm bumbling along somewhere in the middle, longing for the hormones to stabilise when the placenta takes over and feel human again. but i'm ok derah, thank you for asking! and you?
had my booking appt yesterday. was 1hr15 late starting. saw stand in midwife, as most had been called onto labour ward. talked mostly about how to manage the waiting list for the endocrinologist i need to see. she neever once asked how i was! i cannot see the community midwives, they do not operate so far north in their own patch!! i have to share care gp (oh god) and UCH. so at present more likely to hire independent midwife. overall, yesterday not heartening in either the quality or organisation of care. i just want someone who knows me to see me again. when appts are only 15-20 minutes in later pg, I've no desire to spend a wodge of that time explaining my thyroid issue, again and again. will decide after scan on 21st.
HQ - psycho killer dramas - yes, I mainlined on them last pg, book after book. dp was getting worried i would birth ted bundy II. it is a psych mechanism for dealing with worry apparently, hearing about outrageous stuff puts our smaller worries in more comfortable perspective. WOrked a treat for me. This time round I have tried them again, but seem to have read them all , so I am diverting myself with medieval history (the Cathar Inquisition anyone?) and histories of great epidemics (Pox! Plague! Syphilis!) which are probably fouler and certainly stop me worrying about labour units as places of pain...
plans for today: pre-holiday organising today, do the board stats tonight. my lovely brother in law who is a SAHD is coming over to play with ds this morning which we are all looking forwad to it.
oops ds is45 trying to89 typ89
as i d960o+. can you tell?