Very fast message...you know how it is!
Haven't even had time to scan posts since last Friday, but will when I can...missed you lot, and have been wondering how you all are, bumps and babies alike.
Mischa was born by section last Friday morning weighing in at 3.22 kg (7.2, roughly??) and for all my doubts before and during pregnancy, it was love at first sight. I'm utterly smitten, and no longer doubt that its possible to love two LOs
Delivery was good, in spite of needing a spinal and two epis to get properly anaesthetized, and it was really a totally happy occasion. Mischa was almost tranny again on delivery, and the placenta turned out to be VERY odd - not only did it have two lobes (which we knew) but the foetal vessels were not protected: they went into the membranes rather than the placenta, and only then into the placenta - so there was a very high risk of abruption and massive haemorrhage, which would have been disastrous for baby. Thank goodness for my OBs instincts, and for us trusting her, and for all the good advice and support we got - don't even want to think about the alternative.
Anyway: feeding - this time - is going really well, she's hardly lost any weight and we got home last night. My bp is rising - even though I@m on meds - so things are still a bit stressful, over the next couple of days will be watching it closely and may hvae to increase meds. I hate that part, it just scares me when I want to be enjoying all the other parts (yup, even the sleepless nights ).
And I caught some horrible virus, and came down with galloping runs for 24 hours on day 2, and then unbelievably painful throat ulcers (imagine 25 mouth ulcers on soft palate, tonsils and uvula) which are only just beginning to heal...so they kept me in to give me a chance to rest, took one look in my throat and gave me morphine followed by mega dose anti-inflammatories and aspirin gargles: the latter two I'm still taking at home.
Why are my deliveries never straightforward?!?
dd1 is coping brilliantly - bit wild, bit defensive with me at times (I can see the hurt and mistrust in spite of her outer cheeriness) but we've talked about it already, and I can feel our bond settling down again, or starting to. That part is hard - I missed her, a lot, but at the same time it was great having time to just be with Mischa, just the two of us. Blinking guilt.
Speaking of which, I feel bad that I have no idea how any of you are - this is a very 'me' post! First time I've been online, and next time I'll just read and catch up....really hope alls well, and that any of you who have had your LOs since I posted last are enjoying your babies as much as I'm enjoying mine. Preferably wihtout the sore nipples, throat, scar and had
xxxx Am going to have to change my name now...or add to it