Morning all. Thanks for the new thread @poorpaws
yesterday was quite a tricky one for me. I actually planned in some chocolate and then dh got me a bottle of wine which I didn’t really want and would have been completely fine without if temptations hadn’t been there- but once it was in the house, glorious sunny day…. So I had wine and the chocolate, I did manage to stay within a reasonable amount of cals, and I had been for a run which allowed me a little extra as I set my daily limit so low. But I really really wanted more and could easily have eaten junk all evening. I’m due on in 2 days so that’s not really helping. So even though yesterday was technically a success, it felt like a fail really.
I slept well last night and my hip feels a lot better this morning, so a week off it and stretching has made some difference at least. I am running with my friend this morning but it won’t be fast or far, just a chat on the move really.
its just under 2 weeks until we go on holiday and I already feel apprehensive about it. We go with dh’s family every year and I find it quite a long week tbh, they are nice people but I find food very difficult in those sort of situations and I like my own space and my home comforts. I feel embarrassed that I’ve gained weight, considering I am the fittest of all of us and eat the healthiest, it’s not fair that I’ve gained weight year on year and they haven’t, and I feel like they judge me. They will all eat bread, pudding, ice cream, chips, wine and crisps every single day, and I will have a constant mental battle over eating them, and will run and/or workout every day, and yet I will be the one who feels overweight and unhappy - it makes me unhappy if I think about it too much. Life’s not bloody fair is it?!
Anyway. I need my period to come to de-bloat me and then I know i can actually have a decent week and a bit. I fully intend to do low carb/high protein - didn’t really work last week but I will try again. I am currently about 11s2.5lb so I could easily dip below 11 before I go which will be very motivating so that’s my goal.