Thanks for all your replies, both about my anxiety and for the great advice about cotbeds etc. I will ring the midwife tomorrow. I haven't had a break today at work and just got in from leaving at half 6 this morning. My work made a colleague redundant and has given me basically all his work in the last week as well as my own. On top of that my mum has a lump and has been put on a cancer pathway? I'm not sure exactly what that means as the biopsy was inconclusive. She has to have it removed at the end of the month so they can test it properly and rang me in tears today. I can feel it all getting top much. I'm worried for baby, worried about my mum and just hate hearing her sound so upset, with work on top I just feel like I can't breathe for worry.
@SharonO225 thank you. I know deep down that I have nothing to fear from my big clumsy dog. I've had her nearly 11 years and I hate myself for thinking of her as something to worry myself over. I love her to bits. I washed the bottle and feel ok about it now but I think at the time it just got on top of me.
@toastfiend thank you for sharing your worries too. Google is awful isn't it for suddenly diagnosing you with something awful. I wish I had any words of comfort. Have you spoken to anyone about your anxiety? I will have a look at the IAPT too, thank you
@cardboard33 yes I'm glad my partner is coming along. I think he's finding it hard to know how to comfort me. I definitely can recognise that it's not normal, but yet i can't turn it off either if that makes sense.
I haven't got a which subscription but have been considering one as we want a tumble dryer so would like to see what they have to say. That's good to know about the cotbeds! It's so refreshing to have someone so honest helping you out rather than trying to sell the most expensive. Sounds like a good experience.
@march19 hi and welcome
congratulations on your baby girl. Sounds like you have had a rough time of it, that sounds very scary!