well ive been stuffing my face with rubbish al over w/e so i must be the worst offender and i would love to eat a golden delicous apple but my tooth still hurting so i cant munch them as usual(have been craving them since beggining)
yesterday i was dying for burgers really wanted one luckily we didnt have nay but plannin on havin them for tea have one of those geroge foreman grills so hopefully drain most of the fat of(mmm drfiting off thinkin about eating them with loads of onions and tomato saucce) ooh sorry forgot i was here
thanx for all kind comments on situation with dp, nice to know soemone on my side.
used to feel alot of guilt because dp's ex would stop him seeing the children because he was with me and she said i was violent etc because i beat her and my ex up (got a criminal record now not soemthing id recommend BTW although id did feel like id won the lottery at the time it messed everything up for dp acesss, and i was doing a child care course at the time, which i couldnt continue with and have now had to go down a different carrer path) anyway used to feel really guitly, but after a while i realised all the guilt about dd's not seeing their dad etc was eating me up and wasnt getting me any where and wanted to change my life,
i had alot of help from some real friends and stayed round positive ppl, MNer babymadwithbump was a great inspirstion to me but unfortunately she is friend i recently fell out with regarding this pregnancy,hoping we might make friends again but doesnt look like ikely a shame weve known each other along time and her childrens ages are almost identical to mine and she is 35wks so would have ben nice to share this with her agin, but life is much better than few yrs ago. im happy and have days where im sad, but the most important thing to me now is that i can have days where im sad i dont feel like i want to die i just feel sad. but anyway i will shut up now as im rambling sorry