So lovely to hear how everyone is. @Weightlossprincess that consultant was so unprofessional. How awful - I'm so sad for you.
I'm on awe of everyone who is making clothes. You're all so clever!
@GnomeDePlume I completely relate to those feelings. I'm both so happy this year is different for me and that this is working... And so sad that for so long I thought it was my fault and I'd traispe back to the Dr each year trying a different antidepressant or a different diet and feeling such a failure. Failure was literally what I went into counselling for (in all areas of my life tbh! But weight is such an obvious one to a judgy society isn't it).
I so wish it had elicted compassion from people, compassion from medical staff, friends, society etc. Instead the huge chunk of our lives living under this shadow.
BUT this year is different... And hopefully as long as I can afford the drug (I try not to think of blackmirror!) I will have such a different second half of my life. I feel sad I wasn't able to do things for my kids most active years. Each year I'd want to lose weight "for them" and be convinced in a year or twos time I'd be able to xyz with them... It's heartbreaking.
But "from now on" (breaks into the greatest showman) things will be different.
I weighed in today at 17 stone 11 which means I've hit FOUR STONE!!!! And only 2lb away from not being morbid... I'm so very close!
I did my refill questionaire today and I'm going to stay on 7.5 for another month. I'm on week 23 and each time I worry should I be going up faster to get "most effect" or slower as its working and as I'm losing about 1.1kg a week I'm sticking but I'm never sure which is the better route. They've not studied it as the trials had groups put randomly into the different doses and there wasn't rhw chance to adjust.
I've not been walking this week. I've been working evenings on a project on top of work and duaghter is doing GCSEs and I feel burnt out. I don't want to go to work today 😬 but I will. I hope this weekend I recover. Ive not been sleeping well and hope to have more time to catch up. I feel behind on everything.
Oh and I weigh often - the last 10days I either stayed the same or had a blip where I put on... Then period came and today it dropped 1.1kg "overnight ". Womens bodies are strange.