I feel so guilty and ashamed

[Mumto1boyo]

Ds is in the terrible 2s and I ha e to wrestle him into his pram. Today was awful, it was raining and he wasn't cooperative. I lost my temper and called him a little cunt and to shut the fuck up.
Im so stressed. I do all the housework,cleaning and cooking and shopping so my dh doesn't have to worry about that as he is the breadwinner. I'm just a sahm. I feel terrible that I said those things to my sweet little boy and I love him so much.
I worry that if my husband wants another baby I will be too old as he is younger than me.
Not sure what my aibu is as I know ibu for being nasty to my darling boy.

OP, have you thought about speaking to your GP about your anxiety?

It sounds like you have dealt with a lot.

Be kind to yourself, forgive yourself and be determined to do better.

The thing about using bad language around children is, they repeat it.

You won't want your little boy doing that.

Wishing you well.

Are you really protecting your husband by doing everything. It seems to me that he is missing critical bonding with your baby and may feel side lined. Have you tried telling him that you sometimes fell overwhelmed and it would be nice for him to have more time with baby.

I meant to say she’s now desperately ashamed, my typo said ‘not* desperately ashamed…

I stopped watching Breeders because for me it crossed the line from funny into child abuse that was meant to be funny. Motherland is nothing like that.

Also I don’t understand why some SAHMs on here moan about housework. Of course you’ll be doing more of it 🤷🏻‍♀️