Beyond the distant star, I wish upon tonight to see you smile, If only for a while, to know you're there.

[shabbapinkfrog]

Our thread to honour and remember our precious children who sadly are not 'physically' here xxxxx

split - all I can send is hugs. I understand your fears and how irrational your feeling. I don't know why they don't test for these things. I feel same about all the blood disorders test results I'm waiting on. If it is the case then why aren't people tested for all possible risks early in their pregnancies to save our tradegies. Remember (and I need to listen to myself too) it wasn't your fault. You couldn't have done anymore than you did to look after Bobbie.

Thanks all service was lovely ....all my colleagues,friends and family were great.Georgie was celebrated in a lovely style.Hard draining day but now done in a lovely way.DH read a poem he d written ,which was lovely, brother read a lovely poem.Some people came back sfter to ours for a few hours.Just feel drained now.Me and DH spent a few minutes with Georgie after the service with the minster to say a prayer.Still miss Georgie soo much .Hope everyones ok XX

Louise, I'm so glad to hear the service went well. Take care.

louise I am glad it went well , you must be shattered now , I hope you manage to get a peaceful evening x

arses thankyou , it is appreciated , I love the Minster .

Thanks Caz

Well done louise it sounds lovely. Hope you're having a gentle evening now and that the memories of Georgie's special service will stay with you and give you peace x

Sounds like a beautiful service louise - take gentle steps the next couple days, you'll be feeling exhausted.

Good morning girls xx

Morning ladies. Been away to France for the weekend. It is good to get away from home its coming back that is crap. I was thinking of you all and thankful that we have eachother for support. xx

Morning everyone. This is my last day at home, and I'm up early planning the two lessons I have to teach tomorrow. Wow, I'm nervous. Its one thing going in and showing my face for a couple of hours at a time, its totally different having to be incharge of my class tomorrow and actually teach.

Didn't have a great day yesterday, struggled with the Lily Allen news and DH's lumbar puncture procedure didn't go to plan. They couldn't get the fluid they needed and it now means a longer wait until we'll find our whats been wrong with him. Poor DH now has to go through it again in a fortnight. I'm just wondering when its all going to end. I hope 2010 doesn't leave us with yet more shattering news.

Keeping everything crossed for you with work and DH.

Good luck for tomorrow. I know I have probably asked you this but what subject do you teach?

I teach in the primary end of a special school. My kids have profound and multiple learning disabilities so we're quite a specialised class. My youngest at the moment is 4, and my oldest is 11 and will be leaving me for the senior end of the school next September.

I remember now. My friends 10 year old goes to High School next year. He is autistic - she is praying that she gets him into her first choice school. He is in a main stream primary school but wouldn't last a day at the borstal High school he may have to go to. Its the same one that my son goes to and it is rough and ready.

She says that she will teach him at home if he has to go to mainstream High school.

Yes that happens to lots of children. We have a massive year 7 intake, because lots of children who have been able to cope in mainsteam through primary wouldn't have their needs met in a mainstream secondary. I think its terrible how hard parents have to fight for these places, but it is because demand exceeds the places available...

Wishing your friend lots of luck! :)

I heard about Lily Allen on the radio yesterday and felt sick. This morning I turned on the television, "Lorraine" was on (was tuned to ITV) and at that point the program was talking about it. From a purely selfish perspective when this sort of thing pops up when I'm not expecting it, I do find it hard.

Poor Lily, Sam and their baby.

I can't believe how many people are referring to her 6 month loss as a MC. It surely is either a stillbirth or a very prem baby that hasn't survived? Poor woman, how horrific to have to go through this in full view of the media.

Spilt, I'm sure your right it has to be one or the other.

I am wondering if she was in that stupid point of your pregnancy between 20 and 24 weeks where you have to go give birth but the medical assoc refuses to aknowledge your baby and calls it a miscarriage.

My heart goes out to lilly and all her family

Caz I tink you are incredibly brave going back an dealing with other people's children.. good luck

frasersmummy that's exactly where I was, 20+1 when I delivered and apparently I had a miscarriage . It's a hateful middleground.

But at 6 months she must have been about 28-30 weeks so I think it's shoddy reporting.

Caz sorry you re having a crap day.Do feel exhausted today didn t sleep very well last night, think its going to be some time before i sleep well again.Been for a country walk today with dh and family nice.How long you been off work? good luck for tomorrow xx

Hope everyone s ok? Still miss Georgie so much can t believe its only 3weeks since Georgie was born.Counsellor rung me today appt booked for Thurs soo thats good.Still protecting myself by thinking only of day to day stuff and not what we would have been doing if Georgie was here.

Hi to all XX

louise I've been off for nearly 5 months. Part of me still doesn't feel ready, but I know I cannot put it off forever. I feel the routine of work will help me with things like sleep patterns. I know how hard it is feeling exhausted, I hope you have a better night very soon.

caz good luck for tomorrow xx

Best of luck for tomorrow Caz. I'm not going back for a while but am missing the structure, social interaction and diversion that it gives.

Best wishes for tomorrow Caz, I hope you get some decent sleep tonight to prepare you x

Hi Ladies

Just a quick hi, we have ofsted tomorrow so have been working like a lunatic the past 2 days. I am absolutley exhausted and feel like crap.

Good luck for tomorrow Caz, I hope it goes well.

Louise - glad to hear the service went well, take care of yourself.

And poor Lily Allen, one would hope that this sad case would highlight the fact that stillbirths still exist but unfortunately it will still be kept in the dark if its not named as such.

Anyway, I'm off to bed, I'm all lesson planned out!

Morning girls xx