Thanks bobcat and spritegirl. Spritegirl, I felt very much like that in my first pregnancy. And this one too, though for slightly different reasons. They were both planned pregnancies, but age was really a factor in the decision - now or never, I suppose. I was never particularly maternal, but in an abstract sense, I did know that in the future I would probably have wanted to have had children (if that makes sense). There was more trepidation than anticipation in terms of how my life and sense of self would have to change. I still feel that, and honestly, I do still miss my old, carefree life where I could do the things that interest me (mostly not things compatible with children). Talk to your midwife. Don't let it fester, like I did. It contributed to my pnd - I'm not saying that it will for you, but it's best to tackle it head on, I think. I will take my own advice.
Congratulations on all the 20 week scans. We had ours yesterday. All was fine, though it seems like this one is a bit shorter. Femur length was 16th percentile - a week behind, compared to above average other measurements. DD was above in everything, especially FL. Consultant was not concerned, just said perhaps baby was a bit daintier, and also that it could just be between growth spurts etc. I'm not worried or anything, just feel a bit - well, I'm short and my husband is very tall, and my DD seems to have got his genes for height, and I was hoping for the same for this boy baby. I don't like saying this really, but I do think that socially, it's 'easier' for girls to be short than boys.
But anyway, everything was fine. So that's the important thing!