Beyond the distant star, I wish upon tonight to see you smile, If only for a while, to know you're there.

[shabbapinkfrog]

Our thread to honour and remember our precious children who sadly are not 'physically' here xxxxx

Morning girls

Afternoon all X Hope all are well

New picture of Tom on my profile xx

Love the photo - what a dude!

Are you watching X factor?

Oh I love Matt Cardle (X Factor) not one other singer interests me or entertains me like he does!!!! If he doesn't win X Factor I wonder if he would wallpaper my hall, stairs and landing???

Lovely picture of Tom Shabs, am loving the pork pie hat!

After having a bit of a meltdown on Friday night and Sat morning, I'm feeling a bit better today. A week today is C's remember day, so I know why I felt like I did, but I'm surprised how much it hit me tbh. It really did come back and bite me on the bum. I think even dh was getting a bit concerned as I haven't been like that in a long while. Being pregnant doesn't help either with all of those hormones whizzing around.

Onwards and upwards, dh is running a race this morning and M and I are going to watch. We're then off to my parents for a roast dinner. No one can cook a roast like your mum can they?

Morning girls. xx

Think that hat is stuck on his head!!

Morning all.We had a good night last night, still hard though.3 weeks today since our Georgie was born,seems such a long time ago.On one hand feels like i ve never been pregnant and on the other hand feels like it all happened just yesterday.If i don t think what life will be/would have been like with Geirgie here i can manage.As , apart from Georgie, we have no children we don t really know what its like to have children in our life if i think/wish it hurst too much.So, for self preservation yes, i think about Georgie all the time but i m not thinking anymore what we would have been doing with Georgie.

How did you all manage? The pain is soo intense isn t it? it rises from your stomach in waves.

Geotgie's service tomorrow.....Will do our best for her but can t help thinking people should be coming up for her christening , not her funeral service.Am dreading it but what can you do? AGAIN we ve no choice [which again stinks having to do all these horrible things]

Hope all are well.Not got back in to X factor again[used to love it] but after Georgie all my favourite tv seems soo mundane[as does everything] which i know is part of grieving..Sorry my post is a bit depressing X

Note to self:Ensure Georgie is spelt correctly!!!!

Louise you describe perfectly the way I felt after I lost my sons. It is an all consuming kind of feeling....the thoughts of our precious children are constantly with us - in waves that feel like they are going to drown us. I struggle to say how I 'got through it' because I dont think that will ever happen. The years have softened my emotions and memories and I know they will for you....it is a long and crappy path that we tread xxx

Louise, it is just a month past losing my girls and I feel the same as you. xx

Georgies service tomorrow at 10 am am dreading it.Will check in tomorrow xx

Louise I can understand why you are dreading it - I really, really can - will be thinking about you tomorrow xxxx

Morning folks.

Apologies for not being around - have flu.

Louise - shall be thinking of you and Georgie today x

Morning girls xx

Louise - shall be thinking of you and Georgie today x

Hope everyone else is ok

Morning all, just letting you know im about. Still don't feel comfortable posting anything much. Just wanted to let you know i lit a candle for all our children at a special church service yesterday. Will continue to pop in but as i said wont be posting much for a while. I still dont like the idea that people are disbeliveing us.

Thanks for lighting the candle Lottie xxx

I really dont care what anybody thinks about me or wether they question the truth of my story. Dont let 'them' get you down Lottie - it is just bullying - plain and simple!! If we let bullies win they will go on to bully others.

Thinking of you louise, I hope the service gives you some comfort x

Morning all x

Louise , I hope today goes as well as it can , will be thinking of you .$

Morning all. Think of you and yours today Louise xx

Thinking of you today Louise xxx

I am sickened that Lily Allens loss has been reported as a miscarriage. The poor poor girl. I've cried for her today.

How is anyone ever going to learn the impact of stillbirth if it is not reported? Her baby has died and deserves to be honoured better than that by the papers. No wonder the world does not understand.

Can someone please talk some sense into me?

I have phoned for a doctor's appointment (to discuss signing off/phased return and referral for counselling). The receptionist said "oh we've just written to you to ask you to come in, your blood results show an underactive thyroid." These are the blood tests done about 1 hour after I gave birth.

I have of course started googling and found that an untreated underactive thyroid would have put me at 4 times greater risk of a second trimester loss. I know that doesn't mean it is the reason, but I'm so very frightened. I'm not responding to anything rationally at the moment and feel so fragile. I feel terrible, I'm so afraid it might turn out that my body actually did fail Bobbie, and I could be the reason my baby died. I know it wouldn't be my fault, I didn't know, but I absolutely will feel responsible for that tiny grave.

Why don't they test for these things?? It's a simple blood test followed by medication if needed. I even saw a doctor about a week before The Scan to say I was just so run down and exhausted and couldn't cope. I suspected anaemia, but it could of course be the thyroid... she didn't care and didn't want to check anything

I wish I could wake up, I don't want to believe I'm where I am, wish it was a nightmare.

Hi

Just popping in to let you know that I lit a candle for your children at York Minster today. Don't worry, I don't lurk and read what you write on here.. I just have been thinking of you on and off since the SS thing which I was unintentionally involved in, and I always light candles for people who have passed on this day.