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2nd stillbirth in 6 months. In shock.

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desperatehousewife · 22/05/2006 14:25

Had stillbirth at end of november - at 25 weeks. Got pregnant again 2 months later and went for 16 week scan this morning to be told this baby has died too. Am in shock but devestated - seems so unfair to happen twice in a row.

That's it really - just wanted to tell someone. I have to give birth on Wednesday.

I have felt like such a lucky person all my life and at the moment am feeling bloody unlucky and don't quite know what to make of it.

whereas in november I always knew i'd have another baby, this time I just don't know if I could go through pregnancy again. Am feeling pretty grim about the whole thing to be honest.

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NomDePlume · 22/05/2006 17:55

DHW, I'm so very very sorry to read this. There are no words in this case, so I won't even try. Wishing you strength for Wednesday.

stripeybumpsmum · 22/05/2006 17:58

I can't begin to imagine how devastated you must be. No words really adequate. Just horrible for you. I am so so sorry your babies died.

Big hugs, positive thoughts to you.X

Blossomhill · 22/05/2006 17:59

DHW - My heart really goes out to you and your family. So unfair :(:(:(

HUGS XXXXXX

SaintGeorge · 22/05/2006 18:00

SadSadSad

cori · 22/05/2006 18:02

DHW, I am so sorry this has happened to you again. You poor thing.
I am praying you find the strength to get through this from somewhere.

Cadmum · 22/05/2006 18:04

DHW: I am so sad for you.

Please remember to be kind to yourself an take time to heal.

Our first loss was at 18.5 weeks after ds1 and dd1. I convinced myself that I was being selfish for wanting more children but went on to have ds2 before losing a second baby at 13 weeks and twins at 16.5weeks. There was never a reason found for our losses but I did opt to take low dose baby aspirin with dd2...

I am so sorry for your loss. Your strength has amazed me in the past. Try not to think of the future while you deal with the pain today.

gomez · 22/05/2006 18:06

DHW I am so very sorry for you and your family. Sad

RedZuleika · 22/05/2006 18:14

So sorry to hear this.

Have you been tested for antiphospholipid antibody syndrome? Grim though it may be, you might want to check that they'll assess the state of the placenta on Wednesday.

Just trying to be practical.

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Yorkiegirl · 22/05/2006 18:18

so sorry to hear this DHW Sad

milge · 22/05/2006 18:52

I am so sorry to read of your loss. I hope you find the strength to carry on.

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desperatehousewife · 22/05/2006 18:53

RedZ - what on earth is that? They did an amnio today to do some tests and i guess will test placenta on weds. Don't know if they will do a postmortem.

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kama · 22/05/2006 18:54

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robinpud · 22/05/2006 18:57

so very very sorry Sad

Cadmum · 22/05/2006 19:08

Here is soething about \link{http://www.dhmc.org/webpage.cfm?site_id=2&org_id=92&morg_id=0&sec_id=0&gsec_id=2016&item_id=2021\antiphospholipid antibody syndrome}

I am sure that they will offer to test your blood in the event that other tests do not offer a conclusive reason for your losses.

I feel so sad for you. It just seems so cruel.

ernest · 22/05/2006 19:12

really gutted for you too, unbearable pain. look after yourself xxx

peachyClair · 22/05/2006 19:16

Sos orry DH Sad

Don't know if it helps, but my Mum had a few stillbirths and went on to have three healthy full term girls- and that was in the seventies. There IS hope for you.

welshmum · 22/05/2006 19:20

So sorry dhw, such very very hard times that take up all your courage just to get through. Thinking of you

Miaou · 22/05/2006 19:25

So so sorry to read this dhw - my heart sunk when I read the thread title and I hoped it wasn't you. Look after yourself.

Socci · 22/05/2006 19:27

SadSad I'm so very sorry xx

snorkle · 22/05/2006 19:27

DHW I am so sorry. That is awful and so, so unfair. You will be in shock for a while I'm sure. Take care.

honeybunny · 22/05/2006 20:08

So, so sorry for you and dh. Life can be so shitty and unfair. I hope you will find the strength to go ahead with your family plans. I have 2 friends who did after similar experiences to yourself and now have healthy babies. Fingers and toes crossed that you have some answers soon.
Big cyber hugs heading your way.

RedZuleika · 22/05/2006 20:12

RE: antiphospholipid antibody syndrome. Cadmum's link covers the basics - although it should be something they test for automatically, not something which they look for if nothing else comes up.

It is the biggest single cause of recurrent miscarriage and typically causes second trimester losses, principally due to calcification of the placenta. In my case, this hasn't happened - it's affected implantation / formation of the placenta, which is much less well documented. I only test positive for it when pregnant - I don't have it when I'm not.

This might not be the issue at all. I just thought I'd mention it because it might be useful to know before Wednesday.

bubble99 · 22/05/2006 20:14

Tears here, too. I can, sadly, imagine how you're feeling. I can't add anything other than what our lovely mnetters have already said. I'm so sorry. XX

sottovoce · 22/05/2006 20:19

Am so sorry to read this DHW - am thinking of you and your DH at this dreadful time Sad

Take care XXXX

sottovoce · 22/05/2006 20:19

Am so sorry to read this DHW - am thinking of you and your DH at this dreadful time Sad

Take care XXXX