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I was raped and my husband blames me

214 replies

Sadconfusedlonely · 29/12/2024 18:48

My husband and I had a huge argument, he walked out and left me. I went to a friend's house for drinks then we went into town.

I was in Manchester and not from the area. I lost my friend and was very very drunk. I stupidly went with a man to what I thought was a party but turned put to just be his university room.

I should have left but he told me that his housemates wouldn't be long. We never kissed we never flirted he told me he was gay.

We were just talking sat on his bed I never felt threatened at all but then I felt woozy and lay down, I thought he was asleep next to me. It wa a big bed we weren't touching.

Next thing I woke up to him having sex with me, it was pitch black but I was definitely asleep. I froze. I panicked. I don't know why I didn't stop him but I was just paralysed. He definitely didn't know I woke up. I lay there utterly shocked and disgusted until it went light then got out to safety.

I did not consent. I did not want to sleep with him. He didn't act interested at all we had no physical contact yp until that point.

I called the police the next day from my sisters house. The case is ongoing.

My husband said it is all my fault. He won't sleep next to me he made me reimclact it and called me a slag and a whore. He said I let him f*ck me and I wanted it. He said I deserved it and I am a cheat.

AIBU for wanting him to support me?

OP posts:
LookSharpFixUp · 29/12/2024 19:03

I am so sorry 💐. Your husbands behaviour is disgusting, please find a way to leave. You are a victim and should not be made to feel shame by one of the people who are supposed to be holding your hand and supporting you through all of this. You should not be forced to relive your trauma and like you are to blame, or dirty, or disgusting. You have done absolutely nothing wrong. There is no excuse for how he is treating you and I really wouldn't ever be able to look at him in the same way again.

I had an ex who used to make me relive childhood trauma, and taunt me into feeling ashamed of myself because apparently "let people abuse me and must enjoy it". This did more to my self esteem than any of the events i had to survive through. Please don't let your husband damage your spirit any further and prolong your chance to heal.

Porkyporkchop · 29/12/2024 19:04

Oh OP. Of course you are not to blame my lovely. I am so sorry you are going through this.

Doodleflips · 29/12/2024 19:05

He made you reenact it? That is abhorrent, and he is a truly awful person.
That must have been so traumatic, on top of the trauma you have already experienced. Are you getting counselling?
it is not, in any way, your fault.
Are you able to go and stay with someone else, because you need some space.

Megifer · 29/12/2024 19:06

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Can you explain what you mean? It's not clear.

MrsWhites · 29/12/2024 19:06

I think your husband is lashing out at the wrong part of the events. He’s very very wrong for blaming you for the attack and for this I wouldn’t be able to stay with him. I’m very sorry that this happened to you and I sincerely hope that you get justice for what this man did to you.

But if I put myself in his shoes I would be very unhappy with the earlier part of the evening, when you went off with another man.

78rt · 29/12/2024 19:07

LuckySantangelo35 · 29/12/2024 19:02

@Matildahoney

its not her fault at all though is it? So she went back to a man’s house? So what? Houses don’t rape people, rapists rape people.

No, it's absolutely not her fault she was raped.

But going back to the rapist's house in the first place might imply (and seems to from her husband's point of view) that she was interested in him, which is where his problem begins.

Edited for clarity: His = the husband's problem is that she went with another man at all. Not that I think a woman doing this in should in any way absolve the man himself of rape.

HoundsOfHelfire · 29/12/2024 19:07

Both awful men in different ways. OP what was your husband like before?

ChillysWaterBottle · 29/12/2024 19:07

Wtf are some of these comments. Who drags up these disgusting people?

I'm sorry this has happened to you and I'm sorry your husband is an evil, uncaring, selfish bastard.

I hope your case beats the odds and the rapist ends up in prison.

You are not to blame and the posters suggesting you are, even slightly, are wrong. They don't understand the issue of sexual violence.

I would never speak to my husband again if he reacted like that to me being raped.

Doodleflips · 29/12/2024 19:08

@Matildahoney I am pleased your vile comment has been deleted
This is not in any way helpful
She is not to blame, whatever she did, and victim blaming is shitty.

