We are getting through these threads aren't we.
heartnothead hugs, but you don't want to be dating a middle aged Peter Pan!
Iris I can't imagine all you've gone through this year, stay strong.
Liza and dolly you're doing SO well. Big hugs.
Tygr It's so hard but allow yourself to grieve and to feel these emotions, they are normal and it's super hard 
I wrote a text last night but didn't send it. The good thing is after 24 hours when you go back it does seem easier not to send it and I'm glad I waited.
GeriT how are you feeling about the message you drafted now?
Still have the regular sad moments throughout the day where I wonder what he's doing and why he doesn't want me. Have bought some self help books that should be coming this week. They're more based on getting over an EA relationship which is what I came out of earlier this year, need to work on myself.
I'm also being pursued by a guy I rejected recently, but I have since said we could hang out as friends. He's treating this 'friendship hangout' as a date though, telling me how excited he is, and that is giving me anxiety. He's bought me a present for where we're going and everything. Everything he's doing is lovely if it was from the person I want it to be from, but when it's from someone you're not interested in, I just feel sick. lol. The worst feeling is knowing that the way I feel about him is probably how my crush felt about me in the end. I definitely went too keen at one point, then went the opposite way and acted like I don't like him at all. lol. 