I told him how much the drinking was an issue.
And the aggression and the sexually messaging other women and the violence towards a precious partner and the emotional abuse and the blaming you and the utter lack of giving a single fuck about you.
This man's behaviour made you worried he would hurt your cats. Threatening a woman's pets is a known tactic of abusers. Even if he didn't verbalise that threat you felt he was capable of it. You are complicit in risking not only your own safety but your pets safety.
He’s out right now, he knows I don’t want this.
No he doesn't, he knows you think you love him and that despite all of the above behaviour by him, you've continued to think that and stay with him.
You say you split up but you didn't really and now you're together again as far as he's concerned.
But I do love him for whatever reason
He doesn't love you. He doesn't even like you. He certainly doesn't respect you. He hates women. He hates you, really he does.
He hates that you had the audacity to believe (fleetingly) that you were worth more than being threatened and frightened and he feels vindicated that you've now behaved how he thinks women should. Accepting the behaviour of violent, cruel men because men are entitled to do whatever they want and women should let them.
To him, women are for fucking, using and intimidating. That's what you're for for him.
This all sounds cruel and it is not an attack on you, it is a factual and honest account of what's going on because you need to read it and take it in.
The biggest question - do you want to have children one day? If so, consider what kind of mother you want to be. If it isn't one complicit in the abuse of children and willing to create a life with someone you know to be a violent, problem drinker who has shown a total lack of responsibility, accountability or honesty - leave this man.
I really hope you can summon the strength to do so as soon as possible, before he hurts you. Or your cats.
Please read this and realise it is all true 