Brave Babes Battle Bus - Holding our heads up like thistles

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I bit the bullet - Come on in, excuse the faint whiff of dog!

The last thread

Hi Mrs mimsy. I'm ok. A bit hungover this morning though!
Worked on the presentation today and will be doing more tonight before a run through at the uni tomorrow. Need to see a Veteran first though who needs some help so a busy day.
Lala - mouse's "fish" is her wee son Nemo. He has a additional needs and is nicknamed Nemo like the wee fish in the film. He's an adorable little chap who never stops fighting and we have all followed his story and are his honourary aunties!

Awww! I thought as much, but thought I would drop my fish story in there anyway... Can I be an honourary auntie as well? If so you can all be honourary aunties to the silly pup. Not the same I know, but nemo sounds like a cool dude.
Having a beer now whilst cooking dinner. Mr l is a lucky bastard.

Ma just checking in to see how your run through is going? Hope you are ok.

Thanks small. We have about two thirds of it done so had to present with a few blanks! It was ok, but a long way off perfect and we don't have time to get together again for a full rehearsal before next week! We are going to have to wing it a bit on the day. I managed to forget three key points as usual...

Ma if you only forgot three key points I'd say you're doing pretty well! And oddly, I find winging it often produces the best results - just spin it as spontaneity rather than panic.

There seems to be tumbleweed blowing through an empty bus, and mournful howling outside. Where is everyone?

Thanks small. It depends how serious the panel is or if they are up for a bit of spontaneous and libbing. We are the last presentation of 4 so they will be knackered and bored by the time we get on.
Yes,thebus is very quiet and eerie. I do hope horrid baby doll hasn't made an early Halloween appearance.....

Sorry not been posting, anxiety and drinking too much. Worried about work.

You ok joey

Just feeling down ma. Am off work with an injury, and worried about going back. Plan to get drunk, the alcohol knocks out any anxieties. Not the best solution is it. Maybe I need to sit down and write out what's in my head, and what to do about it.

How are you doing? How's the presentation coming on?

That doesn't sound good joey How long will you be off?
Presentation still isn't finished. The prof is a whizz at laying it all out but I have to make sure I dont forget my lines and mess up the delivery of it all. I'm really tired.

Practice it til you can say it in your sleep... S l o w I t D o w n ....

Practice it in front of anyone who will listen. Or even if they're not listening.

Where is everyone?

I'm here. Still trying to make healthy(er) choices and still sometimes failing

I've been so busy lately that when dh offered to take me away this weekend I said no, I want to stay here and catch up on the cleaning that I have not had a chance to do!

I can't believe it has come to this. I want a tidy house, I want a restful weekend at home and I want to sit down with my cuppa and catch up on my tv. How sad is that

I'm trying to learn Spanish too so I want some time to practise that. Also I have to fit in my C25K running which is starting to slip.

Apart from that, I'm on top of everything.

I'm here. Drinking to alleviate boredom. Have been signed off work for another week, but my pain isn't really improving and I think it's going to be a long term issue. So I'm pretty worried about my job.

The problem is the pain is only if I do one specific thing (sorry to be vague, trying not to out myself) but it's necessary for work. So, why would I suffer if I don't have to, if that makes sense. I don't want to have to choose between my health and my job....

Sound tough joey. Are you getting sick pay?
Faire am impressed with your activities. I had vowed to start a yoga class tonight. Am slumped on the sofa with a glass of wine...

Hello, tis me, mouse

lala - bless your heart for caring and asking about my 'pet quota'. In Finding Nemo, Nemo is the only wee fish who survives against all odds, very much like our precious boy. See the pictures xxx

It's eleven years ago this 28th Sept that our darling triplet boys; Charlie, Harry and George, were taken from our lives. Only 16.5 weeks gestation yet I still showed so super big

Ma - thank the world for you my very dear friend. That is all xxx

Sorry not to name you all but my phone is just about zonked. I've had to face a ten day detox from strong morphine capsules and it has nearly killed me and my life. The Vodka Witch has been stamped on with enormous gusto and I've down graded to white wine, which trust me, is a must if the morphine is being removed from my system.

I've shook, puked, sweated and lost almost 2 KG in weight in just 10 days. I feel so terribly ill. Next GP update will hopefully be on Monday, but I may well need some hand holding over the weekend when I go cold turkey completely with only my morphine patch to get me through, which is slowly released into my system.

Faire - hello darling, we've not chatted for ages but so many of you have kept the threads going. Thank you all. xxx

Now I need YOU guys more than ever if that's ok?

I'll be back over the weekend when I'm really struggling. I know it's not booze, but it's still an addiction so I hope you'll have me xxx

Much love and strength to you all xxx

Hello Mouse

Just to add my thoughts, love and prayers for you ..... sending you strength and hope in awe, yes TOTAL AWE of what you have experienced and your efforts and desire to come through it to health.

Not to mention all the time, care and effort you have put into this thread for everyone else's benefit.... bless you honey.

Thinking of you heaps. I won't bore you with my issues, but they really pale next to yours.

Please keep going.... and your little boy is just adorable?

