Brave Babes Battle Bus

[Halleberry]

New thread girlies as the other was about to run out ... Hope you all find this one xxx

Afternoon all. How is everyone? sober your dog is gorgeous.

Feeling a bit sorry for myself today, been moping about. No word from the police. Feeling generally crap.

What is everyone else up to?

Hi all, on Day 4, I had a rare af Friday. Glad I did as the washing machine has flooded the kitchen and it's taken about an hour to clean up. I'd still have got it done if I'd had a drink up I'd have been raging! I definitely don't handle upsets well if I've been drinking, and even the littlest things turn into a struggle.

I've just done day 3 of the 30 day Shred, I'm trying to get into healthier habits in June. Dh kept trying to get me to drink last night, poured me a glass. I didn't make a big deal of telling him I wasn't drinking but I've noticed whenever I cut down his intake goes way up.

Hi all, totally overwhelmed by all the support you're giving me. Thank you so much, it really really means so much

Feeling (predictably) shocking today, like all my organs are sort of sore and inflamed. I'm working tomorrow, then nights mon/tues which is kind of a relief as even if I do end up drinking it has to be controlled.

baby you're right about the self harm thing, I've been thinking about this today...I've been down the cutting route too (very long time ago), and ended up being lucky enough to have plastic surgery later on to sort the scars. So because of this I've always had the inventive that I will never do that again. But actually what I am doing now is far more dangerous.

sober your dog is gorgeous! Very jealous that you have sun...grey and overcast here. Your dm sounds like hard work to say the least, but sounds like the therapy is helping you maintain a bit of perspective.

claret have a lovely holiday!

lala hope you're ok, sorry that things still aren't sorted.

halle thank you lovely. I get what you mean about not stopping suddenly, but I don't think I'm physically addicted (yet!). I will be careful though. Hope you're ok xx

I'm still not dressed so going to drag myself into the shower now. Not planning on a productive day but might try and sort my shit tip of a room out a bit, it stinks of stale booze even waking up this morning realised my bedding stinks of it. I probably do too. So clean bedding and sort out some empties (I live alone....why the hell do i still hide bottles?!?!) is my little goal for the day. ive text lovely pregnant friend to try and see if I can go and see her soon, known her for over 20 years so like you all said I know she will want to know.

elba hope you are ok. Feeling more than massively fed up this evening. Going to go to waitrose and get something nice for dinner, anyone got any suggestions to cheer myself up?

Ooo lala only just seen your post but you can't go wrong with pretty much anything in waitrose! I'm partial to their fish cakes but I'm sure there's tonnes of other (probably yummier) things to choose from!

Just checking in. A lovely day at Anstruther looking for sea glass. Found some good pieces too!

Going to do the avacado, mozerella etc dinner

ma sea glass is awesome. Glad you found some good stuff. My puppy is currently destroying everything I own. She is lucky I love her.

Day 2. Funnily enough, on the way home from work yesterday I automatically thought of popping in to buy some wine - only 4 hours after deciding to go dry, I'd already forgotten my pledge! Bad habits are so hard to kick.

I'm definitely going to save some money this month.

Waves to everyone. Good luck for tomorrow mouse

Well done joey. I am thinking about changing the dog's name. She has an italian name now, I am not happy about it.... Any advice?

Hi all, in bed and, for tonight at least, sober. Managed a bit of a clean up, recycling bin is now rather full but my bedroom smells a bit less like a brewery thanks to large amount of febreze and some smelly candles. I've not really left it since Thursday evening except to go to the shop, back at work tomorrow so will put my brave face on and keep going. Just hoping for some sleep...I've made a playlist that should last till morning as an experiment to see if it help or keeps me awake.

