When I see/speak to/think about my mum I feel.....

[MagdalenaArches]

Fill in the blank with whatever comes to mind.

In my case, fear and dread.

Blessed and grateful.

Sad.. undervalued and loved.. my mother was a complex woman

Mil. A deep longing. I miss her so.

I am NC do don’t speak to her but when I think about her, a swing between nothing or a heavy dread and disappointment.

Incredibly thankful and blessed for all her (and my dad's) help and support.

Sad. She died 6 years ago. But also incredibly lucky that I had such a wonderful Mum who stayed at home to look after us and was so loving 🥰

Horror

Disappointment, sadness, resentment, irritation and grief for the lack of a supportive relationship (she has a lot of trouble relating to others - can't remember the last time she had a friend or even left the house for something that wasn't an errand)

Angry/bitter/scared

a combination of mildly irritated, resentful but also sad. She wasn't a great mum and as a result our relationship isn't what it should / could have been but she's elderly now, and I can see she regrets a lot of things and I know she does love me.

Pleased and happy 😊

Happiness, security, comfort and love.

A bit guilty that I don't live closer or see more of her. A little sadness that she gave up so much of her life for me and my brother, staying with my dad far longer than she should have. Very proud of her, she's talking about starting C25K, she will be 80 this summer!

Regretful. She's dead now and I don't miss her. I often wish our relationship could have been different, but she was unkind bordering on cruel.

Lucky. She and I both feel lucky that we love and like each other.

Nothing. I don’t see her and haven’t done for about 15 years. She never wanted to be a mother to me and so she is not.

I'm NC because she's awful, but whenever she would call me before that I used to get a feeling of dread and anxiety. Whenever she hugged me I felt like vomitting everywhere. Whenever I think of her I feel sad because she didn't love me and it hurts to know that.

Disappointment, relief and sadness. I’m estranged from my family, which was the right decision, but I am desperately lonely because of it & wish I’d had better

Sad,love, grateful & a longing to hear her call me "pet" again

Drained and apprehensive.

I'm a bit jealous of some of you.

Sad that she is no longer here,but glad that she once was.

That I didn't take the time to get to know her properly while she was alive. She was always just Mum. I deeply regret not standing up for her when my Dad did and said unkind things to her, and not helping her more when she was going through the illness that eventually killed her.

When I think about my mum I feel......

..... honored.

We lost her way too young (coming on 6 years now and she was mid 60's)

Her love and support was absolute. I was very lucky to have her for 40 years.

Sad because my lovely mum died nearly 21 years ago and I miss her dreadfully (she was 64) but happy and thankful that I was so lucky to have such a wonderful mum. I miss her so much 💔

Sick.

When she’s in my life it’s constant drama - stealing, trying to kill herself, being homeless etc.

When she’s not in my life it’s a constant worry - very vulnerable, meeting up with random men, living on the streets or in strangers homes etc

She only gets in touch when she wants something and then you don’t hear from her for months on end again but it’s easy to feel sorry for her so I struggle to cut her out completely.

I hope my DD always feels this way ❤️