Friend doesn't want me at event - WWYD?

[weaselface]

Name changed as this is outing!

My group of friends organised going to a music festival that's happening next weekend. I couldn't get a ticket at the time but am volunteering at the festival so I get a ticket as part of that.

Stayed over at my best friend's last night, and this morning overheard her on the phone talking to one of our mutual friends.

The jist of the conversation was 'Weasel is going to Festival after all... I know, I'm so annoyed, I thought there was no chance at this point. She has the whole weekend off as well, so we can't shake her off'

I am gutted :( I have depression and huge issues around self esteem and feeling secure in friendships. This is the first time ever I've thought I had a solid group of friends, and this particular girl is supposed to be my best mate.

I'm tempted not to go, but I've paid a deposit for my spot which I would lose. The other option is to try and find some additional paid bar work at the festival, but it's a 12 hour shift both days for crap money. Another part of me is tempted to go and be the life and soul of the party. I just wouldn't enjoy myself thinking they're laughing/moaning behind my back :(

Sorry for the epic post, guess I just needed to vent! Any tips on how to make the weekend more bearable?

Fab update OP!

Onwards and upwards

Yeah! So so glad you had such a good time.
Enjoy the other festivals an enjoy your new friends!
Go you!

Well done!
I had a thing with a very longstanding friend last year, and it floored me. It came totally out of nowhere. She then offered me the chance to meet her and hear all the things I did wrong and I simply declined and never saw her since. I don't see the point in trying to get to the bottom of something like that - it's unlikely to be anything you can change and once your trust has gone with someone it's not coming back.

That's amazing. So pleased you had a good time.

great update! Im so glad you had fun and are doing more festivals!

I did a festival once on my own as my friend who i went with fucked off and left me there, and after initially freaking out and wanting to go home, I did the rest of the festival by myself, had a fabulous time, and met new people that id have never met if id been part of a twosome. It was absolutely liberating. I hope you feel liberated and empowered now too x

Perfect! I'm so glad it went so well. Now just make sure you gush on social media (if bitch friend will see it) about what fun you have had and what great new friends you have made and how you're looking forward to more festivals with them..etc etc. And I hope the next festivals are as fun (I'm sure they will be). Leave this bitch friend in the past and go forward to better things.