Brave Babes...braving the Autumn

[Mrsmimsy]

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Afternoon babes, delurking to wish everyone on this bus a peaceful and happy Christmas xx

Obrigada, happy christmas to you to, lovely.

Elba tiredness is a real killer. How are you today?

Made, good news about the start date - you have a very good dad - so get swotting for that test

Sunday, just think how good it will feel to do a year . . . maybe more.

I'm starting to get over this grotty virus and feeling a little better. Moderating rather than being af, I'm working myself up to Dry Jan by not giving myself a hard time. I think we are all sorted for a very low key Christmas (DH owes me big time - doing the christmas food shop has always been his job). Now just need to get the wrapping of DS's presents done.

sweet glad you are starting to feel a bit better.

I'm struggling, keep having full on sobbing fits. So extremely lonely with it as can't be phoning people and bringing them down just before Christmas. Have a three week break from counselling over Christmas too which doesn't help (obviously I get that she needs time off) so just feel totally on my own with it all. Hate that everything stops for Christmas.

On call tonight so at least will wake up without a hangover- might drag myself round Parkrun tomorrow if actually get to sleep.

Sorry, don't like that I'm being so persistently negative on here either.

You don't need to apologise Elba, the Babes have broad collective shoulders - there's always someone here who will be up to supporting.

It's tough that your councillor is taking such a long break (I dream of three weeks off!). Get yourself on the Parkrun tomorrow and get yourself some good happy dolphins (endorphins ). I'm sure you wouldn't bring people down, they might be glad of the distraction from their own families.

Shit, massive name change fail. You ain't seen me right?

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I don't think I'd know what to do with three weeks off sweet!

Thank you- helps so much having an outlet. Never like this time of year particularly, but have never reacted this much either. Will make running a priority tomorrow- need some dolphins! Plus all my marathon sponsorship stuff came in the post today as a timely reminder that i actually need to do some training...!

You were saying the other day, I think, Elba how much more conscious you were this year of your drinking - perhaps that applies to all aspects of your life. It may not feel like it, but it's part of working through and getting better.

I am so impressed with your running - I've never got past day two of C25K - though Sweet Dog and I do walk (sedately) for hours.

Yeah I think there's probably a big aspect of things getting worse before they get better. And drinking used to work well for me but just makes me sad and agitated now so I've lost my 'crutch'.

My running is far from impressive (asthmatic smoker that really should know better ), but I'm determined to give it a go. Walking is very therapeutic too though, especially with a dog I'd imagine. I got stuck on C25K a few years ago though, but found it suddenly 'clicked' after nearly giving up on it and I was off!

Feel a bit more human now and tears seem to have stopped...helps so much to have you all here xxxx

Checking in after long absence
DM seriously ill but I am manage to moderate because I am scared to let loose.
elba sending you a huge hug. I am in a large city celebrating Christmas but feeling very removed from the festivities.
Christmas really highlights sadness and difficult emotions doesn't it

Sending good wishes to all, such an especially tricky time for the troubled and grieving.
Just one large glass of red tonight. Wine has buggered my oesophagus and I'm on medication for reflux which is making me a little queasy, unexpected and helpful side effect I guess.

Hope everyone has a peaceful night.

Checking in. Haven't read back so apologies to all struggling. I hope you all have the best Christmas Eve and Christmas you can have, whatever that may be for you.
This bus, and the friendship of the Babes who travel on it,fall off it, get back on it, is one of the best things in my life. I raise my cup of coffee to you all!

Shitting arseholes. I've lost 2 days, camping out in my sitting room, wake to light the fire, drink some port/wine and snuggle down again. I absolutely hate the Christmas thing and am definitely burying my head. Not good, I was dead proud of myself having two days off last week but am more than making up for it.

Maybe I'll just go with it till Jan and not beat myself up, hybernating can be good, why not.

I was going to say if anyone is alone and wants a phone chat I'd be up for it but boooger, it's 10.25am (I think) and I'm not sober - but pm me, I may be asleep, I may be awake and I think the landline is charged up.
Sorry, it's been all about me. Bloody drink!

Sunday I bet you’d be really proud if you do a year AF – you could always have a drink if you wanted in the new year but I think it’d be great for you to end the year on a high rather than a low (which is what drinking will likely do to you)

Elba how are you feeling now? Hope parkrun went well.

