Thankyou guys for showing me that some of the blues and crying is not all down to me being seen by funny farm people!!.Thankyou for all your words of support to every one who has if I dont mention them. My heads all scrambled right now.
Im alone again today (seems hard to make arrangements or want to be social with anyone but family right now) and dh told me this morning hes going to be home very late tonight due to work.So I have started this morning sobbing and now feel sick with anxiety and feel at a loss and dont quite know what to do with dd and myself today. Im to tired and sore to walk anywere but cant face a day alone. I end up sitting on here for ages and leaving dd to sit in front of cbeebs, which I never used to do. I am being an awful mum right now.
Ptulips , I also have had a cry about not having new nighties for this birth, Im wearing the ones I laboured with dd in right now & when I see myself in the mirror it gives me the shivers. Its like Ive gone back in time 3yrs.
Lunavix, its very upsetting to have something planned and it not work out at the moment isnt it. I so related to your sobbing episode.
Arabica , you are so right this therapy is churning up all sorts. I dont remeber feeling so out of sorts in such a definate way with other therapies Ive done. Im hoping with such a powerful reaction that I will finally heal from things , but when , I dont know.
beanandboo , I had a back to back labour and yes it was very difficult , Im annoyed that I wasnt told prior to labour that dd was , as midwives Ive spoken to about it since , said I could have done things to help move her.
sorry seem to be all me me me , arrrghhhhh.
ooh must say hello to Aussiemum , cant add rudness to the pot now.