Sorry, girls, I've to come on to have a damn good moan tonight.
Had my growth scan today, was a bit nervous in case they discovered something they hadn't spotted before but baby seems fine, just on the large side. Predicted weight at 40 weeks is about 9 - 9.5lbs so not that enormous, especially considering ds and dd were 8.5 lbers. Midwife doing the scan was lovely, kept trying to find a way of making baby smaller but didn't manage it - all the measurements were saying I ought to be 39 weeks!! I wasn't that bothered when she said 9lbs, but did ask how much bigger it could be if I went to 42 weeks as I'm pretty certain I will. 'We'll send you along to see the doctor' she says.
Well, an hour and 10 minutes later, I finally see a doctor who is blatently desparate to go on her lunch break and really isn't interested in anything I have to say. She asked how I was feeling and I explained I was finding it hard to get comfortable in any position because of the size of my bump and that I get very achy across the bottom of my bump by the end of the day. Her answer?
'Well, paracetamol is safe to take when you're pregnant. It won't cause any harm to the bay' .
I F**KING WELL KNOW THAT, THIS IS MY THIRD PREGNANCY YOU STUPID WOMAN, HOW IS PARACETAMOL GOING TO STOP MY HIPS GOING NUMB WHEN I LIE ON MY SIDE IN BED OR MAKE THE MUSCLE TWINGES IN MY BACK STOP WHEN I SIT DOWN?
I then made the mistake of asking what would happen if I went to 42 weeks again and how the size of the baby would affect my care.
'Well, there's no evidence to suggest that it's of any benefit to induce at 38 weeks if it's just a large baby so we don't do that'.
I WASN'T ASKING TO BE INDUCED AT 38 WEEKS, DORIS. I JUST WANTED TO KNOW HOW YOU WOULD MONITOR ITS GROWTH AND IF IT MIGHT HAPPEN SLIGHTLY SOONER THAN 42 WEEKS IF IT SEEMED TO BE GETTING TOO HUGE.
Then the bloody woman had the cheek to write in my notes 'discussed reasons why induction at 38 weeks is not necessary' .
Two and a half hours of hanging around the antenantal clinic to be told stuff that I don't need to know and didn't ask but no answers to what I really want to know.
I felt really cross and tearful when I came out and I'm still now. I'm just so uncomfortable all the time now, I can't get comfortable in any position, I'm only 35 weeks and I've potentially got another 7 weeks of this to go, getting bigger every day. I honestly don't think I can take it for that long, I'm the size of a full term pregnancy now so what kind of ridiculous size will I be by 42 weeks? I'll be like the elephants Vanilla was talking about. I spend all day running round after 2 toddlers, I have to do a certain amount of lifting and carrying with dd, I'm having to kneel on the floor to change her nappy 4 or 5 times a day because if I do her on the sofa or changing unit she tries to throw herself off. Dh is at work from 7am to 5:30pm so the only break I get is an hour in the middle of the day when they're both asleep, I just don't know how I can do this for another 7 weeks. It seems like forever.
Where's the self pity emoticon on here?!