Brave Babes Battle Bus - Holding our heads up like thistles

[MaryMungoAndMidgies]

I bit the bullet - Come on in, excuse the faint whiff of dog!

The last thread

hope lovely, is there any potential consequence of leaving him (and I know these things are hugely complex) that is worse than the reality of staying? If he makes you feel so awful I can't imagine much worse. Hope it went ok at the doctors

hope he's a cunt. There is no other word for it.
Did you get anti depressants? Had a bit of a shit day here myself. Have been letting dd1 do some work in the company to try and keep her occupied, and to help us too, but I can't cope with her miserable, sullen, depressed attitude in my workplace as well as at home. I don't know what to do with her and am making allowances but I can't any more. If she wasn't my daughter she would be on a disciplinary by now. But now I feel trapped. If I tell her I don't want her there any more it's kicking her when she's down, but she's doing my head in.Its like an energy vampire. I'm tired and we have gone overdrawn so no money for wine.

Delurking to send love to Hope. I certainly cannot put it as eloquently as lovely Wry and so many others, and I'm certainly in no position to offer 'advice', but wanted just to say you are a wonderful, kind, supportive and amazing person and you so so so so so do not deserve this. I hope you managed to get some sense (and medication) out of your doctor today, and that you find a way through this. As others have said, it may be that leaving cannot be as bad as staying, but that doesn't make it any the less scary a prospect. My thoughts and hopes are with you xx

SmallFox! As I live and breathe! How are you m'dear!! ((((((((((((bosietobits))))))))))))))))) where ya been? Whatcha been up to? I'm that chuffed to see you! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hope see how you are loved? There's a small fox peeped out to see if you are okay! How did you get on today at the recruitment place? Did they see what a special being was sat in front of them? Did your GP hear what you were saying? That you need support? Fucking hell hope if I could conjure up a flying carpet I would scoop you and your kids up and fly you to a wee cottage on Loch Tay for a rest, I would cook, you wouldn't have to lift a finger. You can and you will get through this, hang on, hang on, hang on. (((((((((((((((((((Terrorist sends you a hairy bosie))))))))))))))))))))) and so do I. A great big one. (Don't look too closely at me legs...scrubs cover them up beautifully...) Mucho love, xxxx

elba hope you had a fab relaxing day today, come in and tell us what you had done, it'll give me a little boost while I ponder the fate of me hairy legs. I truly hope you were spa'd and not spayed.
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((and relaaaaaaaaaaaaax bosie)))))))))))))))))))) xx

ma come on, we are off to the Seychelles or somewhere, think tonight calls for some sunny sea glass collection. Just for tonight, I will bring the wine. except I may have already started the bottle

That's a bit of a bugger of a position to be in, your mam instincts are trying to make her happier, but she's fighting against it. I've said it before on here, I felt so at odds with myself when I was younger I railed against every kind thing my mam did for me. She can't see by her own pain, and the easiest thing sometimes is to share that pain around a bit. I bet she's gutted that she is so miserable and is probably more than aware she is unintentionally causing you frustration and the raaaaarghs but doesn't know what to do to make it better. You did a Good Thing ma. She'll know that in a year or two. xx

Work is hard. I am allowing myself one glass. Shower, jammies, wine and Jaws. ma we are not, I repeat not looking for sea glass in Amity.

elba I'm away to decleor meself in the shower. I've made a decision. I'm going to plait me legs. xx

lalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa are you there lovely? How are ye? Have ye got any plaiting bands? or are they in one of your packing boxes? Hope you are you're okay and not too stressed, moving hoose is a big bugger, thinking of you, xxxx

sorry about the you are you're youph, backspace arsey again xx

Hey all. Much drama of moving in. Pup has adapted quite well. I haven't. I am really drunk, as per getting someone to move the sofa. What have I done?? My poor dog....

hope you are worth so much more than this, and I hope you find that one day

ma I was promised that kids would improve once past the teenage stage - are you saying they stay like this forever??! we thought it was the light at the end of the tunnel - but it was actually a train coming the other way I have no words of advice except- do what is best for YOU, and screw everyone else

Wry how are you doing, and how is your wee dog? I hope you've got over the stress of last week - I bet she has (dogs are very forgiving) I meant to say, it really showed how much you love her because you worried so much about her - which makes you a great dog owner.