No idea if I will drink tomorrow night or not, the whole one day at a time thing is making a lot or sense to me now. I can see myself getting into a bit of a pattern of abstaining/ moderating then bingeing though which is not good.

lala hope you enjoyed your dinner. I think you should go back tomorrow though and get yourself that steak...you deserve a treat. No idea about renaming puppies I'm afraid, I guess it depends how well she knows her name. I can totally see why you'd want to though. Sorry things still aren't sorted. Hope you're ok tonight xxx

Hope everyone else is ok, sorry not to name check you all. I'm of to (hopefully) get some sleep, will check back in tomorrow night.

elba sleep tight. I am wearing his t - shirt and feeling sorry for myself. I tried her new name out. She literally didn't bat an eyelid. Guess we are sticking to her actual name. Shame, they aren't dissimilar. Listening to a bit of Amy winehouse. I used to know her, but that's another story

Hello babes, im hopping back on the bus, things are out of control again. Cant sleep because im riddled with anxiety, my first evening even vaguely sober in 4 days. Been an intense bender and ive fucked up big time. Anyway, hoping to be joining u all for a while. Hope you are all doing well. This has probably been asked a million times but do any of you do AA? im not physically dependent on alcohol (although i do get mild withdrawl after a bender, like now i cant sleep, anxious, palpitations etc) but i am a massive binge drinker. Not sure how useful it would be for me to go, but got to do something :/

Can't sleep at all, horrible anxiety. Been watching children's Netflix as an attempt at distracting myself. Have to be up for work in an hour and a half..going to be a long day.

Hi toaster hope you've managed to drop off now.

oh no elba that is guna be tough :/ luckily I've only got a childrens party to take my dd to so shouldnt be too tiring. Dont think im guna get a wink of sleep tonight though. My chest feels like i've been punched, but im aching all over so hope its just the general strain of the alcohol/withdrawl rather than a problem with my heart. Are u still awake?

oh no elba that is guna be tough :/ luckily I've only got a childrens party to take my dd to so shouldnt be too tiring. Dont think im guna get a wink of sleep tonight though. My chest feels like i've been punched, but im aching all over so hope its just the general strain of the alcohol/withdrawl rather than a problem with my heart. Are u still awake?

oh no elba that is guna be tough :/ luckily I've only got a childrens party to take my dd to so shouldnt be too tiring. Dont think im guna get a wink of sleep tonight though. My chest feels like i've been punched, but im aching all over so hope its just the general strain of the alcohol/withdrawl rather than a problem with my heart. Are u still awake?

oh no elba that is guna be tough :/ luckily I've only got a childrens party to take my dd to so shouldnt be too tiring. Dont think im guna get a wink of sleep tonight though. My chest feels like i've been punched, but im aching all over so hope its just the general strain of the alcohol/withdrawl rather than a problem with my heart. Are u still awake?

Lovely, lovely Mouse, wishing you strength and happiness today, good luck dear friend, from a very proud, pompom shoogling wry xx

I have managed not to have any wine this weekend, it's been an almighty struggle. I want to blot, blot and blot again but have been gardening instead. I have put some plants in for some colour including tons of nasturtiums. Because she eats/prunes/destroys all that gets in the way of her mouth I am careful to buy non toxic plants. It's a bit limiting but necessary.

We are off to the forest in a bit, it's scorchio here but nice and shady there. And very helpfully miles away from m&s and their bottles of elderflower cider.

My pup was out this morning, leaping like a deer in the long grass. She stopped only briefly with the aid of liver to let me take this. 7 months old and so grown up already.

Hope everyone is well and enjoying the sunshine wherever you may be, bosies to all, xx

sober, your bairn is beautiful, what a lovely picture.

claret, enjoy your holidays lovely lass, hope the weather bides fine for you, xx

wry yours is also gorgeous! Aren't we lucky to have such lovely doglets? Good for you for avoiding the wine. Sadly I have not done the same.

elba I hope work is going ok and that you are ok. Thinking of you xxx

mouse good luck!

Waves to claret, pink, rarity and all, anyone seen will recently? And hi to magic. Hope everyone is enjoying the sunshine...

Am out in the sunshine. It's really warm here in central Scotland.

Gorgeous day, waves to all! Been out for lunch and half of DD's class is here.
So am stuck in a pub in the sunshine. Can't drag her away from the play area! So far had 2 pints and not going to have any more.
Hope you are all doing ok xx

Boiling here too ma. Been for a lovely ride on my lovely horse with her new saddle. Now taking pup for a walk. Too warm for a bra (!) so sporting a bikini top, with denim cutoffs and trainers, I am quite the 80's throwback.

rarity sounds an ideal way to pass the afternoon. Enjoy!

elba are you ok? halle, where have you got to?