Well done Caz, I bet you are exhausted now.
GP's tomorrow morning for me and I am very nervous about it.
I have several things to talk to the GP about. Obviously there's this thyroid blood test result - what might it have meant, what implications are there for next time, what drugs/early checks are needed etc. I also want to ask for a referral for counselling. And I need to talk about work and whether I am able to go back or not. I honestly don't know and I am desperately hoping for an understanding doctor who will be able to help me work it out.
I'm ok where I feel safe (so at home really) but am totally overwhelmed by being in company. I'm very clingy and need DH to come with me when I go out (but can manage the supermarket now because it's anonymous and you don't need to talk to anyone). I'm struggling with panic episodes, anxiety, completely fragile hopelessness and knackeredness. But often I'm ok too. I can't explain the logic behind or the cause of my panics, they just seem to happen when I'm watching TV, lying in bed etc; out of nowhere my heart starts racing and beating hard and I gasp a bit (weird breathing) and feel so afraid and vulnerable. I have no idea why or what to do about it.
I've not done well with GPs here yet. The last time I saw someone was 1 week before the terrible scan to say I felt far too run down and exhausted and was worried about anaemia. She treated me like a timewaster and appeared to think that 19 weeks was 1st trimester 
. She told me it was normal to be tired and basically put up and shut up. I came home and cried. It took a lot of courage to go in and say I couldn't cope and I was completely dismissed. Tomorrow is sort of the same thing, albeit more of an emotional "can't cope" and I am scared of being fobbed off and not taken seriously.
Don't know if I should be trying work or not. So confused.