"Too Beautiful for Earth" For Sylvie-Rose and all our Angel Children

[chipmonkey]

For my darling Sylvie-Rose, taken from us just seven weeks after you were born. Too beautiful for this earth but I so wish you could have stayed nonetheless.
And for all the Mums walking this tough path. Let us link arms along the way and not be defeated by the cruel blow life has dealt us.

Mias, thank you! That is the way I should be thinking!

Happy birthday fraser.. 8 today

Chip, your love for Sylvie-Rose is a part of you, it shapes your days and influences your thoughts. How can you possibly leave her behind? You didn't leave her as we moved into the new year, so why would that suddenly change? You wouldn't be who you are today without her. Sylvie-Rose is nestled safely in your heart forever.

Happy birthday Fraser. Hope you are gentle with yourself today, fm.

Happy birthday Fraser. Hope today is as gentle as it can be Fm xx

Happy Birthday Fraser. You are all in my thoughts FM x

Chip and Mia - I remember constantly asking the same questions over and over again. Ime, as time went on it all got a bit easier. It is a cliche, but time does heal. I don't think it will ever heal completely, but I think that's a good thing. I never want to forget C.

When we had survived the first year or so of awful gut wrenching grief, I suppose we had realised that this was our life now. We would never see C again, or hold him or smell him, nor would he physically be part of our family. So, we to content ourselves with having C alongside us in spirit.

Maybe this seems a long way off for you at the moment, but believe me you will get there xx

Wishing Fraser a happy 8th birthday and fm a peaceful day.

Well I'm currently feeling jittery about the prospect of B's 2nd birthday (June) - much worse than I was at this stage about her 1st birthday. It all feels even bigger somehow. What is that all about?

Happy Birthday, fraser. Hope the day isn't too tough for you, fm. xx

Well, it appears I need to go on a diet.
Ds4 patted my tummy and said "Mammy, you have a big tummy, it's like a planet!"

Miasmummy That is such a lovely sentiment, thank you for sharing xx

chip (((HUGS))) I know how you feel, it's not bloody fair to have a life you want snatched. It's different if a relationship - even a very long one - ends, but when you have a child, they're yours - for life; for life to go on, without them physically present, is so ridiculously hard to come to terms with. xx

FM Thinking of you & Fraser xx

My damned neighbours woke me up at 3.45am. TV blaring, doors slamming, very loud talking. They didn't stop till gone 5am (I am a very light sleeper, I wake up if a sparrow farts the other side of town). Luckily DD1 stayed asleep, but I'm angry as they used to complain if DD1 woke up at night (yet I'd try to keep her quiet), then they have their TV blaring.. grrr..

Went to the cemetery a few days ago, and chatted with another bereaved mum. Whilst we were sitting on the bench, a robin perched on one of Tamsin's teddies. I have to admit I thought of everlong. Twas very special though.

Hi ladies xx

Thinking of you and your family todat fm xx

Happy birthday dear Fraser! thinking of you and your lovely family! x

One of my lovely cousins swears that robins are angels in disguise.

That is a lovely thought chip. It was so strange, the way he just perched on the teddy, he cheered me up x

everlong That is a beautiful story :) I'd love to go to a spiritualist church, must do it x

everlong a robin also kept an eye on me this afternoon as I weeded... I always say hello as it tweets to me.

I'd like to be feeling a bit more pg, to be honest... just so nervous. I will ring the GP for my booking appointment tomorrow.

Mia would be 19 months old today. My DH is missing her so much at the moment. I am too. It all feels so unreal again to us both.

Courtesy of our weedy garden, I made nettle risotto tonight, augmented by sorrel and chives from my recently planted herbs. Surprisingly delicious, and DH loved it.