Dog PTS tonight - I am devastated

[MimPimMim]

My beautiful boy was PTS suddenly tonight - he had a seizure on Tuesday which the vet thought was a one off and then collapsed again with seizures tonight, which didn’t stop until he was sedated at the emergency vet. He had been diagnosed with cancer six weeks ago but the vet thought he had a good number of months to go. It has all happened really suddenly - I was cuddling him at 10, he collapsed at 10.30 and was gone by 11.45. My poor husband had to take him to the emergency vet with my boy having seizures in the car - I couldn’t go as we have a toddler and someone needed to stay with her. My heart is broken and breaking for him - he was nearly 13 and we have had him since he was a puppy. I can’t believe he is gone and I can’t believe I couldn’t be with him at the end. I am thankful my husband could (especially as we are in lockdown) but i just hope he knew how much I love him too. I miss him already and can’t believe he has gone. I don’t really know why I am posting this, I supposed I am in shock and just so sad. How can he not be here anymore? My heart feels broken - I know we made the kindest decision for him but I just can’t believe this has happened.

Oh Mim,
You & your DH have done the most selfless act ever, the kindest act you’ll ever do, the most heartbreaking one. You put the easing of pain before your pain and that was so, so brave.
I’ve been there and I posted on here for years under a different name and got so much support. The Ralph Site on FB was absolutely fantastic too and also allowed me to scream and let my words out when I needed someone to hear my tears fall. I also lost my DDog to cancer (at 7) and you may experience a whole host of emotions and have so many questions, there’s no right or wrong.

Each tear that falls is a sign of the love you had. Thinking of you and your family xx

💐 🌈 🐾❤️🐾 I'm really sorry for your loss ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

So sorry for your loss OP. You will be in shock. It’s the hardest thing, the house is not the same, I fell UP stairs crying over mine. People won’t get it, but you have loved and been loved and he was a lucky boy. So sorry for what you’re going through.

Please cry when you're ready to. It's so awful, so sad. It feels unbearable. But I promise you that it gets better, little by little by little, until the good memories start to outweigh the hurt. Losing a companion pet is really tough

So sorry for your loss op. It must be a terrible shock for him to have gone so suddenly. You have given him a wonderful life and shown your love right up to the end

Dear @MimPimMim I'm so sorry for your family's loss, it must be such a shock but you and your DH did the right thing and you darling boy would definitely know that he was loved.

It'll all be too raw at the moment but in time and when you are ready, you will smile again when you think of him and what a huge part of your family his is and will always be.

My best friend was put to sleep in 2019 at 17 years old, he was from a rescue shelter, I got him when he was 5. My absolute best friend in the whole world. I am so so sorry for you're loss, it does get easier but the pain never goes away, you just learn to live with it. I bet you had given them an amazing life, & you have done the right thing for them, no pain & no suffering. You are in my thoughts ❤️❤️

Thank you all for your kind thoughts, I really do appreciate it. Just lying here in bed and I can’t sleep - feel alternately sick and numb and inconsolable that I will never get to cuddle my beautiful boy or look into his eyes or scratch him behind the ears again. I can’t stop crying - thinking of him hurts so much and trying to not think of him because it is so unbearably sad just feels wrong. My toddler will be up soon and she always looks for him first thing in the morning - she is too little to understand what has happened but I can’t bear to tell her that he is not here.

I am so sorry to hear about all your losses too - what an awful thing this is.

🐾 🌈 ❤️

I am thankful my husband could (especially as we are in lockdown) but i just hope he knew how much I love him too.

He knew.

I’m so sorry. I’m currently up with my old dog after her latest bloods showed that she has about 2 weeks to live. I just can’t stop crying. I’ve never felt pain like it. I think being in lockdown makes it harder as it’s just one stress after another and I just can’t cope anymore. I’m so sorry for the loss of your boy.

@YouHadMeAtWoof I’m really sorry about your dog - I know exactly how you feel, it’s devastating. And I agree that being in lockdown only makes it harder, this is already such a difficult time without having to endure this on top of everything else. Have you got some support to help you at the moment? Wishing you some joyful moments in the time left together and strength when you need it - you and your dog are in my thoughts.

I'm so very sorry for your painful loss

(((HUGE HUGS))))

I am so sorry, it's devastating.

Your boy knew you loved him, 13 years of love -he knew 💕

It's dreadful any time, but right now, it's even more difficult. I really really feel for you all

@YouHadMeAtWoof. Lots of love to you too.

Suddenly or knowing two different kinds of hell xx

I'm so sorry

I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my darling girl nearly three years ago and I feel your pain. She was my soulmate. I was in shock for ages and it took me a very long time to come to terms with losing her. Please be kind to yourself.

I had to do the same with my best friend 2 years ago, 12 years to the day that we got him. Its heartbreaking, I still cry over him now, I miss him terribly, but it does get easier. Take time to greive OP, DDog is a family member, please look after yourself. Sending big hugs.

I’m the only doggy person I know! I can’t talk to anyone else. They won’t understand.

I hope your toddler was ok this morning @MimPimMim

I'm sorry for your loss

Thank you to everyone for your kind comments, I just feel absolutely distraught. I haven’t slept at all as I can’t stop thinking of my poor boy and the fact that he’s gone. I want to go back and spend more time with him. I didn’t even get to say a proper goodbye as it all happened so suddenly. My husband says it was peaceful at the end and that my boy knew someone he loved was with him. I am trying to find some comfort in that but it is so so hard. I don’t understand how he was here and seemed fine less than 12 hours ago but now he’s gone.

@YouHadMeAtWoof I am sorry to hear that, people don’t understand the love we share with our dogs unless they are similarly lucky enough to experience the same thing. My toddler is not awake yet - my heart is breaking just at the thought of her searching for him when she does get up.

Most people don't understand, but we do.
Your boy was so lucky to have you. Cry all you need to. Sending you strength and love xx

I am so, so sorry for your loss. Such an awful shock for you and your family. He will have felt safe and loved with your husband and will absolutely have known how much your loved him. Thirteen years of love will have created an unbreakable bond, that will never change or fade.

Give yourself all the time you need to grieve and don’t put any rules on it, do what feels right for you. Everyone grieves in their own way. The loss will always be there, but it does get easier. It will take time - and there are no right or wrong timescales, but eventually you will be able to think of the all happy times you had with him and smile.

Sending much love and light you you and your family. x

YouHadMeAtWoof I am so sorry. Even if there’s no-one in RL who can support you, we all understand and are here for you. x

Oh, I am so, so sorry. What a horrible shock. It's devastating whenever it happens, but when it's so sudden it must be so much worse. Sending you a handhold Would you like to tell us about him?

So very sorry for your loss