Nutty Stepmum's Club (NSC) - Who Wants To Join Us? (Thread 3)

[Squirrel3]

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Sorry, but virtual champagne is compulsory!

Hello!

Hello Squirrel

How are you?

Post holiday blues I think.

Why can't I go back to Cornwall?

How are you?

I wanna go to Cornwall too. Lets all sneak off together shall we? I dont reckon anyone will notice

Oh yes please Alligator

Meet you in about two hours and we will catch a train (got a driving lesson first)

Maybe I should hijack the instructors car, pick you up in an hour?

Hello alligator, hope you're OK

Can I come to Cornwall too please?

Has something happened Squirrel or are you just feeling a bit down generally? Hope you're OK

Hope everyone else is OK too

If you want the truth Naam I feel really shit atm!

I've got loads to deal with atm, there are things I can't go into here (but trust me its a very hard situation for anybody to cope with and it affects my whole family mainly my kids), also dp has got to go to hospital next week for tests to see if he has cancer, I just can't bear the thought of waiting to find him him for 12 years then losing him only 5 1/2 years later (I was single for 12 years before I met him), and why the hell do I keep on getting jobs where it is like walking into a den of vipers? Before I went away I put it down to the fact that I was new, it was really hot and peoples tempers were fraying, but since I have been back people 'blank' me , I have to put up with comments being said loudly so I can hear like "There is one too many people working in this department now!" etc. They are a bunch of bitches that are making my life hell atm, I keep it together at work (I don't want to give them the satifaction of letting them see I am upset by it, but it doesn't stop me from crying when I get home). But at the same time I am trying to be strong for dp.

All in all my life is pretty shit atm

But then again whats new? My life is a soap opera.

Shit, sorry I didn't mean to get so sorry for myself

and oh yes, a thing that dsd did on holiday keeps on getting to me, when dp and dss were not there she sang a song to me, (ahhh, that nice I hear you saying) but words to the song were "If you only knew how much I hate you, every time I am near you I hate you more".

I don't mind telling you how gutted I was, I thought we had been getting on much better lately.

and, ooooooops I nearly forgot, the driving instructor told me today that he doesn't think its fair me keep giving him money for lessons every week, he has taught me all he can he can't 'teach' me what I need to pass now. Told you I would never pass my driving test!

Oh no Squirrel, so sorry about everything, feel really for you. Think it must be something in the air atm, I'm p'd off with my life lately too. Starting to think I'm just not meant to be a stepmum....

That's awful about your dsd. Did you tell your DP? Probably not I would imagine. Really hope he's OK, when's his appointment? My mum had a scare last year, she had a lump on her breast but she was fine. The doctor told her nearly 90% of people who worry they have something serious haven't. I'm sure he'll be fine. Everything crossed for you

If you need to 'chat' privately you can e-mail me anytime. Going to e-mail you to make sure you have my work address

x posts there, had to some work in between typing - gits!!

Squirrel you can pass your test, honest you can. I think it was totally unfair of your instructor to say that - everyone gets to the stage where they can't learn any more but when you get to that stage it's vital to keep practising to build confidence. I'd get a new instructor, he's supposed to help you build that confidence not make you feel bad about yourself. He's an arse!

About the driving instructor, I think his coments were more about me than him iykwim. I can't consentrate, my brain keeps wandering off, thinking about other things whilst I am driving, I am a danger to other drivers.

Dp's scan is on the 21st Aug (Mon) at 10.15am so send some positive thoughts our way please. I can't even be there because of work, oh what fun it will be there on Monday NOT!

No, I did't tell dp about dsd, didn't see the point in upsetting him.

Naam, of course you are finding living with dsd difficult atm, the 'honeymoon' period is probably over and now you have to get down to the 'nitty gritty' of daily life together properly iykwim. You are doing brilliantly so far, has anything happened to change things?

Think I can see where you're coming from about your driving instructor now. Do you feel like a break from it would do you good? You never forget how to drive so it wouldn't do any harm if that's what you feel you need to do

I'll be thinking about you and your DP on Monday. I'd be seriously tempted to take a sickie and go with him. Knowing my luck I'd see someone from work at the hospital though! Not surprised you didn't tell him about dsd. Did you make any comment to her at the time?

Nothing new's happened to me, no. Think I'm just generally struggling to cope with life. I try to talk to DP about things and he either falls totally silent or changes the subject - or both! The odd time he does say anything all I get is "sorry you feel like that love". And I still hate living in that house...it's 12 months on Saturday since it became 'ours' and I feel not an ounce better about living there. I really feel atm that I hate my life, the only good thing I've got is work which I'm so grateful of. Every time someone gives me a job to do I find myself asking 'do you need it today?' hoping they'll say yes then I can stay at work for longer. Partly because I hate going to that house and partly because it keeps me away from dsd for a bit longer. And yes I do realise how awful that sounds but I can't help the way I feel. I was doing fine until she kicked and insulted me last month...

Just got your e-mail, thank you You have every reason to feel sorry for yourself. Please try to keep strong

Thinking about you xx

Wish I could think of somethign to help you both and cheer you up. I've got the post holiday blues myself but thats just cos I'm a lazy cow adn hate getting up for work in the mornings.

Cant even get you a virtual bottle of anything as my darling boss has put a crappy internet policy in place which bans virtual drinking. ggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

I hope that this is just post holiday blues for both of us, yes, we may have alot to cope with but we usually cope quite well.

Yep, I think it is, should start a new thread "post holiday blues, how do you get ird of them?"

Maybe we should learn a new skill! It might take our minds of it.

Aaaaargh Alligator! A fate worse than death! No virtual alcohol!!!! AAAaaaaaaarrgh!

Here

Mmmmmm, don't know if you will be able to get that link Alligator, posted it without thinking.

yeah it lets me into the links. Just cant get to the pages myself to create the link. Htere must be a way round it I'm sure.

and my messenger keeps crashing out. Hhhhhmmmm what have the lads been up to while I was away.

lol at learning to fly Sounds like fun to me

Did you notice it was 'the complete idiots guide'?

lol at learning to fly too, sounds like fun. Some would say I'm not safe on my feet never mind in the air

alligator your boss needs a serious talking to! No virtual alcohol indeed!! Pah!! How dare he??

squirrel that drink looks tempting. Never tried guinness, maybe I should

Yes I did Squirrel - thought it was rather appropriate for me

Me too, considering what the driving instructor said to me today, can you imagine his face if I told him I was having flying lessons?

Do it Squirrel - get your own back on him for being inconsiderate! Say "bet you I can learn to fly before I learn to drive!"

Ok, I'll learn to fly then I can pick you all up in my airplane (except alligator, I have a sneeky suspicion she can already fly

Then, we will all go to Cornwall and eat cream teas, drink lots of alcahol, meet some really hunky lifeguards who will teach us how to surf some huge waves.