Best from me xx

I've not posted for a while, but I'm always here and watching and reading and cheering from the sidelines, and empathising when things are tough.

mouse you wonderful little creature, keep strong, because you know that it is all worth it for nemo, for dd for your dh and most of all for YOU. You deserve to be free of this. And you will xx

ma and wry why don't we have a sea-glass day when wry is next at the vet's???? Wouldn't that be brilliant?

lookingforhope you have come an amazingly long way in the last couple of years. You have left a destructive work environment, you've been brave and clever and set up our own business. All those skills are still with you. Do not let WB take it from you - he must the only person in the world who is not applauding you. And it's his loss, and it will be his loss when the time is right and you can stride out on your own.

elba hope your break is going well. However awful it feels, I know you can recover form that low point. courage mon ami xx

And to all other friends, obrigada, alias and 'anyone else who knows me' and to new posters, and to lurkers, and to others.... I wish you well, and I'm never really very far away.

venus lovely to hear from you xx

I'm back from a lovely few days at my friends, didn't want to leave. Have done nothing apart from hang out with friend and her babies (now 7 weeks old and so completely gorgeous). Baby brain is very real I've learnt, but for me weirdly therapeutic, much more so than the money wasted last week on spa days etc! No time to overthink everything as usual, just focusing on the babies, which has suited me fine. I've had one or other of the babies attached to me pretty much all week and am missing my cuddles already. I'm also now a pro at nappies, feeding, winding and sucking snot out of tiny noses!

Ashamed to say I was only af one night (had the twins in with me for a night to give friends a full night sleep- even I wouldn't of dreamed of sneaking a drink in then), which was not the intention. So it was back to sneaking in drinks when everyone was in bed. But on the plus side at least I didn't have much and was very mindful that hangovers and small babies would not be a good mix. So sort of moderation I guess.

Going to attempt a sober October- have even told people I'm doing it (a few laughed ), but freaking out about it slightly. Obviously tonight will not be AF, but trying not to think of it as a massive last blowout.

Anyway hope everyone's ok xxx

Hey all. mouse your nemo is gorgeous! I didn't obviously know your back story, but so so sorry to hear about your lovely boys, and to hear about the withdrawal symptoms. Keep going, you are so very strong and as illusion said, you are so caring on this thread and I am sure that is only the half of what you are like in RL.

Waves to venus, you've been missed! And a sea glass day for you and ma sounds totally amazing!

elba welcome back! Glad you had a lovely time, you deserve it. And well done for achieving at least one AF day and for the moderation...

alias good to hear from you! But again, sorry to hear of your struggles. And if your job is causing you physical pain, then it's not worth it, so you are right to be signed off. As you said, your health is way more important than your job, in the grand scheme of things...

ma - go to yoga!!! And then tell me how fab and relaxing it is so I too can find a class to go to, and stop myself slumping on the sofa with wine...

Crazy here, issues with the flat and the landlord that if I tell you will out me. Currently having the crap kicked out of the hallway whilst some rather incompetent builders attempt to install a front door, looks and sounds like the apocalypse is happening downstairs. Had a fight with mr L this morning when he developed selective deafness at 5.45am. He was fully awake and then as soon as I asked him if he could take the dog into the garden for a wee, he suddenly couldn't hear me and pretended to be in a deep sleep. Then the dog managed to get hold of something he needed for work just as I was leaving the house, she wouldn't drop it and he shouted at her and called her 'a fucking stupid mutt' and had a go at me for not helping him. He apologised over text pretty pronto when I made it extremely clear he is never to speak to her like that again, she is only a puppy fgs, and I know she can be irritating, but no need to shout at her like that. He is pretty stressed working 14 hour days, so maybe I should cut him some slack. Just hoping I haven't made a massive mistake.

Anyway, enough rambling from me, got a super busy weekend coming up, along with an annual work review thingy on Monday, where basically their job is to rip you to shreds, so got heaps of work to do as well. I just want to drink myself into oblivion and escape it all. And in fact I have just had a glass of wine before I take little miss out to her new park to frolic. I am a bad person.

Sorry for sounding so negative. It's hard being an adult, and I really should be used to it by my age!

Hope all other babes are well.

Ps elba... Re sober October... Do it. Don't listen to the idiots who laugh, you are doing it for yourself, not for them, and I know you will be able to achieve it, as George Michael said, 'Keep the faith' and all that... Urgh. I have gone that bonkers that I am quoting George Michael as good life advice. Perhaps I should just give up now?!

Venus me old mucker! How the devil are you? A sea glass day would be fab. Let's round up wry and her butteries and have a day "wending our way to the sneezing sea".

Mouse you CAN do this.

Hey lala love that you are quoting George and thanks for the encouragement. I'm stubborn so in a way the fact that people don't think I can do it is good as I want to prove them wrong. Sorry things are still stressful, and totally get what you mean about it being hard being an adult- I still have to remind myself that I actually am one. Hope you and pup enjoyed your walk.

Having a big panic about the thought of not drinking for a month, even a week feels too much. It felt like a good idea when it was a few weeks off, but now it's scaring the crap out of me. And even if I do it then what happens after? We all know I can't control this... Having a last drink (well several) tonight, not even enjoying it much so it's all pretty stupid really. Would just love not to have to think obsess about all this but can't see that happening either...

Having the worst evening

I am actually crying in the bathroom. I have made a huge mistake... I want vodka. Need the babes right now. I am killing myself slowly but surely.

Wish I had never moved in with him: