Morning all! Just catching up with you all.
@PearlTeapot - you have done sooooo well! You've been in a tough spot and still managed to lose, and resist all those pastries the staff kept bringing you. And had Christmas and a birthday. Steady loss like yours is fantastic. Give yourself a pat on the back woman!
@TheZingyFish - I really liked that comment about the weeks when you have a very small loss, thinking that if you weren't on MJ it would have been a 2lb gain or whatever. I've never thought of it like that but it's very true. I love the fact that whenever I come onto this thread, I find something that encourages me or informs me or just makes me see things a bit differently.
Hope the minoxidil works for you @Billybingbong and glad a chat to the hairdresser was helpful. I am also focusing more on protein and have been eating poached salmon fillets and salad for breakfast (uggh) in an attempt to set myself off on a healthier track for the day. It's not easy, but we didn't get to be where we are today by having an intuitively good relationship with food, did we? I do tend to get quite obsessed with things and disappear down rabbit holes, and the hair thinning is just the latest I suppose. I'm now on the minoxidil tablets, taking bovine collagen powders, using posh Kerastase anti-loss shampoo and yes, eating bloody salmon fillets for breakfast - come on hair, give me a break!
On a similar note, I remember somebody mentioning hair removal for the face a few days ago - I've already got a gentle moustache developing, and the minoxidil might encourage it. I've never been an especially hairy person apart from on my head - I've never once shaved my legs or indeed any other part of my body - and initially I was determined to ignore the whiskers creeping in as a feminist statement! But now I suppose I'm thinking maybe it would also be a feminist statement to have a fuzz-free face, just like men get to do! Any recommendations appreciated, I know somebody suggested a gadget but I can't recall it (I suspect I should be focusing more on the memory loss and less on the hair loss...)
It was also weigh in day for me yesterday. As you might remember I gained a whopping 15lb over Christmas - the only thing I lost was my trust in both myself and MJ. It was all very depressing, that familiar spiral of abandoning all hope as I sat alone on the sofa and stuffed endless After Eights into my mouth. I've been back in control since the 12th, so just over a week. I feel much better, but still wary - I still don't trust myself and feel like self-sabotage is just around the corner, and now I know that the MJ itself is not enough to keep me on the straight and narrow. I'm doing the only thing I can, trying to be positive, trying to ignore the evil voices in my head, and trying to take one day at a time. I was 237lb before Christmas, 252lbs after. I'm now 242lbs, so it is coming back off - frustrating to be here again, but I only have myself to blame, and constantly whinging about it will just make me feel worse! So, as we always say, onwards and downwards...