Ps. I saw your contribution on another thread, suggesting bread as a treatment for sore penises. I wanted to ask, is that a professional nurse recommendation or is it from personal experience?

Hey, tis me, Mouse

Just popping on again to say I'm still here, hello to the new BABES and that I wanted to send my support to Hope who seems to be having a really frickin shitty time of it lately.

Most of you know my past entailed abuse of varying degrees and my heart goes out to ANYONE in that position, to whatever degree.

Quite update - earn, well, I've gotten to the point with my medication where nothing was taking the edge off anymore so they (GP) just kept upping my morphine, to the point where I'm now dependant on it. Great.

Over the last few months, I've been trying to get help but hit rock bottom and started on my poison of choice, vodka. I ended up in a very dark place

I started to self medicate and use that too and tbh I got into a bit of a pickle, too ashamed to come here and admit my failings until today!

So, I'm under a lovely new GP who is very understanding, I'm going to a local alcohol one to one support place, doing some CBT, have a fab counsellor and slowly weaning off the alcohol and one of my morphine sources.

Phew. That was so hard to say but I need to be back here, with you all and help who I can and you me too if that's ok?

Missed you and the BUS heaps so I'm getting back on, and now you know why.

See you all tomorrow for day 2 of weaning (I sound like about to try solids!!)

I'll try to catch up too. Night all.

Love, Mouse xxx

Bloody predictive text!! Sorry, you all get the point to my post I hope! xx

Morning, tis me, mouse.

I hope you all share the sunshine we've got on the Autumn Equinox this morning? There's a definite nip in the air too.

I had a dreadful, fitful night but I'm guessing that this is only the start of things to come......... Detox is a b1tch but only I can do it. Back later xxx

Hello Mouse. Am at work so only a short one - but wanted to send you a big foxy cuddle and wrap you up warm and snuggly and take you off somewhere safe and pain-free. You lovely, lovely Mouse - you so do not deserve more pain and sadness. Your self-knowledge makes it all the more heart rending. Big love to you. I am slowly clambering my way back onto the bus, baby fox steps at a time, and I hope we can have a hug along the way xx

Really quick check in as had a mad rush to get home, need to take dog out before tackling the bonkers pony. wry I can send you some plaiting bands if you like hope you are well, my lovely. I love your posts!

ma hope the daughter is being less of a minx now, and your sea glass is so so so pretty.

hope how are you holding up?

elba as always, I hope you are ok, how was le spa day?

Everyone else, how are you doing?

Sorry not to name check everyone, it's been a mad mad mad few days, and I feel exhausted and empty (bit like my bank account)... Still feeling like I have made a huge and expensive mistake with the flat... We moved a sofa in yesterday (that was an ordeal and a half) so at least we now have somewhere to sit! But mr Lala seems to have no concept of bills etc, and keeps doing annoying shit like leaving lights on... Maybe we have rushed into this... Please tell me it will all be fine?

Will check in again properly later, pup is being very vocal about needing her walk...

Love to all

mouse so good to see your wee furry face back on the bus! Quite apart from the fact we have missed you, the breakfast service has been shite and the place is full of dogs and horses and seaglass. Standards have definitely slipped.
Good to see you too smallfox.
Well, I "sacked" dd1 today. That wasn't easy, bit she put me and another member of staff in a difficult position ,and I had no choice. It went well, as you can imagine!

Hi all,

ma that can't of been an easy conversation! Sounds like it had to be done though...maybe it will teach her a bit about professional behaviour?

wry at plaiting your legs!! Spa was lovely thank you, had a full body massage then just pottered about for a bit but felt a bit self conscious on my own to be honest. But there was a heated outdoor pool overlooking the sea so had a lovely swim in the sun. Hope you and the terrorist are ok

lala hope your ok, it's really early days so theres bound to be some ups and downs getting used to living together. Hugs to you and the furry ones

Had a bit of a lazy day today, actually not really sure what to do with myself when not working and feel a bit low/lonely even though ive been trying to see friends as much as possible. Of to stay with friend and cuddle baby twins next week though.