Chit definitely don’t beat yourself up, whatever you do, and enjoy.

Now for a bit of humour/mortification at my behalf. The mother has found my vibrator and is scandalised questions regarding why do I have it, what is it, and she is apparently disgusted. Any protests on my behalf on it being a private subject have been ignored. So things not too right with us but am sure it’ll all work out ok.

Oh dear made!

sober big hugs for you too. Sorry your DM is so poorly.

chit how are you doing now? Hibernating is just what I want to do- but please make sure you are managing to eat and get some water into you as well as the wine. Hope you are ok.

ma lovely post.

I ended up at work until the early hours last night but made it to parkrun, and parked away from it to add in a couple of extra km. Wasn't a great run by feel a bit better for doing it- well, haven't cried today (yet) which I will take as an improvement. I have four days off after tonight which usually I would be looking forward to, but think I would be better working.

I hope, like ma said, that everyone has the best Christmas they can do. (And if you feel like I do about it this year - it's nearly over!!). Xxxx

Oh made your anecdote just made my day. Now I'm wondering how on earth she found your vibrator and more than that just why she is disgusted. Is it cos nice women don't feel the itch?
Fire's lit, again. Gonna have to face the world as only 1 rizla left.

And many many thanks for saying don't beat myself up, I'll go with that.

No beating up for anyone. Merry Christmas, on the wine, tomorrow is another day, all will be well. Best to all x

elba ((((((((((it'sgoingtobeokaybosie))))))))))) I got ye. xx

Checking in. Just finished my shift, going home to cuddle the wouf and let her know I love her from her pokey nose to the tip of her tail.

A very sad day today. Didn't manage to hold it in either. Would dearly love to blot, blot and blot again but I am on call tomorrow.

I am giving every lovely babe on the bus a Christmas bosie, a great big one. You are loved. I am going to turn into a sap here.

You are loved by those around you, and by those who are now a twinkle in the sky. Especially by those twinkles in the sky. A wee girl today told me her guinea pig was a twinkle. And that he was happy. Merry Christmas to all of the twinkles, may you shine ever brightly xxx

Thanks dubh I have given up trying to recapture the magic f Christmas and am in bed already.Kids have said, for the first time ever, not to put stockings on their bed as it wakes them up. They'll just get them in the morning when they get up. Probs around d 10. So no excitement for them either. Don't know why I fucking bother. I'm not doing all this shit next year.

Hello everyone hope your all ok, been absolutely I manic, still trying to get dc to sleep They very exited. Merry Christmas!

Just checking in quickly to wish you all a lovely Christmas. I am in lands afar and not having a great time (family issues, missing mr l and lalapup) but lights are twinkling on the tree, and there are prawn cocktail crisps.

Love to all x

Just checking in. AF today, will doubtless have too much tomorrow.
Hope you're all okay.
Happy festivities for those engaged with it and peace to all

Happy Christmas all x

Ah ma. Put some big heavy boots on and put the stockings up around 4am anyway. Tell them dubh made ye do it. And she's nails so ye dursn't refuse.

Then hoover. And sing a bit.

made roaaaaar there's nae explaining that one away. Perhaps wrap a bit of tinsel round it to make it more festive like. Or make a centrepiece out of it tomorrow. A little circle of satsumas with that in the middle. A sprig of holly. A little angel on the top. You are set.

I've already put my holiday request in for next Christmas. Probably won't shiting get it again but I dream of Florence. Wouldn't leave the wouf but in my imaginary place I would be there.

Christmas Eve, a quiet sit in the Sante Croce, light a candle or two. Christmas day, fill my face with all things lovely then have a wander about. Sighing at the beauty.

The bairn's infection is back. The bone is not healing. It seems to be lytic and getting worse. Her lymph nodes are up so a biopsy was taken this week which is why I haven't visited the bus. I am praying. A lot. Once the results of the biopsy come back she's going for a ct, they think it's osteomyelitis but can't rule out an osteosarc. She's on antibiotics and pain relief in the meantime. What did she ever do to anybody? She's had such a shitty start to life.

She is so getting a proper dinner tomorrow. Love that wee soul so much.

Barrie?!? Get your arse oot here and give me a big fucking slap. I'm playing my tiny violin and it's scrachking awa like nails doon a board.

There is a small black dog under the duvet on the back seat o the bus. I'll keep her off the sprouts.