Hello, new to thread!
I am planning on going NC with narc ex. Split up three weeks ago.
Abusive relationship that towards the end became physical, and after the breakup became sexual.
He says he loves me, is in love with me, has never connected to anyone like this before, would be a wreck if I left his life, said that he thinks about me all the time, said that he misses having sex with me, misses hugging, cried last night on the phone that this is the longest we have gone without physically seeing each other (1 week).
he broke up with me when he was drunk saying that he didn't want a relationship, he felt too pressured, and that he couldnt keep hurting me (he'd done unforgivable things in the relationship). We have had constant contact since he did it, had sex once and have had two other sleepovers with no sex. Text daily, ring every few days.
He said he wasn't looking for sex with someone else, but if it came up he wouldn't turn it down as he is single now. I said how's that going to work if we're still friends? And he said I didn't need to know 
that he views sex as a bodily function and that he definitely didn't want another relationship for a long time. I said I didn't want to speak to him and he said it was an entirely hypothetical situation - he wasn't planning on having sex! I am so confused. During the breakup he said he wouldnt want anyone else and this was a chance to sort himself out and stop being abusive and alcoholic.
so hard to start this, in the past i've tried and failed NC with him. It's like i'm addicted. I cant imagine not speaking to him but it's doing me no good