Is it ok to offload here a little?
I posted here before about dd cutting her long hair, well she had it cut on the day they broke up for Easter, I thought it would give her time to get used to it without having all the comments at the same time etc, I bit my tongue at the hairdresser asking me if I'm sure and asking me what length after dd had told her three times before cutting it. Dd just rolled her eyes in the mirror which made me smile. She absolutely loves her hair and loves the extra half hour in bed on a morning.
Dd has had a couple of comments at school but nothing negative, the negative stuff has been directed at me and it's pissed me off, this morning a parent, who I don't really know that much, said that cutting that much hair off is a bit like butchering, she was semi light hearted and I feel bad because I told her to go home and google fgm, then come back and tell me if she still thinks a much wanted hair cut is butchering. I feel like a complete twat now, it's so unlike me, i will apologise at pick up.
It's one of a few things that's happened in the last week, (which I'm happy to mention if people don't mind listening) that has me riled and I shouldn't have took it out on her, I'm speaking out when I see unfairness and I am challenging it, almost had a blazing row at a family thing this week, but I ended up shutting up to keep the peace, I don't have the confidence to keep going, which annoys me in itself, but overall now my eyes are open I'm seeing some people who are close to me very differently. The minute I open my mouth to speak about anything women related I can see eye rolls, it seems I can have an opinion on anything I like as long as it fits with theirs, otherwise I'm causing trouble. I know it's a bad thing to say but sometimes I wish I could go back to the me from a year ago who thought everything was right with the world.