Hello everyone. I'm sorry I haven't been about. I am struggling a bit. A lot really.
lala I am sorry your trip went awry, it all sounds most stressful, I'm not surprised he got to you at a low moment. The nasty bugger wants his arse kicking for making you feel scared. Well done for getting him back out, that must have been hard when you were crying out for a bit of comfort. ((((((((getoverthenastyarticlebosie))))))))))) xx
Halle 7 days was no mean achievement my dear, you can do it, and do it well! I would love a wee book club, I love a good read, (((getthepagesturningbosie))) xx
babyjane I'm so sorry I missed your birthday my darling, I am so happy that it truly was a 'happy' birthday for you. Your bairn's card! Gulp...What a treasure to keep! You are a good person, always were and always will be, look at what you did! So proud you have found your happy place, (((happybirthdaybosie))) xx
obrigada right me dear! Fab achievement getting healthier and managing a kickass weight loss as well! I love veg. I may well have to borrow your diet and hope I don't blow up the bus. I love sprouts. There. I said it... (((waspwaistedbosie))) xx
ma I am so sorry you are having such a rubbish time of it, it must have finished you to let your colleague go, you fight so tirelessly for funding, it really isn't fair and I can't imagine how that felt for you. And now that your wee family is having a hard time too you must feel like the world is kicking you when you are down. Hand holding and magic wand waving for you my friend. Always, (((twinklyglitterandburpfreezonebosie))) xx
hope Oh jeezaloo, what a pain, you must be so frustrated that they have done that to you. Something will come right for you, I feel it. And your lazy WB will feel it an' all. I am quietly chasing him round in my head with one of my crops. The antique silver topped bamboo one. It's stings like an arse. Say the word and I will post it to you. I'm not a fan of inflicting pain on mammals but would gladly spur him on a bit for you. Send him to me for a week. I'll make him weep with gratitude that he is not wed to me. (((bigbigbigspurryonbosie))) xx
muddle you know what me dear? I would love to hear all about your day, really I would. Post away, you will make my day! I remember one letter from my mam, it was all about picking up the wrong hoover bags. It found me at one of my lowest moments. Just to hear about her day, brought me such comfort and made me feel I was home, it remains my favourite letter ever. (((g'wanmedearbosie))) xx
spanna How are you my dear? Thank you, such kind words as ever, love you. The Counter Terrorist has reached backchatty gobshitey stage. "Yes I know I learned sit, stay and off. But I am choosing to stick my hormonal paw up in a one digit salute." And the holes! Holes face deep in my pee riddled grass. She is so desperate for some penis she is turning into a hairy JCB.
I am protecting her virtue with every ounce of my being but man, I'd forgotten some bitches could be like this. Little was a model of Victorian ankle flashing tartiness. She would whisk away with a little grr and baring of teeth. The Counter Terrorist would have them lining up in the street with me charging admission on me 6 foot gate. I will look out some photos my dear, she is all grown up looking now, but she is still my baby! (((((almightybearhuggybosie)))) xx
joey I hope your nephew is keeping fine now and that he got the best of care. Thank you for your well timed hand hold, and kind words. It couldn't have come at a better time. You and I sound so similar, I will beat myself up so much there is no need for anyone else to ever discipline me. I am my own harshest critic. I missed your game, I am so sorry, is it still on the go? What is it? I spotted ma on a Mornington Cresent one the other day. I am ashamed to say I don't understand Mornington Crescent..
The Counter Terrorist found me a man in the park. She's all about the men at the moment, the horror. She found a young, big forearmed, slightly sweaty workman on his way home and would not leave him alone. He was so kind, he ignored her pushy behaviour and gave me a big smile. "my Dob was just like this at her age, give her a firm hand and she'll come right". . A firm hand you say? Wibble. I feel so young in my head that I overlooked the fact he was only in his late twenties. He probably thought to himself that he should be polite to his elders.
I do like your idea about borrowing one or two of ma's soldiers. Good idea Batman. genius, in fact. (((((Holyfindmesomesoldiersbatmanbosie)))) xx
cauliflower The other love of my life is a big awd 17.2 shire cross. He belongs to my friend, she competes but he is just a steadying influence for the youngsters. She is the kindest friend, she knows I like to muck out and that I take great pleasure in laying a fine deep bed, so she leaves his loose box for me when I go round. She knows if I'm stressed that tack cleaning gives me a break from the turmoil in my head. I love the smell, it transports me to my happiest of places. (((breatheinthathorsesmellbosie))) xx
Elba Thank you for your support petal, I am writing everything down now, I don't know if I will ever use it but it gives me comfort that it is there. Each single incident looks like nowt, but a bunch of them on a page makes me realise that I am not imagining things. I called my old friend for support, he is retired now, but has seen this time and again. He advised me to stay low, act with dignity and never bite back.
He gave me support in spades, he and I are very old school, we are all about the basics, care and compassion above all else. He knows that me speaking up took a lot for me to do, and he was right. It did. Am I glad I did? It's left me questioning everything, but I am. I just need to find the strength to ride it out, ((((bigthankyoubosie)))) xx
Mouse do we need a road trip so wee can shoogle a gazillion pompoms for you at the finish line? Look at you go! You as ever, are an inspiration, it is humbling, good luck and strength my friend, ((((((shouldertoshoulderyoucandoitbosie)))) xx
pink you can fight this, he has got nowt, you hold the aces my darling, stay strong, ((((((bucketfulofwhoopassbosie))))) xx
And last but not least, claret. You sound so strong, and so full of sense. Your posts give me hope for a better tomorrow, and I so need that. One thing trumps it though. Your sharing of the T'internet Puzzle. This week it has given me an out from all the stress at work, just methodically working through to quite literally see the bigger picture. A little bit of peace at break time. Thank you, it's a wee thing to some but it has saved me this week. (((((lifeplopsintoplaceonepieceatatimebosie))))))))))) xx
Apologies for shite grammar and spelling mistakes but will post before this goes spiralling into the etherland of lost posts.
Sorry if I've missed anyone, you know it's never my intention,((((((allencompassingjustincaset'interbosie)))))) I don't know what I'd do without you all, xx