I’d rather be dead.

[despairingandunhappy]

I hate DP.
I have never known a man so financially abusive in my life. He blames me for us having no money yet leaves me with £11 a month to live off after bills are paid. We’re 4 days before payday there is no food in my house and 10p in my bank. And all I have is him moaning about it, “he’d be better off in prison”
I’ve got fuck all. I’m glad we’re on lockdown cos it gives me an excuse to not go out. I don’t want my friends sending me pics of clothes they’re buying or holidays so I’ve come off social media. I need this off my chest because I’m about to explode.

I’d rather be fucking dead.

Fingers crossed for you today xx

Oh OP what an absolute worthless bastard he is!

Fantastic news please make sure you get free while you have the chance. Will be thinking of you.

That’s fantastic progress, very well done OP. The first step to the better life you much deserve. Keep us posted when you can, there are a lot of people thinking of you and rooting for you.

If I’m not out tonight I’m going to phone the police I think. I don’t know what more he wants off me, he’s took my money my self esteem I don’t know what more he wants I’m sure he’d be happy if I died

Great news. Dont worry about him or what he wants. This is all about you and your baby now. Do call the police if you need too. Keep safe.

That’s amazing news. Please tell me you have money for food and have been able to eat. What kind of a monster is he to leave you hungry!! Very upsetting OP

That sounds very positive. Hopefully you and your DS are on your way to a happier and more positive future.

i am so sorry u are going through this that is utter abuse and there is help out there. it may not seem like it just now but there is a much better life out there for u. get a bank account he has no access to and apply for universal credit xx

Call the police. He knows what he's doing is wrong.

Hopefully it’s sorted. He is being unbearable because he didn’t get a job what he went for. My auntie was kind enough to lend me a tenner and obviously he’s took it. I hope the council hurry up

Oh god my love I wish I could scoop you up and rescue you. Hoping so much for you that they have you and little one out of there by morning - thinking of you. Keep talking to us if you need somewhere to vent or help bring signposted to resources to help you - anything

He's taken your £10? Oh my fucking god. What an utter cunt

Yep. For beer whilst DS is at “MIL”

Can you go and stay with your Auntie till a place comes up? And don't pay him the £500 as soon as you're out!

She lives in Northern Ireland, as much as I’d love to be that far away from him I can’t haha

Can you go and visit auntie and stay there. Will someone be picking you up. Call the police if he gets nasty.

If I get a place in a refuge I’ll walk :) he’s always nasty I’d be constantly on the phone if I did fhsg

I really hope you can walk away from this cunt of a man tonight. Glad to hear the meeting went well.

Oh OP, I’m so glad you went to that appointment and told them what was going on. I really hope they can sort you sort with a place to get away to tonight. You and your son deserve sooooo much better than what he’s giving you... infact he’s not even giving you anything, worse he’s just taking and taking. Get away and start to rebuild yourself up. Deep breathes lovely, just imagine every deep breathe being free air, air free of him, filling you up with strength so you can start to stand taller and shake him off.

I really hope you manage to get away. Sending you positive vibes. Stay strong OP. You can do this!

Absolutely rooting for you and your baby op. Hope you get out tonight and if there isn't a refuge place I would walk into the nearest police station tonight and refuse to leave. The police have a duty (I believe) to make sure you are in a place of safety.

I have everything crossed for you OP.

Thank you all x

Good luck @despairingandunhappy, this is the first step to a happy new life for you and your son! In 12 months you will look back and see how strong you have been for yourself and him