JumpstartMondays · 29/12/2024 19:08

Rape is the fault of the rapist.

I'm so sorry that it happened to you.

Doodleflips · 29/12/2024 19:09

@78rt @MrsWhites
vile, victim blaming.
shit behaviour!

TheJackalsJackal · 29/12/2024 19:10

The rape was not your fault and your husband is a word I can’t even say.

im sorry you’re going through that trauma and now everyone will tell you to leave your husband. Which is 100% the right thing to do.

Megifer · 29/12/2024 19:10

78rt · 29/12/2024 19:07

No, it's absolutely not her fault she was raped.

But going back to the rapist's house in the first place might imply (and seems to from her husband's point of view) that she was interested in him, which is where his problem begins.

Edited for clarity: His = the husband's problem is that she went with another man at all. Not that I think a woman doing this in should in any way absolve the man himself of rape.

Edited

His problem with op being raped is she went back to a man's house?

I'm sure you don't mean that btw

Eyresandgraces · 29/12/2024 19:11

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What role?
Op was paralysed with fear, it’s a common reaction to protect oneself from violence.

You, however, with the benefit of hiding behind your keyboard are a nasty, victim blaming coward.

MrsWhites · 29/12/2024 19:11

Doodleflips · 29/12/2024 19:09

@78rt @MrsWhites
vile, victim blaming.
shit behaviour!

How am I victim blaming? In no way have I suggested she is in anyway to blame for the rape, absolutely not!

I however, can see why her husband is angry that she was in the company of another man.

pimplebum · 29/12/2024 19:11

Your partner is a nasty nasty man and you need to be rid of him
have you made contact with rape support groups

Frequency · 29/12/2024 19:12

I'm sorry this happened to you, OP. You did nothing wrong. Rape is never the victim's fault. Ever.

I know it's the last thing you need to be thinking about right now but you really do need to start making plans to leave this man. Imagine raising children with someone who has such archaic and vile views on women and consent.

Shoxfordian · 29/12/2024 19:12

Can you leave him and be with some more supportive friends or family? You've done nothing wrong at all.

Doodleflips · 29/12/2024 19:13

MrsWhites · 29/12/2024 19:11

How am I victim blaming? In no way have I suggested she is in anyway to blame for the rape, absolutely not!

I however, can see why her husband is angry that she was in the company of another man.

Just STOP!
Do you not see how damaging your remarks are?
Try looking at it from another perspective, but ffs just stop.

frockandcrocs · 29/12/2024 19:13

YABU for staying with a man that is blaming you for what happened.

I'm sorry that this has happened to you, and I'm sorry that your supposed support person is not doing that.

78rt · 29/12/2024 19:13

MrsWhites · 29/12/2024 19:11

How am I victim blaming? In no way have I suggested she is in anyway to blame for the rape, absolutely not!

I however, can see why her husband is angry that she was in the company of another man.

And nor was I. I said she was absolutely not at fault.

KezzaMucklowe · 29/12/2024 19:13

I'm.so sorry this happened to you op.
You're not to blame. The only person to blame is the man who raped you.
We can discuss what your husband is /was thinking but none of that really matters now.
I think the relationship is over.
He shouldn't have said what he did.
I hope you manage to get rl support.

WhoopsNow · 29/12/2024 19:15

Your husband is a cunt. You need support, not accusations. If he can't support you in your darkest moment then I dont see any point continuing the relationship.

Caerulea · 29/12/2024 19:18

I'm so sorry this happened to you OP (MN I really think the poll needs removing fwiw)

Do you have someone who isn't a nasty cunt that you can go stay with right now? This repugnant man deserves not a minute more of your time & you deserve support & care whilst this unfolds?

DeNiroDeFaro · 29/12/2024 19:18

@Doodleflips that poster isn't in anyway victim blaming and has been very clear that the rapist is 100% responsible for the rape.

OPs husband is 100% responsible and disgusting for how he is reacting.

And the OP is responsible for other actions which have damaged her relationship, such as going home with strange men when she has a fight with her husband. Had she not been raped, that alone could have been relationship ending based on her actions.

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