Brave Babes Battle Bus

[Halleberry]

New thread girlies as the other was about to run out ... Hope you all find this one xxx

Thank you all for your lovely posts, I thought I couldn't cry anymore but it seems I can!!

I wasn't sure whether to share what happened, grief is such a personal emotion and I didn't want to bring the thread down but I think there's a lesson to be learned by me and all of us, we're all wading through shit so much of the time it's important to look up to the sky and see the beauty in the world.

Her death has left me feeling restless, being bipolar I find living very hard at times, honestly I think everyone on our lovely bus does, we are the kind sensitive souls that get caught in life's crossfire and we drink to escape the utter effort of it all.

My escape from the deep darkness of depression is kinda like the Prince kissing Snow White, you come back to life but are unsure how to proceed, relieved to have made it back but guilty you feel that it's not "all that".

I think we are all firefighting our way through this life, although booze seems to dampen the flames it really makes them roar and angrier than ever. That what keeps me sober, and you guys of course xxx

I thank god for this bus and the support and love of every one of you.

I guess we just keep on keeping on TOGETHER xxx

baby I am just about to light some candles.......I will light one for you and your friend 😰

sober that is a lovely lovely thing to do, I appreciate the sentiment very much.xxx

Ohbaby. Was that the Arthur's Seat accident?
So very sorry for your loss. Made me think about living life to the full, not just existing.
Hugs for you.

babyjane

Babyj so sorry to hear about your dear friend, such a tragedy

ma it was in Kinnef. sober very touched, thank you everyone for your kindness. I will miss her very much, she was amazing. Just glad I had the chance to know her and love her.

No word on the funeral yet, very sad times ahead xxx

Baby lovely, I am so sorry to hear about your friend, such a tragedy. It really does make you think doesn't it? Our lives can be cut short at any moment, we really don't know what's around the corner.
Hugs & loads of love darling xxx

Aww baby just read this. I am so very sorry for what you're going through and for what happened to your lovely friend. She does indeed sound like she was an incredible woman. It certainly does put things into perspective xx sending lots of love your way xxx

Baby, I am so sorry to hear about the death of your friend, she sounds like an amazing woman xx

Off to London today for meetings with potential funders..
They are paying so get to travel first class! Oh the luxury of a quiet train, free food and drink, no kids....
I feel like a proper grown up important person

Oh best of luck today Ma you "proper grown up important person"

ma thinking of you today and sending positivity your way. You'll charm them with your fabulousness, I'm certain of it. We need a bit of good news xxxx

So sorry for your loss baby

Good luck ma first class sounds lovely!

Ooh I say, off to the grand shire of London she goes and first class too! bugger the funding today I say.... I vote for...

ma for prime minister!!!

then we can go on our hols by Percy The Private Jet and ma can fiddle the treasury for her funds

Hope you've had a great day nobbing with hobs,

Oh wait.... Xx

xx

I'm here wry and off to Portland Place tomorrow to convince them to give me the business....
If I can keep this damn business together long enough, there may be a visit to Downing Street on the cards at some time in he future, but can't say any more at the moment!!!!
When I am PM I will invite you all down for a piss up

Hey ma just home and checking in, hope they're looking after you and that ye've been well fed and watered. Are you managing a bit of chilling time doon there tonight?

Fingers and paws crossed here for you, good luck for the morn, go git 'em!

I am having a glass, it's been a tough day, but managed 6 days in between so I'm focusing on the positive.

I wish you were Prime Minister. You would be very kind, just and beautifully purple and a piss up sounds just the ticket at the minute Ooh and I've always fancied learning to play croquet. They do that at Chequers, eh? (((((((Goodluckforthemornbosie))))))))) xx

Hello everyone, will name check in a bit but there's a packet of chicken super noodles with my name on it. I may even fry an egg for on top.

Comfort food central. xx

ma fingers tightly crossed for tomorrow!! Xxx

baby I'm thinking of you. I don't know what else to say, except you are amazing xxx

lala where are you? Hope you're ok xxx

claret hope you're having a lovely holiday xxx

wry hope you're ok and that things at work are settling? Xxx

Had a day full of good intentions, managed no drinking this morning and a short nap then up and about. Downloaded headspace app too which is fab

Then had my DM here this afternoon, and it got to me trying on dresses for a wedding that I'm going to...settled on a possibility then got told it would be fine 'if you go for a few runs first, and maybe do some abs work'. Which is fine advice if your daughter a) hasn't had two admissions for anorexia (a while ago, but still!) and b) fucking asked for that sort of advice in the first place!!! (actually not sure it would ever be good advice?)

I'm struggling with my eating as well as the drinking, and my BMI is borderline underweight at the moment, and the lowest in 8 years. I'm so conflicted as it is about this, don't need someone essentially telling me I'm fat...logically I can't be. But I threw my stir fry out uneaten as I don't feel I deserve nutritious food anymore, and had some toast instead.

So my perfect little AF day is out the window, don't give a shit actually. Have counsellor tomorro afternoon, just have to be able to drive by then and that's it.

Sorry lovely people, I'd hoped I'd be sending a more positive post for once. I can sort of do this when I'm working, but give me a couple of days off I'm screwed.

Day 6 here too wry go on, you deserve a fried egg!

It's not been easy, every day I can think of one excuse or another. Sunday night was hard, I was anxious about work the next day (for no reason, maybe I was actually anxious about not drinking, but blamed my mood on work instead?)

But in reality, by staying sober there is less to be worried about. I don't have to worry about going to work with a hangover, or not having had enough sleep. Or wondering if I can get away without bothering to shower, or feeling guilty if I kept DH awake. It's easier this way.

Ma before I forget, how was London?

Still in London joey
"Roundtable* discussion today with other potential bidders, damn them. May the fleas of a thousand camels infest their armpits.
Then free in the afternoon to mooch about London all by my very own self, then dinner with sis.

Day 5 today

Sorry for your loss baby

Day 5 for me too Fading, and today I will not be drinking!

Waves to all babes xx

Morning...day 1..

Ugh I really need to stop with the drunk self pitying posts sorry everyone.

I set out intent on getting drunk, so not helping myself at all, it's totally deliberate. Hungover today after two bottles of wine and quite a lot of gin, complete waste of a day and not worth it. Going to aim for a stretch of AF days over the weekend.

Hope everyone's ok, fading and obrigada massive well done on day 5! ma hope today went well and you're enjoying London. lala are you ok?