Told a couple of friends that I was going to not drink for October and they laughed in a kind of 'yeah right' way All the more reason to prove them wrong I guess. There won't be much (if any) opportunity to drink at my friends without reverting to the whole sneaking bottles in and out and don't want to go there again. So now freaking out a little bit about the whole thing, and trying to work out when I can fit a last few 'sessions' in whilst simultaneously panicking about drinking so much and trying to arrange as much as possible to avoid it That probably makes no sense...I'm confusing myself with it all!

Sorry if i have filled up the thread with boring horse and dog stories. I won't do it again

Ohlaladon't be daft! I love hearing about the pup and horse, and wry's hairy terrorist and everyone else's news. I'm sure you are all sick of hearing about seaglass and soldiers!

Hello people, I've dipped a toe a couple of times but never seriously joined.

I'm in court next week, ex seeking enforcement of contact order. I'm reasonable confident he wont succeed. However, I will be left with sole care of children and ft work and have descended into alcohol as a crutch to manage.

I want to stop. My sister is coming to support me next week pre court and for four weeks afterwards. she is awesome. We both know I need to stop drinking to manage my life going forwards. I'm terrified of talking to my gp in case it comes out in court - CAFCASS have recommended a section 7 report.

Advice gratefully received.

Never tired of hearing about soldiers ma

Welcome jayho. Posting and running as have early dental appointment but hopefully some of the other babes will drop by soon.

Hello jayho and welcome to the bus. Although it can be a bit strewn with lovely pups and horses, not to mention the odd squid, it is a true lifesaver of a vehicle, albeit not always in a reliably sane way. So hop on - and hello.

I'm sure there will be others along soon who know more about the legal stuff and can offer wiser advice than me in general - but gosh, what a lot you have coming up: I am not surprised you feel in need of a crutch. I guess the key thing is to get out of that way of thinking, but so much easier said than done. How fab that your sister is so brilliant and is properly there for you - it sounds from your post as though you can talk to her about your drinking and that has to be a massive plus. Many of us (me, at least) are very reluctant to acknowledge the issue with anyone in RL so it is great that you have such an honest relationship with her. I'd say don't hold back and do ask for all the help from her (and others) you can get, though I understand your reservations about going to the GP right now. Maybe see how it goes over the next month or so and possibly approach the doctor at that stage if you don't feel any different by then?

For now, you need all your strength, so do use your sister's support and hop on here as often as you like to vent/cry/giggle/sigh or scream. It's a wonderful place. I have been MIA for months and am not yet fully back on board but it seems like the same crazy old bus, though oddly cluttered with sea glass at the moment - very pretty, but still haven't quite figured out why it is here (please tell me it hasn't taken the place of opal fruits in some weird new crystal diet?). Will have to read back and see. I'm sure there will be a good reason. Hmm.

Morning babes, taking up my seat again on bus, hangover here this morning - way too much vino last night. Am currently trying to just get through my working day and then it's chinese and an early night for me!

Waves to all babes.

Afternoon, tis me, mouse

So sorry breakfast is late, mid afternoon it will have to be I'm afraid BABES!

(Wheels out her chiller with various drinks, sandwiches, vegan, gluten free, fat free, but not taste fillings, wraps, salads, soups, freshly baked breads, jacket spuds and yummy desserts seeing as it's Friday! )

(Then goes off to muck out the stables, brush the dog hair off the BUS, arranges ma's beautiful sea glass in a giant scallop shell, and then plonks herself down next to the lovely smallfox)

So, who is worried about it being the weekend? Overdoing it? Simply because you can? (assuming you don't have to work or even if you do.....

The thing is, unless you're going out all wknd, I bet my furry little bottom you'll be thinking about what you have at home, to cover the weekend. I know that I am. So I'm going for a nap when Nemo goes to his friends bowling party later on.

Until then I will be reading a book and be taking to friends...... One Minute At A Time until later on. I can't just stop because I'd really struggle with the physical detox so I've got to drop down slowly.

I hope you all have a safe evening. xxx

obrigada good to see you again.
Small I may be a tad guilty about the sea glass. I love it but it's not as valuable as Opal Fruits!
Mouse about time the food trolley reappeared. I smiled and had a wee cheer at nemo off to a bowling party. That's one fish who has come a hell of a long way.