Hello Axis.
Thankyou wilbury She was called Hannah and had loads of dark hair she came three weeks early 5lb 5oz.
She had a sticky up bit of hair -dp nicknames her Morph because when she made a noise it sounded like the noise Morph made.
She smiled once - I can't remember too much of her at home it all went fast.
She got ill with bronchiolitis the doctor came out on a Monday when she was 4 weeks and admitted her she told us not to worry we wouldn't lose our "little babe".
This is the bit I remember so clearly.
She spent two days on a general ward but it was decided they were going to put a drip to help her and she stopped breathing I remember screaming and a nurse holding onto me up to stop me running after the doctor who was holding dd and running to a room.
After an hour we could go and see her she was stable and had had an apnoe they were going to send her to ICU we went in and her eyes looked so sad she looked at us as if to say help me dp said he held her hand and she squeezed his fingers ...that was the last time she ever responded to us.
They put her under up in ICU the consultant said she had 90% of been ok.
That night she crashed nobody would talk to us we had to sit in a room until a nurse came in and asked us if we wanted to get her baptised .....we did all our family were there it was horrible it seemed as though we were giving the go ahead to her dying.
They tried from Wednesday to Sunday to help her everything shut down her brain swelled and they taped her eyes shut as her pupils looked awful one stupid nurse who was bank staff forgot to put something on her mouth and she got a blister from the heatlamps.
We sat with her I begged her I played christmas carols to her everybody came to see her ....my aunt fetched my elder son who was only 14 months into to say bye to his sister and the nurse held hannahs arm as if she was waving to him.
I went a bit mad on the saturday and started asking my dad to fetch her nappies and pram in as I was taking her home but he wouldn't.
saturday night another little girl came in and was in the room next door she dies the same night and I can still hear her Mum screaming and trying to hit thr doctor.
Hannah's turn was sunday I felt calm robbie williams was on the radio singing angels I can remember that -just me and dp stayed while she died I held her and they took her tube out and she just went dp ran out of the room and left me alone I just held her.