NC for this as don't want linking to my other threads.
I've had a FWB set up with a man over the last 2 years. Fairly infrequent/irregular at times but it suited us both.
Both very much on the same page, strictly for fun, we chat about everyday life etc but no emotional attachment. I do like him, I'm not in love with him.
Recently we've started to expand our repertoire, talking about fantasies etc. Decided to go with one of his fantasies recently.
It was quite in-depth, specific and needed a bit of preparation on my behalf. But I was interested and keen to go ahead.
So preparation done; on the day he decided he's not feeling it blah blah blah maybe another time 
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I was so embarrassed, I was meeting him for no strings sex and he turned me down when I got there 
I know it's over, my self esteem has taken a bit of a hit. But am I being unfair? I know he has the right to change his mind but I was actually there when he decided no .
I was petty turned heel and walked as fast as my legs could carry me and didn't respond to his following message that "he feels really bad..." oh god the shame of his pity 
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Not sure what I want maybe just to get it off my chest really, can't talk IRL about this as my friends don't know I have/had this set up as I feel a bit judged.
Would love to block him and never cast eyes on him again, but we cross paths regularly and I need to style this out, somehow.